Member: BettyR
Location: cold
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 5:11:29 PM

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Hi Betty-alcoholic here, Welcome to 2001 everyone--when I was a child I thought that was a long time away---you know what--it was! I had to go through everything that I went through to get here. This is where my experience comes from. My strength and hope come from my HP who I call God. Yes, I have children out there also and prayer is a powerful thing! As Annie said, everyday has "presents" in store for me and that is because thy will be done --not mine. I need to open my ears, heart, and mind to appreciate life today. Tom, i think you should continue with your service work-- Our BB tells us so-- God Bless and keep all of you!


Member: Guy U.
Location: East Coast
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 5:27:22 PM

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I am Guy. An Alcoholic. In and out of rooms for almost 20 years.I Love my sobriety. It's all this extra time I have a hard time filling. I have all this pent up energy. Any suggestions.Too cold to run or take a walk but it wouldn't be if I needed something to drink.


Member: alcoholic
Location: trudging the road...
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 6:00:54 PM

Comments

Hi im an alcoholic

beginning the new millenium sober is a gift that i often forget has been a blessing. i still remember the pain, despair (four horseman) because i've had to use the alanon program also.

i mainly have "problems in living" and am blessed (although i do not see this immediately) by the urge to be taken from me.

happy new year,

i'll take another 24, it works if you work it, keep coming back


Member: Dawn R.
Location: Canada
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 6:07:40 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Dawn, alcoholic. I found in my first year of soberity the best way for me to fill my time was to be in meetings, meetings, meetings.Then I went to school and worked and went to meetings. Now at 4+ years sober I wonder when I had time to drink. Between work, meetings, friends,meditation,sleep, shopping, coffees out and the odd date or two life is pretty full. I think its just a matter of putting in the time and feeling comfortable in my OWN skin. Happy New Year to everyone and God bless. Dawn


Member: Steve M.
Location: Orange Ca
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 6:43:45 PM

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Hello everybody My name is Steve M. Alcoholic. I got sober in July 87 and have not had a drink since !! I remember when I first got sober I was so scared of drinking again and what that life had brought me all I knew to do was work,go to a meeting, sleep,then do it all over again.My suggestion is find somebody to help less fortunate than you. Take care of yourself stay sober, help others, God has put the right people The right message in my life exactly when I needed It.God Bless All What A great way to start a new year !!!!!


Member: rich c
Location: jersey city,N.J.
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 7:19:19 PM

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Hi evryone!It's great to be sober for another New YEAR.God is good!I've been coming around since 1973.It took me a long time to get sober, but you know what?If you don't stop trying you can never fail.I also have a mental illness and I don't know what I would do without the fellowship of AA.It has saved my life.


Member: Mike An
Location: Chicago, Illinois
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 8:31:48 PM

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Howdy I'm Mike and I am an Alcoholic; I hope everyone is okay here. Happy New Year to all. I am still celebrating my Fifth Anniversary; which was December 25. I know that this is probably some old behavior, or at least the last vestiges of it. I am just still pretty full of amazement that God would do this thing for me, despite how many times I ignored what I knew to be His Will while I practised my addictive behavior for most of forty years. I am grateful that there is a God who will give his Grace to any who truly asks for it and will follow His Will to their best of their ability. That last is very important to me as other than staying sober I have only been able to do as I believe that He would have me do sporadically. While I have no desire to drink or get high, I find some character defects hard to give up, I find some contrary behavior hard to resist. I do believe that as I continue to try to recover that I will find it easier to act in a manner more like what God wants because when I look at myself today I see very little resemblance to the guy who couldn't go an hour without chemical alteration. Hell, I don't resemble the guy who first surrendered either. Day by day I am getting to be a better person--more able and willing to do what ought to be done by me according to God's Will; both within and without the rooms of the Fellowship. For this I am grateful even more than I am humbled. Thank you all for everything that you have done to help me get this far. May I one day be able to pass it on...I'll keep coming back.


Member: Mark B
Location: Eielson AFB, AK
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 8:39:11 PM

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Mark, dope fiend alcoholic, As I start a new century, due to God and the program of AA, there is cause for hope and optimism for me. By nature, I'm not an optimistic person. My track record of drinking and using gave me cause not to be overly positive. By doing whats been suggested of me, not drinking or using, and just showing up, I've been blessed beyond my wildest dreams. I do routinely what I used to fantasize about from a bar stool. I owe it all to God and the program. Last night was the amature night, when it is socially acceptable to get wasted. Hell, the way I drank and doped everynight qualified as New Year's. Ya know, my wife and I were in bed at midnight last night, sleeping. Now that for me, is a wonderful way to welcome in the new century. Bottom line for me is I'm just grateful to be breathing in and out, everything else is a fringe benefit of sobriety.

Mark


Member: RYAN
Location: Chicago
Date: 1/1/01
Time: 10:18:52 PM

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hi,this is new to me as far as using this computer.but i have a few 24hrs this last year has been absolute hell for me. i lost a child directly related to alcohol.I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO REPAY WHAT THIS WONDERFUL PROGRAM HAS GIVEN ME.i did not have to drink through this and for that i am eternally GRATEFUL only by the grace of GOD AND YOU PEOPLE can I do this... GOD bless all of YOU and i Pray that we all have a sober 24hrs ahead of us.........


Member: Dennis McG
Location: Lakewood, WA
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 12:53:44 AM

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Hi, all. Dennis, alcoholic, here. Hope everyone has a wonderful new year ahead!

Spent last night driving 30 miles away to my home town, where I went to the streets I grew up on... and later, staggered down many nights after partying with friends. Seeing it again, and remembering vividly what life used to be like, helps me realize how much the old Dennis (the drunk) is dead. I could not possibly have gotten here, almost two years sober and usually feeling better than any time I can remember, from there. I thanked and praised my Higher Power. I look forward to what He has in store!

Found an alcathon to attend afterward. Twenty erstwhile drunks playing penny-ante poker, eating donuts and cookies, and shooting off fireworks -- where else would I want to be on New Year's?

I am blessed, which I come to appreciate more and more. Thanks to my Higher Power, A.A., and all of you wonderful recovered drunks!


Member: Steve J.
Location: Booneville,Arkansas
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:31:48 AM

Comments

Hi, Steve here- alcoholic/addict. I'm very happy to be celebrating 2001 with ya'll. 2 & 1/2 years ago, I wasn't so sure I would be. Now sitting home with my fiancee and our 18 mo. old son, I wouldn't trade my sobriety for all the alcohol in Arkansas! Thanks to all of our "extended families" for all your support and I hope to be speaking with you again real soon.


