Member: Rob K.
Location: Binghamton, NY
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 22:11:58

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I'm Rob and I'm an alcoholc. Just got back from going to some out of town meetings with an old AA friend in Buffalo. I never can believe how you can walk into a room that you have never been to and feel right at home and know you belong. For this weeks topic I'd like to hear about GRATITUDE. Thank you.


Member: Shannon W.
Location: PA
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 22:23:09

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Hi i'm Shannon and i am an alcoholic and attic. Gratitude is a great topic. I am a very grateful person today. i am grateful to have this program. i am grateful to have a higher power to talk to and the people in AA also. When i was out there i would never be grateful for anything but the alcohol and the drugs that i had. I never really was grateful about anything in life but my drinking and druging. But today i am grateful to be alive. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Daren W
Location: Hackettstown NJ
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 22:30:39

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Hi I'm Daren amd I'm an alcoholic. GRATITUDE!!! What a great topic. I had troble getting this program at first,and my home group never made me feel like an outcast.They were there for me and got me on my feet,pointed me in the right direction,and never let up. For that I feel a good sense of GRATITUDE Thanks for letting me share


Member: Mark T
Location: upstate N.Y.
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 22:46:37

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I didnt know how to be grateful.I do now.Sometimes I must make myself so.Remembering what the drink did and how good life is now.I know that right now I have every thing I need and for that I am grateful.


Member: Mark Warner
Location: Bloomington IN
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 22:46:45

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Greetings To All--

Mark - Alcoholic - perfectly described on page 30.

For me, gratitude and humility go hand in hand. Before coming to this program, I really did not have any concept of what gratitude was; any good fortune that I might have was earned, deserved, and too damn long in coming.

Today, I strive for what my AA mentors call an "attitude of gratitude," which I have come to define for myself as the ability to appreciate my good fortune, without taking credit for it.

And for that, I am ever grateful.


Member: Howard M.
Location: Arizona
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 22:50:07

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Howard, alcoholic

I'm greatful today that I understand why I didn't understand. I drank away the insecurity and lonliness and thought I was the only one who felt that way. Today I deal with life as best I can and I don't need the courage I thought was in a bottle.


Member: Lynn H.
Location: Idaho
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 22:56:40

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I'm Lynn H. - Alcoholic. After three years of sobriety I went back out for two miserable years. I was dying of terminal uniqueness. I kept telling myself that no one could know what I was going through and couldn't swallow my ego to ask for help or re-enter a meeting and admit that I had failed...but I did, I returned to my home meeting group and it was a huge burden relieved. I was accepted and welcomed, not judged but understood. I am grateful that I may have given up on me but they didn't and were there waiting for my return. After taking care of myself in these initial few months, I hope to be there for others.Thanks for being there.


Member: Barb J.
Location: Welland, Ont.
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 23:25:28

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I'm an alcoholic and my name's Barb. When I was sober about one month after yet another slip, my sponsor had me write out a gratitude list. I had done several other "half measure" lists in the past, but this time I just wrote down anything and everything that I was grateful for. When I read my list to her, she said simply;"That's a good start. Now every day write down one thing that you're grateful for".

I thought I'd share a tool that REALLY helped change my attitude . No matter what's going on in my life, there's ALWAYS something I have to be grateful for. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: tony g
Location: ma
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 23:50:25

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tony,alcoholic, i just had a drink,a big 16 oz glass of coke!boy it was good! im gratefulfor just about everything but very grateful to aa for being their,ready,waiting,wanting to help me and you,its wonderful.people helping out people. my relationship with my higher power,very grateful.the list is endless, thanks


Member: Elayne K.
Location: Humboldt Co. CA
Date: 11 Oct 1998
Time: 23:50:37

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I'm Elayne,and I am an alcoholic. I have been trying to be grateful for those times when things aren't going my way,or are just plain shitty,as these are the times that I learn the most. I want to be grateful to my h.p. for all of his,(he,she,it) will,not just when I get what I want,but when I get what I need. And sometimes it's a kick in the rear,to get me to learn. Grateful to have this meeting,and to the people that make it possible, Thank You


Member: Millie
Location:
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 00:16:42

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Member: Millie  T.
Location: Mp.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 00:17:43

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Member: Millie  T.
Location: Mp.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 00:17:55

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Member: Millie  T.
Location: Mp.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 00:18:04

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Member: Sandi D.
Location: Salem, OR
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 00:39:01

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Im Sandi, Alcoholic. Very greatful to be alive and sober today. One of the things I have learned in this program is that the most important part of my sobriety is the ability to give it away unconditionally.

I know that my higher power has a plan for me and my life and so even when things happen that I dont believe are good, there is always a reason for it. Usually a growth thing.

I just learned how to use this internet thing and I am VERY greatful for the meetings on line. This way, I can get a meeting anytime I want one even when it is impossible for me to leave the house.

Thank you all for being here and being sober today.


Member: George M.
Location: Show Low, AZ
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 00:45:29

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Hi, I'm George, alcoholic. For me an "attitude of gratitude" is an attitude I have grown to appreciate. When I first came into AA I couldn't understand why people would introduce themselves as a grateful alcoholic. But, as time goes on in this program for me, I can understand why we have an attitude of gratitude. Even my worse day sober is better than my best day out there using and abusing. I am grateful for you AA's showing up at meetings for me, for sponsors walking me through the steps, and having a safe place to go while trudging the road to happy destiny. AA Love, from a grateful alcoholic.


Member: Bill K
Location: Seattle Wa
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 01:30:56

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Gratitude because I feel like going out -- graving. No meetings close by right now. So hit the old internet. Read a few tales of woe and gratitude. Now, it's back to the tasks in need of completion -- sober. Thanks for being here.


Member: Jacky B
Location: Melbourne, Australia.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 02:05:26

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G'day, i'm Jacky, Alcoholic. These meetings on the internet are just great and this topic of gratitude is just wonderful. A month or so ago i heared about this idea of starting a gratitude journal which meant that i would have to write down five things that i was grateful for at the end of every day. I find that it really helps me in awakening and keeping a positive attitude. All my life i had had a tendency to be negative, that was until i got sober. In sobriety, i first found that my moods were very up and down but as time went i came to a point where i wasn't unhappy, but i had a tendency to be rather flat that lasted a long time. However, since i started to look at what i could be grateful for on a daily basis, my get up and go which had got up and went seems to be back. What's more, i'm really thankful for these meetings and i'm enjoying them a great deal.


Member: Mark  J.
Location: Covina Ca.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 02:14:59

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Hi,Mark alcoholic.On Thursday I will have 1 year sober,what a miracle I am so excited.I have been living with other recovering alcoholics in hospitals and recovery houses for the first ten months and out on my own for the past two.What a relief to have been given a new way to live and another chance for a better life.I would like to thank anybody who helps out places like that, because they helped me to learn to love myself again, and for that I am trulu grateful.


Member: Mark  J.
Location: Covina Ca.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 02:16:30

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Hi,Mark alcoholic.On Thursday I will have 1 year sober,what a miracle I am so excited.I have been living with other recovering alcoholics in hospitals and recovery houses for the first ten months and out on my own for the past two.What a relief to have been given a new way to live and another chance for a better life.I would like to thank anybody who helps out places like that, because they helped me to learn to love myself again, and for that I am truly grateful.


Member: Yellowpine Jack
Location: Portland, Oregon
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 02:43:24

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No matter what happens today, I know that I don't have to take a drink and for that I am grateful. I am also grateful that I can get up during a sleepless night and express this simple fact.


Member: Bonnie C - 5/30/80
Location: Seattle
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 04:49:06

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Hi extended family, bonnie/alcoholic here, (((ROOM-HUG))) so glad to be here with you -- good topic ((rob k)) GRATITUDE - so many things to be grateful for. have been making gratitude lists at the end of each journal entry, almost from day one of this program, journaled every nite for at least 14yrs and do about 3 times a week now, just to keep track of my 10ths, motives, principles, morals and boundaries, more when I'm uncomfortable but thats very seldom anymore. feel grateful for that everyday. fitting in my own skin, feeling joy and hope and love everyday for 4+yrs now. who wouldnt feel grateful when they were as uncomfortable as I was at all times but working these steps in all my problem areas, many times, each time at a deeper level as my self honesty increased, has relieved me of that depression and confusion. It took work and it still does because Im an alcoholic, downer freak (pill head), acoa (adult child of an alcoholic, alanon, coda (codependent), I go to 5 meetings a week and chair a step and trad. meeting. I have to give it away to keep it. I am living the second half of the 3rd step prayer and all the promises. I heard this was possible but never thought it would ever happen in my life. I experienced some of these off and on thru out my sobriety, had glimpses, but this is possible for anybody who is willing to work for it. If I can have this so can you. Today is paradise on earth, dont have alot of money, some relationship are still in the healing mode, but the God gift of calm that lives inside of me is priceless. no pills or drugs or alcohol for 18+yrs, thank God I didnt give up 5 minutes before my miracles happened, I wanted to many times. thank God for AA and thank AA for my God. thank you dear family, Dear God please bless all who venture here, love and hugs, bon - bonzoc@webtv.net


Member: Mark D.
Location: Maine USA
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 05:29:19

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Hello, I am Mark and I am a alcoholic. Gratitude . . . at seven months sober I am learning alot about gratitude. I am grateful for a chance for a new life, a life with hope and a life with a future. Till I put down that drink I had nothing. I am grateful for the strength I have acquired that has empowered me to rip the guts out of my former shallow existence, allowing me to begin my road to recovery. I am grateful for the chance to start anew, not an easy road to follow, but a road worth travelling. I am glad to be here, sober. adios


Member: Teri F.
Location: Ohio
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 06:56:03

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Hi everyone! I'm an alcoholic and my name is Teri. I'm very grateful to be sober and involved in a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous.

Congratulations Mark on your upcoming 1st anniversary!!! That is so wonderful!!! I remember what an awesome feeling it was to reach that first year milestone. I think that was when I realized what miracles were all about. Just keep trudging away my friend, a day at a time.

The gratitude I feel today just knocks my socks off! I can think of a million things I have to be grateful for.

The thing I'm most grateful for today is my sobriety. Without that, I wouldn't have a clue what gratitude is all about and really wouldn't care.

Before I came to AA, I couldn't imagine what life would be without alcohol. Didn't think it would ever be possible to get through a day without drinking. Didn't know how to face life on life's terms, let alone deal with anything. I absolutely refused to accept people, places and things for what they were. I was in a drunken rage most of the time blaming everything and everyone for the mess my life was in. I was intolerant, judgemental, hateful, nasty, and thought the universe revolved around me. If people said or did things I didn't like or agree with I'd rip them apart. I was so self-centered, I always thought everything was about ME.

Sometimes when I launched an attack on someone I would do it face to face, but not very often. I'd have to be really drunk to do that. You see, I was a pathetic, frightened coward. Most of the nasty hateful things I did to others was done in some sneaky way so they wouldn't know it was me.

Today I'm so grateful I don't have to act that way. This program gives me many choices. I can get angry but don't HAVE to react in anger. I have steps to work through my problems. I can admit (sometimes grudgingly--lol) when I've made a mistake, I can forgive myself and others. I can do this all without taking a drink. These are just a few of the many, many gifts I have to be grateful for!

I thank God everyday for Alcoholics Anonymous, and I thank AA, my sponsor, and you all for my sobriety.

Keep coming back!


Member: Pat R
Location: Bronx
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 07:22:50

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I have to say I have no gratitude in sobriety nothing good happened to me except I made a lot of money from a good job amassed alot in the 401k which is going down the tubes now due to the dow. Sobriety has taken away my mother 2 years a vegetable in a hospital, my own illness which caused me to lose my job. Took medication after years of doing street drugs and booze toghether I am left with a brain injury. I have gone back to college to occupy time for myself. Sobriety have to say no good for me when I was drinking nothing bad ever happened over a 13 year period of booze and drugs every day. Even had a car accident sober. GO FIGURE. JO2PAT@MAILEXCITE.COM


Member: Jill M
Location: Connecticut
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 08:12:38

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Hi I'm Jill and I'm not sure if I'm an alcoholic. I know this isn't the topic but I need help in determining if I really am. I got really drunk last night and have been getting drunk every time I drink. I drink everyday but only wine before dinner, you know. When I start I can't seem to have just one glass of wine, I just keep drinking. I feel awful about myself in the morning. Am I an alcoholic? Both my parents are and have been sober for 12 years. They say that I'm predisposed to become one. Can someone help shed light on this for me. I've never been to this point before.


Member: richard m
Location: sarasota, fla.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 08:25:12

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i am an alcoholic, my name is richard. gratitude is one of my favorite topics, especialy since i am in my own home ---clean and sober--with a nice cup of java... 13 years ago it most definetly wasn,t this way. i was sleeping in the bushes , living from hand to mouth[ pretending i was camping out]. Then one night as i prepared to sleep in my favorite bush, i was saying my prayers to jesus. i realized that i neeeded to try and live my life without drinking yhe alcohol. when i awoke it was daylight and i no longer had any desire to drink alcohol. i could feel the change that had occured in me. i truely felt the absolution that can only come from god. on that day 12-28-85, on that day i believed that i truely had become a new man in christ. i could then see that i was truely detatched from the disease and its life style. since then i have been on that journey that we know so well. it is always one day at a time. only thru gods grace do i have any real life. at that time it was an I program. god let me find the We program in A.A.. i could type for days on end , however it would serve no pupose. rather to share each day is the right way. may whatever comes our way may god keep us safe and secure from all alarms. should you need to contact me..rjpmoody@webtv.net


Member: Alan F.
Location: TN.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 08:29:21

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Alan, Alcoholic

One of my favorite sayings it that "its a great day to be sober". This helps me at all times and situations. This has become a saying that I say often and have been saying for many 24s. I used to write a gratitude list but as many things in the past I over did this one to, my list got very long.

Thanks room, It is truly a great day to be sober.


Member: Joe S
Location: Woburn, MA
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 08:34:19

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Hi All I am Joe and I am an alcoholic. In response to Jill, I would like to say that no one can tell you weather you are an alcoholic. The best thing you can do is find a local meeting in your area. You can go there and here the stories of fellow members and see if you identify with the feelings and the pain. When you go there tell them you have come there for the first time. Someone will gladly spend a few minutes to tell you how to go about decide weather you should keep coming or not. You may also continue to read this web page. Many people share about there experience, strength and hope of how the program works. It can work For you too.