Member: KITKAT
Location: ARCTICA
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:32:07 AM

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Happy New Year!! I have been sober for 12 years now and I know what Guy is talking about.When I sobered up I did not know what to do with the time between meetings,It felt like it would go on forever.I was told and I agree that boredom is a sign of selfcentredness and one way to get out of it is to become active with newcomers,or if you are near a central office go volunteer.Time can be a alcoholics best friend or if we are wrapped up in ourselves our worst enemy!! Happy 24 everyone!


Member: Charles W.
Location: WV, USA
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:34:22 AM

Comments

Hello Fellowship & Happy New Year! I'm a grateful recovered alcoholic named Charles W. Whole lotta topics up above all of which I'm sure I couldn't add much more insight. I'm full of a whole range of emotions on this first day of the new year that in the past I would've drank over. I'm just grateful to God, AA, my sponsor & homegroup, and the still suffering alcoholic that I'm now able to sit still long enough to feel and appreciate all of these emotions today.

Love, peace & sobriety, Charles W.


Member: Jennifer
Location: Seattle
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:39:33 AM

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Hi, Jen, alcoholic. Ryan, you can't know how you saved my bacon tonight. I have been so deeply depressed today, very thirsty and just don't want to live one more year. It's been tough - lots of challanges. I lost my daughter (8ys old) 2 years ago, and like you, I didn't drink. I guess I forgot how lucky I was until you reminded me. Prayers for you in your loss, and lets keep out little angels proud of us. OK, I guess I'll stay sober one more day. Thank God for this site. Big AA hugs....


Member: Wanda the Wino
Location: Lantana Florida
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:44:46 AM

Comments

It was great reading eveyone's comments. I couldn't sleep tonight and was looking for a little uplift. Sharing - that's what makes this program great. Every time I hear another alcoholic, it helps put things in perspective for me. As for what to do when you have too much time on your hands - well, this too shall pass. Smile.


Member: AnilG
Location: MtVernon,ILL
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 8:23:44 AM

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anil alcoholic.I want to thank God for giving me another life and another chance without this fellowship and AA i was not going to see this new year 2001. With aa and 12 steps i plan to continue to seek support of fellows and my tis year resolution is to loose weight because it the addiction to food that i must overcome now.


Member: Annie K.
Location: Blue Ridge Mountains
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 9:14:56 AM

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It seems so funny to me now that I don't have nearly enough time to do all the things I try to cram into my days. I used to think that every day was one long flatline that just crawled into eternity. By the grace of God and the program of AA, I have learned, mostly, to live my life and love my sobriety and fellow travelers on this road to happy destiny. Always have been an extremist, and still want everything NOW, and still find myself at the center of my own universe, sometimes. But it's about progress, not perfection. Thanks for sharing, Anil. I think we all feel like you do a lot of the time. I have to remember that I am a child of God. When I work the 12 steps in my life, my reactions change. Today I trust God, and if He thinks I need to be right where I am, then that's where I'll be. The fellowship of AA is the beginning of a strong "insurance" foundation and the help of a sponsor is the next important thing. The steps have changed my life.p.s.when I was a kid, i used to visit my granny in waltonville!


Member: VI
Location: N
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:22:14 PM

Comments

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE,I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I'VE BEEN SOBER AROUND 9 MONTHS BEFORE THAT 14 YEARS . I DON'T MAKE MEETINGS OR KEEP SPONSORS AND I DON'T FEEL APART OF AA .I TRY BUT I JUST DON'T CONNECT. I'VE TRIED AA IN THE PAST IN DIFFERENT STATES AND IT SEEMED SO MUCH MORE CONNECTED PEOPLE WERE CONNECTED AND CARED . I DON'T GET THAT AND I NEED IT.[ THE FEELING THAT SOME ONE ELSE IS REACHING OUT TO ME ] I'VE ALSO BEEN DIAGNOSED BI POLAR AND I GET SCARED FROM THE FEELINGS THE MEDS GIVE ME. I TRY TO DO THINGS RIGHT BUT DO A LOT OF THINGS WRONG. I DON'T FEEL VERY GOOD ABOUT MYSELF A LOT OF THE TIME. I AM GLAD IM SOBER TODAY ,I AM GLAD I AM GLAD I'M ALIVE AND TYPING THIS AND REACHING OUT.


Member: VINNIE V
Location: NEW ENGLAND
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:25:10 PM

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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE,I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I'VE BEEN SOBER AROUND 9 MONTHS BEFORE THAT 14 YEARS . I DON'T MAKE MEETINGS OR KEEP SPONSORS AND I DON'T FEEL APART OF AA .I TRY BUT I JUST DON'T CONNECT. I'VE TRIED AA IN THE PAST IN DIFFERENT STATES AND IT SEEMED SO MUCH MORE CONNECTED PEOPLE WERE CONNECTED AND CARED . I DON'T GET THAT AND I NEED IT.[ THE FEELING THAT SOME ONE ELSE IS REACHING OUT TO ME ] I'VE ALSO BEEN DIAGNOSED BI POLAR AND I GET SCARED FROM THE FEELINGS THE MEDS GIVE ME. I TRY TO DO THINGS RIGHT BUT DO A LOT OF THINGS WRONG. I DON'T FEEL VERY GOOD ABOUT MYSELF A LOT OF THE TIME. I AM GLAD IM SOBER TODAY ,I AM GLAD I AM GLAD I'M ALIVE AND TYPING THIS AND REACHING OUT.


Member: Von
Location: Akron
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 1:40:45 PM

Comments

Happy New Year everyone!!! I signed on with a little trepidation because I feel so good and was afraid I'd run into negativity. So much for the drama my mind can create. I also absolutely enjoyed the New Year's. Last year's was my first and I was still very self-conscious and expectant. This year was beautiful. Simply beautiful. I took my time all day NY's eve. Slept in. Got up and took a long hot bath. Headed to an afternoon meeting and ended up chairing it. We had a nice crowd and a great topic. After the meeting I got with two sponsees and we shared our experiences with the 3rd over coffee. Then I went home and got ready for the sober dance. It was great hanging out with 350 of my closest alcoholics. We danced, hugged, and sang "Amazing Grace" before midnight. No need to fry any brain cells to enjoy life! We ate all day on New Year's day. I went to an evening meeting where the 1st step was the topic. How wonderful to start the new year remembering that first and foremost, I am an alcoholic, and my main problem "centers in the mind". So in the beginning, idle time was dangerous because my mind was too sick a place for me to lock myself inside. So lots of meetings and fellowship was the order of the day. In my drinking, I had let a lot of things go and needed to clean up things and throw things out and that took time too. I had to work the steps with my sponsor and get into new habits. Pretty soon I ran out of idle time. It's amazing how absolutely busy you get when you're sober. Last year was a blur. Today, to sit down and relax is a blessing. I can sit in peace and solitude and be comfortable in my own skin. I have less to try to "run" away from as I continue to "clear away the wreckage of the past". Guy, what you're going through is normal. Learn to recognize when your disease is calling you. Get out of yourself and go help another alcoholic. Pretty soon you will run out of time to do anything. If you stay sober, I guarantee it!!!


Member: Sharon M.
Location: Austin Tx
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 2:09:26 PM

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Hi, I'm Sharon alcoholic,addict. I am grateful to have found the rooms of A.A. almost 10 years ago. It has taken me on a wonderful journey of growth involving lots of pain, self reflection,owming my feelings and best of all "letting go" i would not be the women I am today without the program. My life is an absolute opposite of what I was. I can tel you that the steps are the only way to becoming comfortable inside of myself. This is a gift I get to experience every time I work with another drunk. I don't really work the steps anymore, they work me. Thank God I found the lights on when it became my turn to walkthru the doors. Thank God for the many who walked before me.Thank you God!!!!!


Member: Jim P
Location: Vancouver, Wa.
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 3:50:15 PM

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Hi! My name's Jim. I'm an alcoholic. Through the grace of God, I made it through my seventh set of clean and sober holidays. My vehicle died a few minutes ago as I was off to a meeting at my home group, and so after wwhining about not getting to a meeting, I suddenly remembered (read that "God Shot") about on line meetings. Thank you for being here, and saying what you say. I've discovered that my God tends to speak to me through your mouths or in this case through your keyboards. Trust God, clean house and help others. When you hurt, let us know. When you feel okey dokey, let us know that too. I was taught that theres only two times to go to a meeting: when you want to and when you don't want to. Love you guys. Thanks!


Member: AZbill
Location: Sierra Vista, Arizona
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 5:27:28 PM

Comments

HI Gang. This is my 20th New Years celebration without alcohol. It was an awesome weekend spent with FOB Skydivers. Dinners, Meetings in the team room. The highlight of the weekend was watching 70 skydivers trying to join hand in free fall. And watching my group do a 9-way.

Guy U I find myself way to busy to have time to drink. I am the DCMC for two Districts. And a treasurer for an on line group. I attend at least three meetings a week face to face. A District meeting once a month. Four Area Assemblies a year. I give back to the community what I can.

I have found that the steps got me sober and service work helps keep me there. So off I go still trudging that happy road leading into the Third Millennium. Hope I am around to celebrate the Fourth LOL.

Y'all have a great year ya heah???

Bill az-bill@primenet.com


Member: Cyn B
Location:
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 7:24:40 PM

Comments

Hi folks. My new year's resolution was to stop drinking because it's sucking up too much of my time. So far so good.... wish me well.


Member: tf
Location:
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 7:52:22 PM

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cyn b.

sucking??????????yeaaaaaaaaaa


Member: Susan M
Location: Kansas
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 8:25:34 PM

Comments

Day Number One-Again

I'm sitting here-detoxing again. I have been to 5 rehabs AA based but I never got rid of some resentments. I did another really stupid binge. I'm lucky to be alive my physical pain is so bad. I know I need to go to a meeting but my withdrawalis so bad. I want to give AA a chance this time so I want anyone out there to please share how to make it this time.

Susan M


Member: Michael Blasaric
Location: Portland
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 9:52:32 PM

Comments

Susan M., all I know is the program works when I let it, easy does it but do it, one day at a time!

I was told early on by my first sponsor that I just have to have the desire (want) to be sober, and then I should do the program (the steps). I know that my holding onto anger eventually turns into a resentment. If I do harm to myself or to others without cleaning-up my side of the fence is also a danger to thiss AA, and can put me back on the streets, as well. Fortunately, AA works, it must or I'd be dead. Go to as many face-to-face meetings as you can get to, work the steps, and work with other alcoholics.

Blessings to you, sobriety is within your grasp!


Member: scarecrow
Location: emerald city
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 10:19:14 PM

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susan m,

your in kansas right? well follow the yellow brick road.......follow,follow,follow,follow, follow the yellow brick road.........


Member: Annie K.
Location: Blue Ridge Mountains
Date: 1/2/01
Time: 10:33:12 PM

Comments

I remember being in your shoes, Susan, and thinking that I could see AA working for others and still thinking it would never work for me. My willfulness and denial were still so strong when I got slam-dunked into AA by some judge, that it's a miracle I ever got sober long enough to see what it felt like. People kept telling me to not quit before the miracle. They told me to keep coming back, and they kept infusing me with hope-something I hadn't had in my life for a long time. I drank like a drunk from the time I was 14 until I was 37. In the end, like so many others who shared their experience, strength and hope with me, I was so beat up that I couldn't fight anymore. "Cease fighting anything and everything, including alcohol" the BB tells me. I didn't do that on purpose-I had no fight left in me. I'm a garden variety drunk-no better, no worse than anyone else. And I'm willing to go to any lengths to not pick up a drink today. Are you that willing? Because unfortunately, that's what it takes. The easier, softer way really is AA. I'm not sure what AA based treatment centers are, but the program of Alcoholics Anonymous does indeed have a solution. It's there for you and it's there for me and for anybody who wants it. Not anybody who needs it...anybody who wants it. The 12 steps required things of me that I didn't want to do, didn't know how to do. Women in AA took me by the hand and taught me how to do normal everyday things without having to have a drink first. How to cook Thanksgiving dinner sober. How to call the washingmachine repairman when the washer broke-sober. How to put one foot in front of the other-sober. They taught me how to love myself again-or maybe for the first time. I didn't trust anyone when I came here,I couldn't tell anyone what was going on with me. But I kept going to those darn mtgs. and I kept trying to feel like maybe this could work for me,too. And it happened. There's magic that happens here. I'm in my life up to my eyeballs today...I've never had it so good. If it could happen for me, it can happen for you. You have to really want it. Do you really want it? Come and get it. The hand of AA is out there. There's no pain as bad as that one between my ears. Tell somebody the truth about what's going on with you. Tell 'em how bad you hurt, how scared you are. You'll be amazed at the relief. Keep coming back, it works if you let it-like Micheal said. IT'S A GREAT RIDE-GET ON BOARD!