Member: Rivner
Location: Santa Fe, N. Mex.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 08:51:48

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Howdy: I'm an alcoholic, name is Rivner. Gratitude...

I'm grateful for what I got, Because I don't deserve what I got, Because if I got what I deserved, I'd be dead, And I'm not.

If I can keep this little pearl in front of me on a daily basis, I got a shot.

HI JILL M. of CT.

One way for humans to find out how important something is to themselves is to take that something away and see how much it is missed. If you stop drinking for a couple of weeks and evaluate how much of your time is spent thinking about it (rather than, say, "making a serene and productive life") you'll get an idea.

It's not necessarily the quantity of the juice; more it's the strength of the grip on the long neck of the bottle. For me, for a long time after I stopped, it was all I could think about. It was like having a lover who was suddenly not around.

I'd say "good luck", but luck has nothing to do with it. Seek the one thing out there which is more powerful than any of it. I, personnaly, have not been able to do this alone. I've needed something a whole lot bigger and smarter than me.

Check out the COFFEE POT meeting at this site. The discussions are not "topic foucsed" like this one (gratitude for this week),. and you'll get more feed-back.

Only you can prevent forest fires, and deep in the pit of your soul, you know (or will know) whether or not you're an alcoholic.

Salud!


Member: R . Dee Gray
Location:
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 09:20:58

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GRATITUDE: a feeling of thankful appreciation for benefits or benefits received.

Pat R.: nothing you mentioned above happened because of your sobriety (they would have happened either way)!

My gratitude comes when I am able to wake up TODAY and can "see" the beauty, "hear" the sounds, "feel" a rose's thorn prick my finger, "smell" the air and "taste" the coffee!

As they say over & over & over there are no "bad" days in sobriety, just good days & better days. We can stop in the middle of any sh** and say a quick prayer & start over! We are not going to be "happy & overjoyed everyday" but atleast we wont have to get drunk to get thru it. We learn to live life on God's terms not ours.

Due to some "wreckage in my past" when I first sobered up I went to jail & was very grateful I was sober -- I attended AA, got to keep my Big Book with me and was able to make friends and talk about my new life with people who didn't know there was a better way of life.

Some people in AA never seem to be able to acquire anything more than a number of days & years "in sobriety" without any outward sign of gratitude but atleast they've stayed sober. I personally think if I'm sober TODAY and ALIVE today I AM TRULY GRATEFUL. But I also need to carry this message to those still suffering!!!

Sobriety isn't something "good happening FOR ME" it's me being sober & learning to do something with my life to show my appreciation for being alive TODAY!

Jill M - The question I was asked was "do I think I am an alcoholic?" When I knew it was not the amount of alcohol I drank but the way I behaved on the alcohol that was my biggest problem I looked for help. Treatment taught me so much more than just "stop drinking". I finally, honestly & openly looked at the "real me" and wanted to find out "why I did those things". When it was pointed out that it doesn't matter "why" but that if I stopped doing stupid things my life would get better.

My days are numbered "one day at a time".

Love & prayers to all. email rdeegray@aol.com


Member: lauren
Location: md
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 09:50:17

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hi everyone - lauren, alcoholic. I remember when i first got sober how the LITTLE things got my attention - that i was glad that my hand wasn't shaking when reaching for a cup of coffee(wow! my hand's not shaking!) or the fact that when drinking i never had any money in my wallet and then i did. I used to HATE the sound of the birds in the early am when going to bed to pass out and how they became so important to me in my sobriety as symbols of life that i was now a part of. A lot of great stuff followed only because of beig sober in aa.


Member: Lilly C.
Location: Alaska
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 10:18:08

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Hi everyone, Lilly, Alcoholic, I am grateful for this site, and all the people that share their experiences. It is a great help to me, and I'm sure to many others out there who are still struggling. Thanks.


Member: shelby r
Location: ny
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 10:27:56

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my name is shelby , i am an alcoholic its good to feel gratitude. its good to feel the feelings. when i was drinking - i dont remember feeling to much, and certainly not gratitude. sometimes i think it was all one big blackout. i recently lost my mother, thats a rough one.... i loved her so.shes with god now singing and danceing and i just know she is serene and enjoying i am grateful for the years that i had with her


Member: anne m
Location: new jersey
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 11:25:47

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Hi all, My name is Anne and I AM an alcoholic. Since this is my first time on this site a little about me. Ayear ago today i walked into my first AA meeting and knew I was in the right place. I had been drinking for 20+ years and thanks to a cousin who I hadn't seen in many years I found AA. Gratitude is a GREAT subject for me today. If it wasn't for the rooms of AA God only knows where I'd be. To Jill if you think you have a problem you probably do. The only requirement to attend a closed meeting of AA is the desire to stop drinking...open meetings are for everyone wether or not you think you have a problem. I sugest that you check out a meeting in your area and come to your own conclutions. Good Luck! Mark Congrats on one year. I know how you feel Today I have a year and it's awsome. I think I've rambled enough so I'll Close for now God Bless all of you


Member: Bill T
Location: Eastern shore Maryland
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 12:08:38

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My name is bill and I am an alcoholic. so many things to be grateful for - single out just one for now and I'll chose faith - faith in the program, faith in my higher power, faith in myself when I am plugged in - if I pull the plug I'm in trouble, but if I keep plugged in - keep the faith then I'm safe. I (we, if you will) need to be constantly vigilant to remain plugged in - to keep the faith.


Member: tony g
Location: ma
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 12:40:00

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tony alcoholc,jill m from conn. 4 questins,have you felt you should cut down?have you ever felt annoyed when people critisized your drinking?ever felt guilty about your drinking?ever take a morning drink?ok 1 yes=62% chance,2yes=82% and so on.their is lots of information on this out thier,be totally honest with yourself a person does not have to hit bottom to be an alcoholic,bt addressing it will improve life quality immensely.i myself am alcoholic for knowing this and facing it with change i am grateful.go to some aameeting and just listen if you can identify with what you hear that might narrow it down also,remember be honest to yourself. write back too


Member: tony g
Location: ma
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 12:50:11

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tony alcoholc,jill m from conn. 4 questins,have you felt you should cut down?have you ever felt annoyed when people critisized your drinking?ever felt guilty about your drinking?ever take a morning drink?ok 1 yes=62% chance,2yes=82% and so on.their is lots of information on this out thier,be totally honest with yourself a person does not have to hit bottom to be an alcoholic,bt addressing it will improve life quality immensely.i myself am alcoholic for knowing this and facing it with change i am grateful.go to some aameeting and just listen if you can identify with what you hear that might narrow it down also,remember be honest to yourself. write back too


Member: info source
Location:
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:06:45

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Just some info:

1. Aol keyword AAonline meeting (incudes, chatroom, meetings,etc) 2. Search on the web for :mining co.com; then search for alcoholism (540 items) with topics such as Getting Help; The Alcoholism Site at the Mining Co, Another Empty Bottle, Br. Bob's Home (really neat tour of his house in Akron), and of course for those off the wall types 12 Step Shopping Network. ****Here is the best I've found: site filled with umpteen links:

http://www.inficad.com/~andya/promises.html

Hope this finds everyone "well" today.


Member: Jennifer S
Location: Western New York
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:25:56

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Hi all! My name is Jennifer, and I am an alcoholic.