Member: kitkat
Location: antartica
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 12:18:09 AM

Comments

Hi everyone,it is nice to be here again as I cannot always get out to meetings and I am feeling it today.Susan, I to know what you are going through.I was around a while before I could get sober and stay sober.It is a struggle for sure.Give time ,time.In otherwards give it a chance for the program to work.I had to throw out all of the info I had and start over in order to stay sober.I asked questions,listened to the old timers and went to a tone of meetings with other members.hang in and seek out a old timer that will lead the way.Sometimes we need a God with skin on him for a short period.keep the faith in the program and in yourself.


Member: bean
Location: snowy hills
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 12:31:02 AM

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bean,here,alcoholic.just a reminder that when you begin to drag your feet and don't get to meetings, chances are good that you will lose your seven years of sobriety and believe me the first round is a gift.i am sorry i know about round two except for the fact that no matter what any piece of your mind tells you, it is no different and i look forward to having seven more years of love and clarity, and then some. it's really a gift, and no time like the millenium for a gift like sobriety. wishing you the same


Member: Woody B
Location: Sacramento, CA.
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 2:43:52 AM

Comments

its been my exp. that when i am coasting in my recovery, i am going down hill, not up.


Member: Karen W
Location: Australia
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 5:16:40 AM

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Hi My name is Karen, and I'm a recovering alcoholic with eight years up, although I've been around a lot longer. I live on the east coast of Australia, and I love being sober. I work with alcoholics and addicts on a daily basis - and I am have 5 children - 2 stepsons and 1 son and 2 daughters. I have just enjoyed the best New Years Eve AA Party - with dancing singing fireworks and not one drunken argument. Who'd be pissed for quids???? I just wanted to say Hi and I hope to become a regular onliner - so if anyone out there can help me get started with some AA/NA/GA Recovery chat lines please email me Yours in sobriety Karen - kwatling@vtown.com.au


Member: mgp
Location: anonymous
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 9:11:16 AM

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Check in with Love before you walk out of the door in the morning, it is the only shot we got as a species, and you just might get a miracle in the process. :)


Member: mgp
Location: anonymous
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 9:11:42 AM

Comments

Check in with Love before you walk out of the door in the morning, it is the only shot we got as a species, and you just might get a miracle in the process. :)


Member: Miriam W.
Location: Baltimore, Maryland
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 10:52:29 AM

Comments

Hi ya'all I am not feeling too good emotionally. Had my whole family together for the holidays. First time in years. Thinking it would be wonderful, I invited my daughter and 4 year old grand daughter to visit. I hoped and believed my daughter had changed from a self centered, selfish mean spirited young woman to someone who wanted me in her life only for my time. I was wrong....She asked if she could come to visit to detox from heroin yet again. We had let her do this this past April, and she had relapsed. So I opened my house and my heart to her and she trashed everyone. During her detox she felt bad physically which was to be expected but she was did absolutely nothing while she was here. She laid around or slept and let everyone else take care of her child. Which don't get me wrong I love my grand daughter, but her only interaction with her was to scream at her or beat her. My daughter may have to go to jail in the next couple of months for driving on a suspended license several times and she wanted us to take her daughter for that period of time. We wanted to but we have a small house and 2 other children and my husband and I both work. It wouldn't have been impossible but the stress on us and our family would have been overwhelming and she can't understand this. She had also discussed with us relocating up here if she indeed had to go to jail and living with us for a short period of time. But her idea was to move all of her furniture into our too small house and take over the back part. Not even thinking about my Husband (this is his area of the house). When we told her that we could not do either of these things and why, she reverted back to her hateful, hurtful way and told me she still resented me for everything that had happened to her and that I was never there for her. She left, but ever since I have had this disconnected sad feeling that I could not understand. When I went to my psychiatrist yesterday. She told me I was grieving for the loss of a relationship that I thought had been restored. I called my daughter last night and she was very cold and distant, although she told me she loved me. I thought talking to her would make me feel better but it didn't. I miss my grand daughter and am sad what my daughter is doing to her. I feel so hopeless that my daughter turned out this way and I couldn't do anything to stop it. I tried but she would never let anyone reach her....PLEASE TELL ME WHAT I NEED TO HEAR.


Member: Rick S.
Location: Edmond, Oklahoma
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 10:56:20 AM

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Member: tony g
Location: ma
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 12:05:43 PM

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little bits of today will carry over into tomorrow,so with that i mind i try to do good things today,like not arguing with people,keeping up on bill paying,or addressing some other type problem like cable going on the fritz ,car ect...things tend to smooth themselves out ...what i'm trying to say is just to do the best you can today only in some way your tomorrow will be a little better.when i don't drink for this day i have a chance at a good tomorrow too.so i just don't drink today,i have younger family members who are drinkng to beat the band ,i have told them long ago how life is so much better without booze ,they still drink...i was like that myself,no one could tell me anything,i stay sober for me if by me staying sober i can give them a little hope ,then thats all i can ask for....it's a one day at a time deal...higher power,meetings....i'm tony an alcoholc


Member: Wouter
Location: neth.
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 3:44:33 PM

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Wouter, alkie and happy. Why, because I freed meself from the sick part in my behaviour, the sick part in my soul. To Miriam W, when I was younger I couldn't stop blaming my father for his attempt to suicide himself. And so I thought that it was his fault, a lot or all my problems. Off course the pain etc. etc. caused some misbehaviour in me, but in the end it was me, me and me. I had to live my life, and not live his life. So I stopped blaming him and took a good look at myself and I said STOP.

I love my father, a smart man who still denies his drinking habbit. He is not a drunk but an alcoholic... I was a drunk an alcoholic and a weedsmoker. Somehow the problem is al within yourself, and not somewhere out there. It is good to look at possible causes but it is bad to put a blaming finger to someone. I hope your daughter will see that, rather sooner than to late.

Don't blame her, and don't blame yourself.

Cher said in a famous line " snap out of it " and that is what all of us did, and so that is what your daughter needs to do, somehow.

Bye, blessings, I will listen to that marvellous

Lounge music some more, and feel happy some more. Thanks for sharing.


Member: DD
Location: Southern States
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 6:24:42 PM

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DD here, alcoholic. To Miriam: You cannot control your daughter's behavior. Let her work on her problems and keep your sobriety first.


Member: Tom
Location: NYC
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 7:04:11 PM

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Hi everyone, I'm Tom, an alcoholic. God willing in a couple weeks I'll be sober 3 yrs. I heard a few people here today talk about willingness. I'm the most willful person I know. Whether it's been an issue of stirring up the desire to stay sober, go to meetings, work the steps, be a good employee, study for classes, show up for commitments, I find that I am powerless to do any of it on my own. They told me in the beginning that God would do for me what I couldn't do for myself. What's kept me sober has been having a daily contact with my higher power who I always turn to when I'm not willing. I always ask for the willingness. It works.


Member: god send
Location:
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 7:23:57 PM

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one day at a time sweet jesus.........


Member: Mark M
Location: High Sierras
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 7:28:37 PM

Comments

Hello everyone Mark M here. This is my first entry on this site but you have all been an inspiration for me since 12/29/00.

I relapsed again after about 4 months. I really believed I could drink "normally" this time, you know just one glass of champagne with X-mas eve dinner, anyway that led to a blackout!!! Five days later and about 15 fifths of booze, from wine to bourbon, I stopped. Iíve been sober since 12/29/00. In a way this was good as I was feeling a lot of pressure from my partner and friends that I could learn to drink "normally". I don't think they believe that anymore! I have been in recovery (AA) before but I moved to a remote area in the Sierras of California (no meetings but of course a tavern) about a year ago. The nearest city with meetings is a two hours drive down a windy, icy, snowy, mountain road (with no noon meetings as I donít like driving this road at night). I usually come down from the mountain about once every six weeks I gave up my sponsor when I moved and have not had one since then and basically have been trying to work my own program with sporadic success (and not with the aid of this site as I first decided to research Internet AAs on 12/29). I realize living here will in some ways make the process more difficult but I just want to thank everyone here for there input, you are my AA meetings and I appreciate all your input. Today is a better day. Mark


Member: richard m
Location: sarasota, fla
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 8:20:09 PM

Comments

my name is richard, i am an alcoholic.......the first step is our focus........ a new beggining ..a new dawn ....the..this completed my fifthteenth year and some one elses first year !!!!!!!congradulations to both of us !!!!! may we last untill god call s us home !!!!


Member: CHRIS W.
Location: GLADSTONE MO.
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 9:58:29 PM

Comments

I AM GRATEFUL THAT GOD GAVE ME THE STRENGTH TO STAY SOBER DURING THE HOLIDAY SEASON.AT THIS TIME LAST YEAR I WAS IN A LIVING HELL OF MY OWN DESIGN.I HAVE BEEN PROCRASTINATING AND GETTING COMPLACENT OVER THE LAST FEW WEEKS ABOUT GOING TO MEETINGS.IM SCARED OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF I PICK UP SO I GOT ONLINE.I KNOW THAT WORK WITH OTHER ALCOHOLICS IS VITAL TO MY RECOVERY.ALTHOUGH THIS MEETING IS ONLINE IT HAS HELPED ME TO KNOW THAT IM NOT ALONE.I FEEL CONNECTED.WITH 2 MONTHS SOBER NOW I KNOW THAT ID BETTER GET MY BUTT UP TO THE HALL AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE!THANKS TO THE GRACE OF GOD AND THE PROGRAM IVE GOT ONE MORE DAY AND IVE BEEN GIVEN THE OPPORTUNITY TO GET OUT OF THAT BAD NEIGHBORHOOD THAT IS MY MIND.HAPPY NEW YEAR AND GOD BLESS!


Member: William.A.
Location: High-Point.
Date: 1/3/01
Time: 11:11:12 PM

Comments

Hello,William.A.Alkie.

I keep wondering when will people start reading the Big-Book and stop going to those kind of meeting that sound good but leave you thinking that you had to drink every drink that you choose to drink,instead of studing the Big- Book as it says on (page)381.study this book -- just dont read-it.Then maybe we will start taking responsibility for each drink that we took once we started to realize that we had a problem,also what about the ones that come to A/A. get sober or just stop drinking awhile then start drinking once again dont they tell the bewildered one that we can get off the bus at any stop we choose,I think I remember the B-B saying aboutwe have lost the power of choice in drinking like normal folks.

Some-one who knew what he was talking about made a statement like such ( PAIN WAS THE TOUCH-TONE TO (ALL)SPIRITUAL GROWTH).

Have a happy-24.

William.A.


Member: OBSERVER
Location: EARTH
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 12:11:07 AM

Comments

TJ

SAVE IT FOR THE COFFEE POT


Member: Taru
Location: Finland
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 10:21:56 AM

Comments

Hi! My name is Taru and I'm an alcoholic. This is the first time I'm visiting this site. I come from Finland. I just needed to in touch with other alcoholics, since Ididn't have a chance to go to meeting today. I'm really glad that I found this site! Happy and sober New Year 2001 to everyone!


Member: Annie K.
Location: Blue Ridge Mountains
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 11:17:52 AM

Comments

One of the things that I have to laugh about is all the obstacles that we alkies set in the path of our sobriety...can't get to a meeting, but could still get to the booze. I have to agree with William, there are some things that have to be prioritized in my head. I cannot drink like normal people. I cannot do this by myself. For me- Icould not do it w/o the program of Alcoholics Anonymous and the stuff in that Big Blue Book. God knows I tried. I always like to make my pigeons read Chp.3 right off the bat, because that's what my sponsor did to me. And it had a jackhammer effect on my feeble brain. There is a solution.


Member: Kim D.
Location: PA
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 11:43:50 AM

Comments

hi, my name is Kim D. i picked up on christmas day and now my life is spinning outta control...i am looking for a place to come to during the day when i have to way to get to a meeeting. can anyone help?? thanks!


Member: tf
Location:
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 1:16:29 PM

Comments

earth head, cant you read?thats tf NOT tj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tee-hee-hee


Member: rick c
Location: rocky mountains
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 3:16:07 PM

Comments

I'll Pass today thanks.


Member: Chris H.
Location: Florida
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 4:49:30 PM

Comments

Chris here---alcoholic/bulimic/addict--Happy New Year all-Glad to be sober. and GLAD that the holidays are over!!!I don't know how this fits into the topic , butMy Father came to visit over the holidays and I am just getting over it. I did not drink, but wanted to---I realize now that that is how I got through my relationship with him...I need to realize more and more that I am powerless over people , places and thingas well as alcohol...and that I am not responsible for ANYONE"S happiness except my own. We were certainly not taught that in my household---we were all taught that we were all responsible for my Dad's happiness---He tried to pull his old "stuff" on me to manipulate me into "taking care" of him and I was determined not to fall into that trap. It wore me out ,but I did much better than his last visit. PRogress not perfection !---My therapist thinks that he is an alcoholic...wouldn't that be interesting all these years I didn't know that I was raised my an angry, sick, selfcentered.abusive alcoholic?...Hummm. Well, I 'm so thankful for this program and you people who share on this sight . I am slowly but surely learning the gratitude of this program and to take and enjoy one day at a time. Happy New Year!!