Gratitude is present in many... almost all areas of my life. The first things in mind are sobriety, AA, Family, friends...etc. But what really chokes me up is little things that I used to take for granted. Have you ever watched a spider spin a web? Amazing. Such hard work.. so tedious... but I've never heard a spider complain. There's no way on earth that 9 years ago someone could have told me that there's joy in watching a spider. I would have happily squashed him and complained about it all day. It would have been that spiders fault that I needed a drink. How about grocery shopping? Still isn't my *favorite* thing... but if I tell myself I can enjoy watching the people... appreciate how much work goes into stocking that store... enjoy helpful employees... help elderly with heavy things... hold doors... I can actually have a great time at the grocery store!! These are some of the true graces of this program. Being able to see the beauty in things I once found ugly. Next time you see a spider... give him a little Hi 5 for me, would ya? He's probably had a long day.


Member: Don M
Location: Hayward,Ca
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:28:48

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Hi,Everybody My name is Don M I'm an alcholic This is first time to comment on the net,I'm glad to be Sober and i'm glad this is here for me.Thankyou all for being here.God Bless Don


Member: Mary G.
Location: New Jersey
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:37:15

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Hi everyone > My name is Mary and I am an alcoholic. Gratitude is a great topic. I am grateful for so many things today. My sobrity always comes first. What a beautiful day to be sober. I spent the morning playing T-Ball with my 2 beautiful children. I don't think it gets any better then that. I know that everyday I must be grateful to my HP for keeping me sober, because all the things I am grateful for can be gone very quickly if I ever forget where I was.

Jill I know how hard it is to be where you are. I agree that you should try to find a local meeting, and just check it out. No one can tell you if you are an alcoholic. I will pray for you. Please post again and let us know how you are.

Love, Mary G


Member: Jodi R
Location: Vancouver, Canada
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:44:06

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Hi my name is Jodi and I am a very grateful alcoholic. Gratitude is an awesome topic. Without gratitude we don't have much of a program. I am so grateful for many things in my life. A second chance at life is definately one of them. I can't believe how much i took life for granted when I was drinking and drugging. Like most people I was only grateful for my next drunk or drug. Today Sobriety has definately changed that. I recently just finished my step two and I am really learning how to accept god's will for me today and alot of that is all about being grateful. I could not have stayed sober without the help of my higher power, I love sobriety and could not imagine not being sober. Thank you for letting me share and I wish everyone another 24.


Member: JIMMY Z
Location: SEMINOLE FL.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:49:54

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HI IM JIMMY IM AN ALCOHOLIC I ASKED MYSELF IF I WAS AN ALCOHOLIC FOR TEN YEARS BEFORE I REALIZED THAT I WAS, I GUESS IM LUCKY THAT MY BODY WITHSTOOD THE AMOUNT OF PUNISHMENT I PUT IT THROUGH MY SOBERIETY DATE IS 10-7-95 I JUST CLEBRATED THREE YEARS OF CONTINUOUS SOBERIETY. MY LIFE HAS COME BACK TO ME. THREE YEARS AGO DOCTORS TOLD ME IF I KEPT DRIMKING I WOULD DIE IN SIX MONTHS OR SO, I WAS ONLY THIRTY FIVE AT THE TIME, WHILE I WAS STILL DRINKING I WOULD HERE THE SAYING IF YOU THINK YOU HAVE A DRINKING PROBLEM YOU PROBABLY DO IT WAS TRUE WITH ME. TO JILL PLEASE DONT WAIT TO LONG. I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR MY SOBERIETY AND THIS PROGRAM


Member: Terri M.
Location: Arizona
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:54:50

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Hello, Terri an alcoholic. For me, gratitude is not what I say... It's what I do. When I have days where everything is going "my way" it is real easy to be grateful, practicing gratitude when everything is not as I would like, is the key to my learning how to be grateful. Early on in sobriety, my sponsor had me do A to Z lists. Starting with the letter A, I had to find something to be grateful for. Let me tell you that the letters X and Z were toughies! AA Love


Member: Kerry B.  3/21/80
Location: Idaho
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 13:58:46

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I'm Kerry, an alcoholic

Grateful for the choices I now have. I choose to live sober and work the steps of AA. Thank God those two guys and the first hundred wrote that book about me before I was ever born!! My whole life I had been looking for a "manual" to live by, for I knew that I hadn't a clue, other than breathing in and breathing out. I had no choices before AA. I and all of you now hold the keys to release from our disease. One Day At A Time. As always, thank each and every one of you for being here. You have helped me more than you may ever know.


Member: Todd S.
Location: Little Rock Ar.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 14:39:00

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Graditude is one of the best gifts this program has given me.When I am feeling down all I have to do is think about where I was when I got sober,and I immediately am overcome with a sense of gratitude that makes whatever I amgoing thru much more bearable!


Member: Sandee Y
Location: Idaho
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 14:46:48

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Hi everyone. I'm Sandee and I'm an alcholic. I am very grateful today for my life and my sobriety. If it wasn't for AA and finally feeling like I really belonged and found people who actually thought like me and knew what I was going thru, I may not be here today. I have so many things to be thankful for and like all the suggestions of keeping a Gratitude Journal. I am going to start this today. Thanks to all who have shared and others who will. I enjoy reading everyone's comments. Have a good week. One day at a time, Sandee :-)


Member: Rich E
Location: Atlanta, Ga
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 17:12:03

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I'm Rich and I am an alcoholic. My gretest heart felt graditude is for my higher power. I've spent most of my life feeling like I was totally alone. What a frightening thought! But now I know that through good times or bad there's always someone there.


Member: don w.
Location: Akeley Mn..
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 18:02:13

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Hi I am don a gratefull recovering Alcoholic.. I Never new that there was such a word until i got in to AA,. Old timer told me at one of first meeting that i would not be grateful to get hung with new rope.. Every thing i got good in life i desirved.. but it should have been more, better and Quicker... Now I start my day by saying thanks to my HP which i chose to call God.. just for waking up in the morning.. Ineeded to learn HUMILITY.. before i could be grateful.. When i have a addititue of gratitude my day and senerity is grate..


Member: Eddie B.
Location: Boston
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 19:32:05

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Hello, my name is eddie, and I'm an alcoholic. This is my first time contributing to an online meeting and I am glad to be sober and glad to read everybody's comments. I hope you all have a good, sober day. Thanks!


Member: John K.
Location: Springfield Ma.
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 20:25:31

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Hi Folks, Glad to be sober, on-line or off. Gratitude, for my first group in Hanau F.R.G. many years ago. For the early sponsors who packed me into their cars and helped point the way. For my sober friends in auto racing who proved to me that you could have fun in sobriety. For my friend Barry, who proved that you do not have to have eyes to see the light. For Pat r. and her friends in Worcester Ma. who helped me grow up. For my wife for putting up with a long dry spell. And my new friends here who will help me get back on track Enough said. Love the topic and all of you.


Member: Doug
Location: Nashville
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 21:44:45

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Greetings from "Twang Town". I was thinking last week that we have not had a gratitude meeting in our group for quite a while. I have to be grateful for the program and my sponsor. For years I tried to quit on my own. I was an expert at those solemn oaths referred to in the Big Book. It was not until I came back in for the third time and actually surrendered that I was able to take the first step. By spreading the message I can show my gratitude to others. AA saved me and I can never forget that.