Member: Chris H.
Location: Florida
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 4:49:37 PM

Comments

Chris here---alcoholic/bulimic/addict--Happy New Year all-Glad to be sober. and GLAD that the holidays are over!!!I don't know how this fits into the topic , butMy Father came to visit over the holidays and I am just getting over it. I did not drink, but wanted to---I realize now that that is how I got through my relationship with him...I need to realize more and more that I am powerless over people , places and thingas well as alcohol...and that I am not responsible for ANYONE"S happiness except my own. We were certainly not taught that in my household---we were all taught that we were all responsible for my Dad's happiness---He tried to pull his old "stuff" on me to manipulate me into "taking care" of him and I was determined not to fall into that trap. It wore me out ,but I did much better than his last visit. PRogress not perfection !---My therapist thinks that he is an alcoholic...wouldn't that be interesting all these years I didn't know that I was raised my an angry, sick, selfcentered.abusive alcoholic?...Hummm. Well, I 'm so thankful for this program and you people who share on this sight . I am slowly but surely learning the gratitude of this program and to take and enjoy one day at a time. Happy New Year!!


Member: vita
Location:
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 8:35:31 PM

Comments

what is bulimic mean?


Member: Liz E.
Location: Southeast
Date: 1/4/01
Time: 9:13:44 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Liz and I'm an alcoholic. HAPPY NEW YEAR! God got me sober on July 17, 1993. He knew I wouldn't make it through another Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Anniversary and Birthday. That's the way I use to do it start at Thanksgiving and pass out around January 5th. I'm celebrating my 10 year marriage anniversary to a wonderful man and God willing, my 46th butt naked birthday tomorrow. Sobriety is great! I thank God, the program of Alcoholics Anonymous and a fellowship of people I know love me for one more day. Hey, Guy, fill those empty spaces with reading AA material, helping another alcoholic if you can, doing service work outside of AA-maybe doing some volunteer work at a children's home or hospital. When God blesses you with more time in recovery you will not be thinking about what you are going to do to fill time. You will be trying to find some time for yourself. God Bless!


Member: Terri  I
Location: Margate Florida
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 2:26:01 AM

Comments

Hi, My name is terri,I'm an alcoholic, I havent been to a mtg in over a month.I MISS MY MEETINGS, I'm so disconnected. I'm waiting for surgery,I feel myself slipping away,(good choice of words hugh?)I got addicted to the pills for pain, we all know how that goes. any way, I was down on my knees in my room attempting to pray and I started to scream at God,if you are really there, show your self,(imagine me telling God what to do.) HE DID SHOW HIMSELF. only in another way. I GOT A CALL FROM ANOTHER RECOVERING ALCOHOLIC AND A VISITOR ALL IN ONE DAY. I feel sad because alcohol and drugs has taken me physically, my body is destroyed. I AM GRATEFUL that I STILL HAVE MY MIND,and that IHAVE CHOICES TODAY. AND God shows himsef to me every day. I must not loose sight of the fact that I am not in charge. there is a plan and it is for my ultimate good.


Member: stan solomon e
Location:
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 3:09:52 AM

Comments


Member: stan solomon e
Location:
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 3:09:57 AM

Comments


Member: Mark D
Location: Concord, NH
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 11:39:47 AM

Comments

Today was the first day sice I put down on Oct. 13 that I could feel those triggers starting to twitch inside me. The timing is perfect. My company is having an awards dinner Sat. nite. I'm going to have to be there as I am a Department head. I'm also getting some recognition award (as are many others) for being with the company for 20 years. My wife is nervous about going as my entire staff knows of my problem and my recovery process. All the Sales Weasles are darting around and it would have been a "perfect" high profile scenario for me to have stopped off at the liquor store to knock down half a bottle of vodka on the way to work. But I didn't. I'm going to meet with my sponsor tomorrow morning for breakfast. I'm going to bury myself in a step book at lunch. I'm going to think of the things that I'm grateful for in my sobriety, and kick out any negative thoughts. This is as close to pissing on the third rail that I want to get. By the way, posting here and looking for feedback is part of my program too.


Member: Mark D
Location: Concord, NH
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 11:40:42 AM

Comments

Today was the first day sice I put down on Oct. 13 that I could feel those triggers starting to twitch inside me. The timing is perfect. My company is having an awards dinner Sat. nite. I'm going to have to be there as I am a Department head. I'm also getting some recognition award (as are many others) for being with the company for 20 years. My wife is nervous about going as my entire staff knows of my problem and my recovery process. All the Sales Weasles are darting around and it would have been a "perfect" high profile scenario for me to have stopped off at the liquor store to knock down half a bottle of vodka on the way to work. But I didn't. I'm going to meet with my sponsor tomorrow morning for breakfast. I'm going to bury myself in a step book at lunch. I'm going to think of the things that I'm grateful for in my sobriety, and kick out any negative thoughts. This is as close to pissing on the third rail that I want to get. By the way, posting here and looking for feedback is part of my program too.


Member: CRAIG D.
Location: UTOPIA
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 12:00:04 PM

Comments

CRAIG D. alcoholic/addict. KEEP COMMING BACK.


Member: Annie K.
Location: Blue Ridge Mountains
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 12:04:11 PM

Comments

Happy Birthday, Liz!!! (Imagine balloons and confetti and big ole hug!!) I know how you feel--my bd is 1/6 and if it weren't for AA I would never be here to see it. Life's a dance--if you know the Steps!!


Member: Alcoholic
Location: Ohio
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 12:27:28 PM

Comments

To Annie K - If you want to send multiple messages, go to the coffee pot. Read the guidelines, be considerate, no "double" dipping!!!

God Bless.