Member: tim b.
Location: albany, ny
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 22:21:02

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tim b., grateful drunk, sober one week today, back after a very long relapse by the grace of God. Today, I'm grateful that I didn't have to drink, I'm grateful also that the shakes have finally subsided and that last night was the first night that I slept since I stopped. Thank you all for being there when I needed you. Hugs...tim b.


Member: Christine M.
Location: Bayville, NJ
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 23:02:04

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Hi, My name is Christine and I am an alcoholic.

Wasn't feeling very grateful until I read the posts and found something I could be grateful for. Choices. (Thanks for reminding me, Kerry!) When I was drinking I didn't really have or make choices. The booze always made the choices for me. Who I was going to hang out with (whoever was left at the bar and whoever would tolerate me), where I was going to work (bars and factories and wherever I was tolerated), What I was going to wear ( I was really clueless in this catagory and used to say from the podium that before I came to AA (and for a while after) I didn't know how to dress. So, my wardrobe consisted of dirty jeans, harley shirts, leather halters, none of which looked very becoming on me) You see the less $ spent on clothes, the more $ for booze!) And the list goes on....Today I really do have choices and can choose those dirty jeans and harley shirts if I want to but am not limited to them. AA gave me the opportunity to be the "lady" that I never thought I was "good enough" to be. For that I am grateful.

JILL in CT: There is lots of AA approved literature out there, such as little pamphlets that have the 40 questions quiz "Are you an alcoholic?" or "Is AA for you?" or something like that. If both of your parents are in AA and have been for 12 years they can probably tell you how to get your hands on some of the literature. Also, I have heard it said and believe it to be true that it is not WHAT you drink (beer, wine, hard liquor) or HOW MUCH you drink or HOW OFTEN you drink that is the issue. It is what happens to you when you drink, and how it makes you feel. Only you alone can determine if you are an alcoholic. Read some literature, check out some meetings, check out the Big Book of AA, talk to some other alcoholics at meetings, and try to abstain from alcohol for a while, a day at a time. That should help you come to your conclusion.

With Love and Peace,

Christine M.


Member: Kemi
Location: California
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 23:41:02

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Hi, Kemi alcoholic. Rob, Thank You for this topic. It never used to be my favorite. I was sober for 10 years but so fulll f anger and resentment that i went back out. I am just coming up on a tear now and so gratefull for my HP, the love HP sends o me through people, and my new found ability to accept it. Gratefull for a home group that mbraced me after i came back even though for 10 years I spewed such anger at them all. Gratefull for alcoholics Anonymous helping me to discover through my Higher Power and peope lke you that beneath my srface there truly is a child of God. Happy 1 yr. to Mark and to Jill M. Keep talking to us. Love to all.


Member: Kemi
Location: Califrnia
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 23:53:46

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Hi, Kemi alcoholic. Rob, thanks for the topic. It never used to be my favorite. I was sober for 10 years and went back out because I was so full of anger and resentment. I am coming up on a year now and so very gratefull for the love HP expresses through other alcoholics and my newfound ability to accept it and give some in return. Gratefull for a home group that welcomed me back with open arms even after all the anger I spewed at all of them over the years. Gratefull that AA, HP, and people like you all have helped me to discover that beneath my surface there truly is a child of God. Mark--HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! and Jill M---keep talking to us. And to any newcomers---take it from an old lady like me that you don't have to go back out to learn the ways of AA.


Member: Kemi
Location: Califrnia
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 23:55:12

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Hi, Kemi alcoholic. Rob, thanks for the topic. It never used to be my favorite. I was sober for 10 years and went back out because I was so full of anger and resentment. I am coming up on a year now and so very gratefull for the love HP expresses through other alcoholics and my newfound ability to accept it and give some in return. Gratefull for a home group that welcomed me back with open arms even after all the anger I spewed at all of them over the years. Gratefull that AA, HP, and people like you all have helped me to discover that beneath my surface there truly is a child of God. Mark--HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! and Jill M---keep talking to us. And to any newcomers---take it from an old lady like me that you don't have to go back out to learn the ways of AA.


Member: Kemi
Location: Califrnia
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 23:56:51

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Hi, Kemi alcoholic. Rob, thanks for the topic. It never used to be my favorite. I was sober for 10 years and went back out because I was so full of anger and resentment. I am coming up on a year now and so very gratefull for the love HP expresses through other alcoholics and my newfound ability to accept it and give some in return. Gratefull for a home group that welcomed me back with open arms even after all the anger I spewed at all of them over the years. Gratefull that AA, HP, and people like you all have helped me to discover that beneath my surface there truly is a child of God. Mark--HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! and Jill M---keep talking to us. And to any newcomers---take it from an old lady like me that you don't have to go back out to learn the ways of AA.


Member: Kemi
Location: Califrnia
Date: 12 Oct 1998
Time: 23:58:47

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Hi, Kemi alcoholic. Rob, thanks for the topic. It never used to be my favorite. I was sober for 10 years and went back out because I was so full of anger and resentment. I am coming up on a year now and so very gratefull for the love HP expresses through other alcoholics and my newfound ability to accept it and give some in return. Gratefull for a home group that welcomed me back with open arms even after all the anger I spewed at all of them over the years. Gratefull that AA, HP, and people like you all have helped me to discover that beneath my surface there truly is a child of God. Mark--HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! and Jill M---keep talking to us. And to any newcomers---take it from an old lady like me that you don't have to go back out to learn the ways of AA.


Member: Kemi
Location: California
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 00:03:02

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Sorry for the multiple posts didn't know each time I tried again when it was buy it would post all of the messages. Lesson learned.


Member: Mike C.
Location: OH
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 01:04:34

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Hi All, Mike C., alcoholic. I'm grateful that I have been able to stay sober another 24 hours, and able to make a little more spiritual progress. Thanks to all of you, for you have each helped me, by being here to share your ES&H.


Member: Dee M.
Location: Sudbury, Ont. Ca.
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 06:21:44

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Hi Dee here-alcoholic. When I first started to attend AA meetings and people introduced themselves as grateful alcoholics I thought they were nuts. Couldn't understand why someone would say that they were grateful to be alcoholic. I do understand their meaning now that I have had more time around the tables. Gratitude holds us together even as we're falling apart. While we crhy ourselves to sleep, gratitude waits patiently to console and reassure us;there is a landscape larger than the one we can see. These two last sentences I quoted from a book I've been working in called The Simple Abundance Journal of Gratitude and the author is Sarah Ban Breathnach. This gratitude journal really makes you stop and think about things that you take for granted, things that people should be grateful for but sometimes forget. Here are a few examples; last week I slipped and fell. I really hurt myself, but when I got up I was grateful that I hadn't broken any bones. Another example is when I was doing housework and really wasen't in the mood to do so, I stopped and was grateful that I was healthy enough to do my own housework. Well got to go, hope everyone has a great week!


Member: Holly H.
Location: Lake Charles, La.
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 12:50:11

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Hi, i am Holly and i am an alcoholic. First time on the AA internet. i've been reading up every now and then on all of your comments. i want to thank all of you for sharing. This month has been particularly hard (every October is for me). This is the month i got sober...7 years ago on the 14th!!!!i am so very grateful to be alive and sober. i think the first time i was having a hard time and said to myself "well, wonder what lessons are to be learned from this?"...i knew i was real sick! just kidding, i realized i had grown and the program had become a natural part of my life. Gratitude keeps me humble. For a long time, i attributed my sobriety to me, today, i thank HP for this life blessing! Sobriety is not always a flower garden, but i know that it is full of opportunity for growth, change, and lessons learned. Although i am going through a rough time, i am facing it, feeling it, talking about it...i would never have done those things 7 years ago. i can't express the amount of gratitude i have for AA. i came into the program young, and what a great parent- AA! i am looking forward to sharing more with all of you and getting to know you. Thanks for my life.


Member: Kent H.
Location: Knoxville, TN
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 12:56:44

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Gratitude? That's easy. I didn't wake up shaking violently this morning. I didn't puke or pass blood, nor did I have any mysterious injuries. I had a pleasant breakfast of cereal and coffee instead of vodka and beer. My car was right where I thought it would be and it wasn't wrecked. I have a job; not only that but I show up for work and my co-workers seem happy to see me (no looks of anger, disgust, or pity). I remember where I was and what I did last night. Did I mention that I woke up in my own bed...not in a jail cell or emergency room or psych ward or face down on the sidewalk? I am not consumed with terror, nor am I overwhelmed with depression and remorse. I actually look forward to Life , one day at a time. No, everything is not perfect, but things are infinitely better than they used to be. Today I don't fear Life; I embrace it. Thank you, AA, for showing me how to live. Peace and Love to all you oldtimers and newcomers alike....keep coming back!

Your friend and mine, Kent


Member: Angela S
Location:
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 13:00:26

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Member: Eric H.
Location: Harbor Island NY
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 14:28:36

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Eric Alkie.

Jill-As you can see, we care very deeply about you, and want to help you. Our textbook, Alcoholics Anonymous( known as the Big Book, BB) describes what happens to alcoholics when they drink, what seperates a problem drinker from an alcoholic, and outlines a program of action that you can work should you decide you are an alcoholic and you want to sop drinking. We can't tell you if you are, you have to decide that. THERE IS A SOLUTION to this disease. It works, and has for most of us here. I agree with the suggestions given to you above, but I agree with Christine from NJ, read the literature as well, for me that is the BB. Go to meetings and listen. If you decide you need help, the people there are just as willing to help you as they are here. PLease let us know how you are, and what you do.

So much good sharing. I guess I can single out one thing in particular that I love about sobriety lately(read that as gratitude). I have a life today that others want to share with me. I have several very effective relationships, and many more that are getting to be that way. I am not alone anymore. That's it really, I'm not by myself unless I want to be. And the only reason I have that is because God gave it to me. I was the architect of my own misery for so long, and when I gave over my life to God it started immediately to get better, and hasn't stopped yet. I never have to go back to my old way if I don't want to. I have a choice, as Kerry stated above. That is nothing short of the greatest miracle that I have ever seen.


Member: Larry M.
Location: Virginia Beach
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 14:49:29

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Larry, alcoholic.

When I first heard people at AA meetings referring to themselves as "grateful" alcoholics, I also thought they were full of shit. At the beginning I viewed my alcoholism as a handicap, stoically accepting my fate by comparing myself to people with worse handicaps. I'd say things to myself like "Well it could be worse, I could have some horrible deformity or some REALLY terrible illness". Now I'm not just grateful AND alcoholic, I'm grateful THAT I'm an alcoholic. I consider myself fortunate. Many people suffer through lives of "quiet desperation" (Thoreau). They vaguely sense that something is wrong, but they're not sure what it is and they have absolutely no idea what to do about it. I, on the other hand, have a very good idea of what is wrong with me and a program to do something about it.

It's easy to be grateful for the "good stuff" while trying to ignore the "bad stuff". I have come to the conclusion that there is only "stuff", that's it's neither good nor bad, it just IS. If I truly believe that "everything is exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment" (BB pg 449), and I do believe that, then how can I object to anything? What good would it do me anyway? So I try to accept everything, whether I like it or not. I assume that when I'm in pain it's for a purpose (isn't "pain the touchstone of all spiritual growth"?). I accept my life for what it was and what it is, no regrets. I try to be grateful for all the sorrow as well as the joy, the pain as well as the pleasure, the failures as well as the successes. It's all my life, not just the parts I prefer. I try to be grateful for all of it. I'm grateful to just be alive and breathing.

Of course, I talk a better game than I play. The above is an ideal that I'm making progress towards - I'm still a long way from perfection. I still see other people bravely confronting tragedies that I don't see how I could ever accept, much less be grateful for. But I can't worry about that. So far I've yet to encounter adversity that I couldn't handle, and for that I am grateful.

Peace & Serenity


Member: Debbi B
Location: Bay Area, California
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 15:59:20

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Hi, I'm Debbi and I am an alcoholic, a very grateful one today. The miracle is that my car is in the shop, will cost $775 to get it out, i am walking, and I am still grateful thanks to all the program of Alcoholics Anonymous has given me!!! It's ok for me to walk today. It's ok for me to take action to get the money to fix the car. It's ok for me to be patient. I remember a time when none of that was possible for me. I thank God on a daily basis for the miracles He has performed in my life and want to let everyone out there know that He will perform the same in yours if you just don't pick up that first drink and keep coming back!!!


Member: maryann g.
Location: ware,mass.
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 18:42:56

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hi everyone. i'm maryann a gratful recovering alcoholic. gratatude. great topic. for any one. i've been reading the discussions. and came across pg.449 often. sometimes when i read it, i read it again and again. 2nd best book i own. my husband is also a recovering alcholic. many times in my self-willed moods. i need to be reminded of what i have. not what i think i want. my husband has sat down with me and has me tell him what i'm grateful for today. going through this i come out of maryann with a knowing of just what i've got today and just how gratful i really am. things don't always go my way. as long as i'm reassured things are as God plans, that i can accept in great honor and gratatude. i didn't drink today. i'm on my way to a meeting now and God loves me. thanks for the topic. sometimes life on lifes terms aren't the easiest to deal with. but if i keep in mind the wonderful things i have today because i'm sober, life won't kick me in the butt so hard. because i am a victim of my own circumstances. God blesses everyone and if you know that then you've had a day full of gratatude. love, love.


Member: peter l
Location: germany
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 18:45:31

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hi, my name is peter and i'm an alcoholic. i'm german, my english very bad. i search for online-meetings, cause i#m drunk and need someone to talk to. yesterday i saw "dead poets society", i only can shout oh captain my captain. sorry


Member: Linda O
Location: PTB, FL
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 19:08:49

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Hi! I'm Linda and I'm an alcoholic.

SO many good words and thoughts about gratitude!

Bonnie, be careful -- I'm beginning to put you on the "AA pedestal" as I have so many others. These are the people that make me "perk up and listen" whenever they speak.

Kent, your post really made me remember the pain of being a drunk. In my case, I would only add those horrible "coyote nights." Thank God I no longer have to live that way.

Jill, you've received some great advice on this site. The next move is yours. We've all been where you are and we're all in your corner. Hope to see you back on this site.

For me, gratitude always involves "wearing the world as a loose garment." As has been said, I never quite fit in my own skin and lived my life filled with a combination of rage and fear. The ability to live life on life's terms is a continuing miracle to me and I owe it all to the people I've met in AA.

In love and service.