Member: ANNIE  K
Location:
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 1:12:10 PM

Comments

ALCOHOLIC OHIO:

BITE ME


Member: Church?
Location: "Hell"
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 2:31:40 PM

Comments

Greetings in the name of Truth in AA:

I recently had a need to look into what goes by the name of Pentecostalism, and thought to pass on what my findings were on this cultist following, that is indeed something like I have never experienced before! Pentecostal denominations and churches in the US had their beginnings in the revivalist movement in the Negro Holiness Church in Los Angeles CA in 1906, in what was known as the Apostolic Faith Gospel Mission on Azusa Street. It was in 1906 that a Holiness Church convert named William J. Seymour, who was a black man with only one eye, was used by these Holiness Church ministers to launch the real beginnings of modern Pentecostalism. As this following began to expand in the US, the people involved with it were later referred to as Holy Rollers, because these pentecostal services were marked by convulsive bodily movements and highly emotional scenes of weeping, shouting, singing and ecstatic cries, which were regarded by many others as quite bizarre behavior of a satanic influence, and were therefore persecuted and banished by other more conservative types of believers. Most of the Pentecostal denominations of the US can trace their beginnings back to this Azusa Street revival in L.A., for out of it developed movements that are now known as the Assemblies of God, the black Church of God in Christ, and others. A commonly held belief among these pentecostals is the Arminian concept of theology, which is an indeed belligerent dogmatic stand against God's purpose and Law of Predestination, such as is written in Rom 8:28-30, for Christ to gather the 144,000 chosen ones shown in the words of Rev 7:1-8;14:1;20:4-6, because they choose to claim that they are indeed included in this gathering, which has them truly working against Christ, and worthy of the name given to such people which is anti-Christ!! A good exposure of these people is found in 2Pet 2:1-22 and Jude 1-25. This following bears all the earmarks of being a sexually perverted group that "change the favor of our God into licentiousness," Jude 4, being highly self-destructive, and prone to suicidal tendencies!!

"Fallen! Fallen! Is Babylon the great, and is made a habitation of demons and a prison of every filthy spirit and a prison of every filthy and hated bird!!" Rev 18:1-8


Member: Denny M.
Location: Cape Cod
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 2:45:09 PM

Comments

Denny, addict clean since 12/23/00

Hi!

I hadn't used since around '76 'just outgrew it' (no idea I was diseased) fall '98 was kinda rough, (slight understatement) was offered a substance thought that's just what I needed, a coupla hours off, a little break. since then i did get about a month once back in feb '00 in a rehab, other than that, seems like my occupation has been 'regular relapser' i go to at least one mtg a day, thinking the osmosis thing will happen sometime, if i live. the last three days were impossible, but i guess i did enough of the right stuff i made it through a barrier that i've never been able to get thru before pretty much like the sound barrier - (they used to think if you went faster than the speed of sound you'd blow up.) so, anyway i'm clean & elated & here. then at the am mtg one of the guys that helped me through didn't show what's up with this ? i go to the bank to get a gift basket because i was the 3,400th new account (!) call him again & he's out there. this life is just too weird. i wish i could enjoy the humor of it. but right now it just doesn't seem funny at all. i am not going away though. i am going to keep comming. i do want to laugh. thanks to all especially Karen & Sharon


Member: buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Location:
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 4:47:18 PM

Comments

DENNY im a speed freak


Member: Mark B
Location: Eielson AFB, AK, that's Fairbanks to those in the lower 48.
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 5:08:38 PM

Comments

Mark, dope fiend alcoholic

Annie K., you GO GIRL! God, I love it when I see BITE ME, and I also echo your sentiments. I was taught a long time ago that there aren't any rules in AA. There aren't any rules in here. Just like people who try and tell me one can't use profanity when sharing in a meeting. When I hear people spout that one out, I'll deliberately try and use the word, "fuck" in as many different contexts as possible. Lovely thing this sobriety deal. Sometimes the rebel in me surfaces despite all the years of military conformity shoved down my throat. I won't get started on that one as its an outside issue, along with profanity, or how many times a week you share on a bulletin board. Vaya con dios from the true frozen tundra, everybody else is just pretending.

Mark


Member: ANNIE K.
Location:
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 5:59:50 PM

Comments

thank you mark,

and they also call me deep throat!!!


Member: Charlie Darling
Location: Key west Fl
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 7:23:45 PM

Comments

Happy New Year Family Charlie a very grateful recovering alcholic, It is so good to be back on line as my hard drive went a month ago and we just got back up and running. First to Mark d you are doing the right thing and you can handel anything as long as you don't pick up that first drink and alot of peopke would like to see us fall on our face in a drunken stupor, but we can prove them wrong and by the grace of god we can do it. But this program works it really does, as this morning a real dear friend who has almost 29 years really wanted to drink as she lost her youngest son ofa heart attack, and she did the next right thing and that was bring it to a meeting and share the pain of wanting to drink, and she as always been there for everyone and now the support of AA is there for her when she needs it, and it is people like her that keeps me coming back, as I want to be like her when I grow up, and God willing I will have 4 wonderful years on 3/1 it has been a wonderful journey on the road to recovery, as we learn to handel all situations no matter what and cannot pick up that drink, and today I am very gratful for AA and my Hp who gave me a life to be happy with. Thank you for letting me share, as it haS BEEN QUITE AFEW WEEKS SINCE i HAVE BEEN HERE, AND JUST NEEDED TO SHARE WITH MY FAMILY AND CLAIM MY SEAT. lOVE YOU ALL KWDUKE@KE

OM


Member: Donna H
Location: Worcester, Massachusetts
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 8:00:39 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Donna an alcoholic and food addict. I want to thank all of you for sharing, just reading everyone's comments makes me feel a part of and I don't know any of you and yet I know all of you. Whether you have 2 days, 2 weeks, 2 years or 10 years, we all only have TODAY. I don't know what tomorrow will bring but tonight I am content just reading everyone's comments and being in the moment. I don't always feel so peaceful but am grateful when I do. HAPPY 2001!


Member: Annie K.
Location: BlueRidge Mountains
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 11:16:22 PM

Comments

Heellloooo--this is the real Annie K. and I did NOT write those last 2 posts. Please don't use my name again, whoever you are. (Thanks, Mark--I was thinking it :)--I,too love to act out--oh,it's not midnight yet, is it??Guess I'd best cut out)


Member: Chris H
Location: Sacramento, California
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 11:37:29 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm an alcoholic named Chris. Thanks to you all reminding me I have a disease. I am working on staying in the moment right now. Having this forum is kind of nice. I love meetings and never knew about online sharing. I understand about having too much time on your hands. I had 6 years of sobriety at one time and took everything back (on reflection I'm not so sure I really ever gave it all to God). I am coming up on 9 years this May. It was tough to start recovery over again. I think it was a necessary step for me, my ego had to be squashed! This last two years has been hard. I've experienced death very closely. The miracle is I didn't have the desire to drink! I didn't have the desire to run! These steps work. I believe that my ability to walk through death, fear, grief, pain of all sorts was a gift from God. If I stay close to him, anything is possible.

Today my focus is my relationship with a power greater than myself. I learn to maintain that by being around you guys. Thank God I am teachable! Welcome to the newcomers! Happy New Year. Keep coming back!

Chris H.