Member: GARY K.
Location: TX
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 22:24:22

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MY NAME IS GARY AND I AM AN ALCOHOLIC. GRATEFUL TO FIND THIS MEETING ON THE INTERNET. GIVES ME SOMETHING TO DO AT WORK OTHER THAN RESPOND TO PATIENT VENTILATOR ALARMS. THERE GOES ONE NOW, BUT I'LL TAKE THIS TIME TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I AM GLAD TO BE BACK IN AA. THANKS AND I WILL STAY IN TOUCH.


Member: Mike H.
Location: Jonesboro Ar.
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 22:33:22

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D.O.S 07/12/92 I'm a alcoholic and name is mike and for the topic. Graditude-- It amazes me to that I can walk into any AA room and feel welcome. I always felt like I was not being treated right by people and I just didn't fit in , But I have found that it was not them It was me. I didn't want to fit in because I was afraid that someone would find out who i really was, but I wasn't who I thought I was. What a killer Uh. To a lost soul like mine. Mike H.


Member: Rich H.
Location: Joplin, MO
Date: 13 Oct 1998
Time: 23:12:50

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Hi, I'm Rich, alcoholic. I am more thankful than I can put in words for all the things I've read here and plenty more. However, I can only say I am grateful when I am carrying this message and practicing these principles in all my affairs. Thankful + Action = Gratitude.

Not resting on my laurels, Rich


Member: neil w
Location: so cal
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 03:48:56

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i drank ,i had problems ,went to aa, started to get better,found a sick girl in aa,got worse ,started drinking again,a little relief ,got lots of problems,somewhere along the line i found out i was the problem,have 36days,had 3and a half years ,doesnt matter at this moment ok,


Member: Kemi
Location: California
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 13:35:45

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I really enjoy the sharing here. have been going around to different sites and this one s the most comfortable. Some places i just can"t go back to and maintain any serenity. Enugh of that... getting up this AM was a little tough. Had a kind of sadness in my gut that I couldn't name. Probably just another phase in the recovery process. The first time around I seemed to be made of stone, anger being the ony emtion I felt. My sponsor says I have a lot more feelings uncover. I did a fifth step with her this year and she said that was just te tip of the iceberg. I am so grate full for the guidance and support she gives me and gratefull for having survived my relapse a year ago. Will try to only post once a week from now on. Just wanted to share how i felt this morning before going out in the world. Thanks to all of you. JILL if you are still listening keep coming around, call AA, By getting to know us you just might get to know yourself and answer your own question----Kemi


Member: Julie S.
Location: Vancouver
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 15:20:29

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I'm Julie, and I'm an alcoholic. I'm just coming back, and have three days sober now. Today I'm grateful that I don't have a hangover. I'm at work and just spoke with my sponsor and mentioned that I was having a tough time today. I thought I'd see if I could find a meeting online (had heard about them, but never actually seen or participated in one). I'm grateful that there is a meeting online, and grateful that I feel much better than I did an hour ago, grateful to my hp, and grateful to be alive.


Member: john t
Location: eastern
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 15:51:52

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Member: Dale S.
Location: Creepy California
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 17:13:24

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Gratitude well lets see do I have any thing to be grateful for: 1. not having to drink today 2. God awareness 3. A cool house 4. Good friends 5. Great job 6. AA. (the book and the fellowship) 7. My Dad 8. My Mom 9. Memories of my Son 10. A great Wife. 11. Middling truck. 12. Clean air 13. Jesus 14. Me 15. A cool boss (surfer Joe type) 16. Family (4 sisters) 17. Five computers (maybe a curse) 18. Nice clothes 19. Hot showers 20. (maybe the thing I like best) Soft warm safe bed. All these thing are nice and I appreciate them. I thank God for them, and my new and wonderful life.--- BUT ---sense I have come to AA I have come to know the word Gratitude as an action word. Just saying "I am happy about it" isn't enough for this face down in the gutter drunk (at best). I must SHOW my gratitude with action, action and more action. Just how much is a miracle worth to me? Is it worth staying up all night with some drunk with little hope of him ever getting it? Is it worth giving my phone number out at meetings to drunks I barely know? Is it worth being laughed at over new ideas concerning Spirituality? How about cleaning up all the cigarette butts and trash after the AA convention? Cleaning the coffee pot every night a one particular meeting while being a secretary at another? What is the going price for a miracle today? Does it mean I even have to love my fellow drunks. Oh No! Not that! Anything but that! Damn smelly drunks. -- Just make damn sure that a drunk can barf and piss on every thing your grateful about because that's the price for a miracle on today's market for this face down in the gutter drunk (at best).-


Member: Neil W.
Location: So. Cal
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 17:52:04

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Hi my name is Neil and I'm an alcohlic.Just got my wisdom teeth out abut a half hour ago.I said the serenity prayer while in the chair,that helped.I think it's funny when some groups define sobriety as the complete abstenence of all mind altering chemicals and then 3/4's of the meeting rush out to have a smoke.Stoked that I haven't drank for over a month and haven't smoked for over three weeks.I will definitly be taking vicodon for the pain... I was dead a couple of months ago and now I'm starting to live.I'll help myself anyway I can, I'm selfish!Lagwagon rules..Keep coming back it works if you let it...


Member: Mark L.
Location: Seattle, WA
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 19:49:53

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Member: Dan H.
Location: Glennallen, Alaska
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 21:44:51

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Hi Everyone. I am Dan H. , alcoholic.

I'm from a small bush town in Alaska and meetings here get pretty lonely when I'm the only one there. About half the time there is one more guy that comes. 400 days sober and getting better each day. Gratefull for that and this whole program. Gratefull for the other guy that does show up and gratefull for all of you. Gratefull that I was sober and had picked up the yard before it snowed more today.EXTREMELY gratefull that I am sober and there for my kids now. Thanks, Dan H.


Member: Ernie
Location: California
Date: 14 Oct 1998
Time: 22:33:17

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Hi Everybody--my name is Ernie, and I am an alcoholic! I am so grateful to be alive and sober today. Life has never been better. I've been sober for a little over 8 years. I came to AA totally broken. Today, I am a sober and healthy member of a wonderful organization. Thanks *:0)


Member: J.C.
Location: Long Island
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 00:04:33

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Hi I'm John C I'm an alcoholic. Raised in alcoholic family came to rooms young spared next ten-twenty years literal hell parents went through. last drink 12/78 just came home from meeting still need them. I am grateful.J.C


Member: Mike M
Location: Bend, OR.
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 00:34:40

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Hi I am Mike M and Im a Alcoholic, Im sober by the GACE of my GOD, AA and other alcoholics like you. For that I am truely GRATFUL. Peace and Light


Member: brad W
Location: NZ
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 02:43:27

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hi, my name is brad and I am an alcoholic. When I remember to say thankyou for the good things that are happening for me I know that I am in the right place. I am grateful for the wonderful people who have helped me, out of the goodness of their hearts. I am grateful that I am not angry all the time, and that finally I can let things go as they arise. Life is so mux=ch more pleasant without irrational fears and resentments. Sober, my daily efforts, no matter how modest they may be, help me grow as a person. I've got a long way to go, but I trust now that if I try, as best I can, each day, then I can build alife that I can be comfortable in, a life that contibutes to others in a positive way. Thanks.