Member: OBSERVER
Location: EARTH
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 11:47:18 PM

Comments

TF, TJ, JT, HOW ABOUT FU LOL

YOU OTHER MORONS, SAVE IT FOR THE COFFEE POT


Member: Melissa
Location: Texas
Date: 1/5/01
Time: 11:51:21 PM

Comments

Miriam - I'm Melissa, dope-fiend & alcoholic. The best thing you can do for your daughter is let her experience the natural consequences of her actions. Her anger with you is just a dope-fiend's attempt at manipulation. I run a detox & with junkies, especially, until the pain of the consequences becomes bigger than the call of the needle, they just don't get willing to go to any lengths. It doesn't matter how or why she became an addict, she has the tools & has made the conscious choice not to use them. WHich has nothing to do with you. I admire you for taking care of yourself. I'm sure the grief is overwhelming & you're in my prayers.


Member: Rhonda K.
Location: Derry, N.H.
Date: 1/6/01
Time: 12:42:08 AM

Comments

Hi Rhonda, alcoholic. Happy New Year. To anyone new keep going to meetings and I feel that reading the Big Book is helpful and timeless. This was my 2nd holiday season and it was even better than last year. Presently I am going thru some big changes and everyone knows how much alcoholics love change (not).

I "heard" alot of graditude tonight and I need to be reminded sometimes. Great site thanks for being here.

Where's Charlie Darling been? Coffee Pot?


Member: Dave R
Location: So. Cal
Date: 1/6/01
Time: 12:48:02 AM

Comments

Hi everyone.Rough start emotionally for new year.I am an alcoholic and can't do it with out other's of the same.Thanks for being here, looks like I may make 7 years.Dave, alcoholic.


Member: Charlie Darling
Location: Key West Fl.
Date: 1/6/01
Time: 6:36:38 AM

Comments

Good Morning Family Charlie Darling a very grateful recovering alcholic, tell you this is the best way I can think to start my day to be sitting here with my fellow members and helping others to stay from a drink one day at a time, and it is a miracle today that I don;t want a drink, as I want to be there for everyone who has been there for me in the past. Sobriety is good and I have done things in sobriety that I can honestly say I am not ashamed as I did them all sober and have no regrets. Through this site I have met some real people who keep it green for me. I Love You family, I am off now to a meeting in a garden it is the way I start my day at an attitude adjustment meeting, and it helps me in all aspects of life not only my desease of alchol. Have a great day family and keep coming back it works only if you work it. kwduke@keysdigital.com


Member: lu-lu
Location:
Date: 1/6/01
Time: 1:40:02 PM

Comments

hi annie,

can i spank your fanny


Member: tfjftpand fu -too
Location:
Date: 1/6/01
Time: 1:41:28 PM

Comments

earth observer..........

resentments??????????????????????


Member: Scotia O.
Location: Colorado
Date: 1/6/01
Time: 10:29:48 PM

Comments

I have less than 24 hours & did not attend a face to face meeting today, but I want to thank AA and all of the above participants! I'm glad I found this meeting, and plan to come back, especially if I can't get to a meeting for one reason or another. I'm so scared and uncomfortable! I've gone back out so many times, never sober for more than 6 months at a time. I'm 35, and since age 13 my entire social life has revolved around alcohol. I've been a slave to so many self destructive behaviors, but I truly know that life can be different - I'm just afraid I can't do it because I don't know how.


Member: adversatydebut.rehab
Location:
Date: 1/7/01
Time: 12:29:03 AM

Comments

a mind is a terrible thing to waste, but a wasted mind is a terrible thing.

for more information on this subject go to:

WWW.ROTTEN.COM


Member: Internet Guy
Location: Cyberia
Date: 1/7/01
Time: 1:49:18 AM

Comments

Don't go to rotten.com It's sick pictures of dead people and other crap.


Member: Ruth C
Location: West Central Florida
Date: 1/7/01
Time: 8:59:18 AM

Comments

Ruth here, alcoholic, currently in Central Florida. This is my first time on this site. By the grace of a loving God (as I understand God) and the program of AA, many meetings, a sponsor, great pain and greater joy, I haven't picked up a drink or a mind-changing/mood altering drug since June 28, 1985. It was said of me when I first started going to meetings that I wouldn't make it, that I was too sick. I was told of the comments much later. What "they" didn't know was that I had a strong desire in my innermost being to not go back to where I had been. There has been much pain in sobiety (lost loved ones) among other things, but the miracles and the joy have outweighed the pain. Studying the Big Book, the 12 and 12, reading our other literature, working with other alcoholics, and service, service, service have kept me sober. Initially, I did only five things on a daily basis. (1)On awakening, I got on my knees and asked whatever power there was "out there" to keep me sober for 24 hours; (2)I read a meditation from the "24 Hours a Day" meditation until I could get one thought to take with me that day; (3)I did what was in front of me to do that day; (4) I went to a meeting that night (I had no transportation, and the meetings were miles away); (5)I got on my knees before going to bed and thanked whatever HP there was for keeping me sober that day. It worked! I began, slowly, to grow. The rest of the story is just like yours. I didn't drink and didn't die, so here I am, starting another New Year sober. Thanks for being here.


Member: Ell-Tea
Location: Puget Sound
Date: 1/7/01
Time: 12:46:05 PM

Comments

Good Morning I'm grateful to be here. I've just gotten past the 18th sober Holiday week. Wow. Who'd of thought? I'm grateful for this program, the steps to guide me, the promises to give me something to look forward to, the service work to get me out of my selfish state, the freedom to be spiritual, the expectation that a spiritual foundation will support me. Working with others to learn about m yself. What a joy. I've found so much to love in this program when I didn't think love was a verb, anymore. I'm on disability now, getting "out" has been difficult, and I appreciate this cyber-meeting. Thanks fellas, for setting up the chairs, puttingout the tables, books, and coffee pot. Makes my heart feel good. I'll keep coming back.


Member: cyber man
Location:
Date: 1/7/01
Time: 2:14:28 PM

Comments

internet guy, you are right thats a very gross picture of the lady in the tub.what is she doing??????


Member: Charlie Darling
Location: Key West Fl
Date: 1/7/01
Time: 3:32:57 PM

Comments

Hi Family Charlie Darling a very grateful recovering alcholic, It is so good to be here today I guess I needed to be here to here what has been shared, and to terri from margat fl, I guess you can say that you had a spiritual awaking, as to what the next step should be, and he does answere our prayers and in so many different ways it is a miricle so that is why I keep coming back, also to help me stay sober one day at a time, and life is good. And Ruth from central Fl I believe you said it all, as if we follow those five things we will keep from a drink one more day, and thank you for reminding me as well as our other family members. I Love you all