Member: Mark L.
Location: S.I.
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 10:30:53

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Hi, Mark L. Alcoholic,Gratitude! Wonderful topic. I have gratitude having my wife back in my life,my father in my life. Today my wife drives me to meetings,does service without knowing it. My father who I thought OWED ME THE WORLD,today he wants to stay at my house ,be part of my life after 30 years,help me financially. Today I can tell him I don't want him to help,that he owes me nothing except being my father. I say NO today to things he offers.(I only say NO so often,if he insists I am no fool!) I love him dearly today. We talk on a regular basis. I feel,he feels its a wonder thing. Not everything do I have gratitude for,I am learning but sometimes it REALLY DOES GET BETTER. I wasn't promised things would get better, I was promised things would get REAL if I didn't drink. Sometimes life on lifes terms is just what we have to learn to ACCEPT.

Thanks for Letting Me Share Love to Everyone!


Member: RON M.
Location: B.C. CDN.
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 13:40:24

Comments

Hi. Ron and I AM A ALCOH0LIC. I'm gratefull for yesterday, yesterday I did not drink . Went to two meetings enjoyed both. It is very seldom I do not get something out of a meeting. I'm grateful for the sunthat rose this morning ' the birds that sang, and my loving wife. I'm grateful for MYFOR GOD! [HE , SHE , IT ] loves me. My eyes opened this morning and I was able to get out of bed to start another day with peace of mind and heart what more can I ask for. A.K.A. RON M.


Member: Bruce M
Location: St.Catharines, ON
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 15:37:03

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I am an alcoholic and my name is Bruce. I am grateful for a great many things, but here is one thing I am particularly grateful for: I can't even begin to gues at the number of times I have driven while intoxicated...hundreds of times. Sometimes I had to drive with one eye closed, to stop the double vision. Most times with utter disregard for safety, laws, or other motorists. I didn't kill you...I didn't kill anyone you love...I didn't kill anyone you know, or anyone who knows them...I am VERY grateful that my selfish, stupid, careless actions never resulted in the death or serious injury of any body. Thank you God!

May you all have something to be grateful for.


Member: Carol G.
Location: St. Catharines, Ontario Canada
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 20:27:41

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Hi...Carol..Alcoholic here...I am grateful for a second chance at life and the ability to live it with dignity.I am grateful for A.A. and all the helpful members who took me under their wings and helped me find a new way. and I am grateful to the God of my understanding for protecting me from myself until I was willing to sober up.


Member: jen l.
Location: eddyville ia
Date: 15 Oct 1998
Time: 23:24:10

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jen and i am an alcoholic who is greatful for the intert. i have been starting for a meeting and it is right here. i enjoy reading what you all have said and brings home the messeges of aa. it has been a joy to read. i also enjoy walking into a meeting that i have never been to before and read the 12 steps and traditions on the wall. I know i am home.


Member: Allan G.
Location: Jackson,N.J.
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 07:51:41

Comments

Hi im Allan and Iam an Alcoholic Im comming up on 4yrs and it was told to me from day one that a grateful alcoholic will not drink and that gratitude was an action word and that in order for me to be truly grateful I must work thesteps and give back to AA what was so freely given to methrough this ive benn given back myself andand the love of my family and the fact I can wake up inthe morning and not face those horrible horseman I dont live that life anymore and for that I am truly grateful to God and AA the fellowship and the program


Member: Jon S
Location: Schenectady, NY
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 09:51:47

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Hi, my name is Jon and this my first time sharing on a website. Gratitude is being sober because I probably wouldn't be alive today if it wasn't for AA and a loving GOD of my understanding. Whenever I reached out AA was there and my 1st 6 months was my roughest ride in recovery so far. When I'm sober I have a chance, and when I'm drunk life is pure misery.


Member: Kate N
Location: Chicago
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 10:05:21

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Kate N Grateful Recovering Alcoholic, Great to hear so many wonderful things.I am grateful that I woke up this morning and so many other things. But mostly when I look at my son and know that I am healthy for him and sober for him. When he was in my stomach, I wasnt so lucky and it really gives me joy to see his healthy happy(sometimes) face. I am also happy for the anger I have today because it tells me that I still have some work to do and to use the tools of Sponsers and the Program.Thanks,Kate


Member: Anthony R
Location: Pittsburgh PA
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 10:12:14

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I am an alcoholic names Anthony R I am very Grateful today for AA GOD some self respect and the very fact i am still alive on Gods borrowed time. Thank you to AAs all over the world.Thank you God.Its great to be sober and I MUST REMEMBER GRATITUTDE CHANGES ATTITUDE


Member: Yvonne
Location: Chicago
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 11:51:37

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Hi my name is Yvonne, a recovering alcoholic. I am grateful to have had the desire to stop drinking. With out that, I would never have found the program, be healthy, happy, have a loving husband and two wonderful little boys. As much as I hate the coming winter months, I am grateful to be alive today to experience them. Good and bad, I'm grateful to be sober today and living life, not just existing.


Member: Dean H.
Location: Marion, Oh
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 12:05:07

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I am so grateful that I have a loving wife of 19 years that stood in waiting for the day that I would realize what I had lost (myself and my spirituality) come to the realization that I was powerless. I finally surrendered on August 21, 1998 after an obsession that began almost 32 years ago. I am grateful to my Higher Power, whom I call God, for taking control of my life and will again. I am grateful for my sponsor, an "old-timer" who is bringing me up right in A.A. And I am also gratful for all my brothers and sisters in my universal A.A. family. I love you all. Thank you.


Member: Ian K
Location: U.K.
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 13:42:17

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Hello, my name is Ian and I'm an alcoholic.

Gratitude. A keystone to any recovery. Step 10 inventory. Gratitude list Vs Fears list. God versus The Other Guy. "The main problem of the alcoholic centres in the mind" BB P23. It is my thinking that will lead to drinking and this is the daily way I keep it looking positive:

October 9th: (God, I am Grateful) For meeting Jessica, a member of Al-anon at the meeting tonight and for being able to be of use. For opening up the possibilities for me where my experience can be of benefit to others. For a simple day at work, for helping me keep my head whilst being tired. For this new outlook. For positive thinking. For that starting point to every decision or response.

October 10th: For meeting John and Ian at the AA meeting, for a fun evening with great company. For "The Truman Show", a breath of fresh air. For seeing your work in action through the Southgate meeting.

October 11th: For a simple, sober day. For coming together with Robin to talk about his work, for being witness to it. For an increasingly open mind once more to creation and its purpose.

October 12th: For learning the lesson of when not to Post to Staying Cyber! For a pleasant day, the uneventful ones are even a pleasure now. For a clear head, for Martins enthusiasm and inspiring me to point him to meetings where he is comfortable with the message, such as Southgate, where the recovery is strong.

Just a few from my Step 10 last week. Along with the Resentment table as suggested for Step 4 I find these seem to keep my house clean. Though The Other Guy will always knock on the door in disguise waiting to let me in. Best do my best to try and spot him, eh?

"For we have ceased fighting anything or anyone - even alcohol. For by this time sanity will have been returned." BB P84. Is that not something to be grateful for?

Love and Gratitude in the Fellowship, Ian K.


Member: Grace E.
Location: Pennsylvania
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 14:44:40

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My name is Grace and I am an alcoholic and an addict. The topic of gratitude is one that I have been thinking about alot lately. I stopped doing narcotics about two years ago, but drinking has just ceased two days ago. The reason I stopped was because I began to look at how much better my life had gotten after I stopped doing drugs. I asked myself "wow, if things have gotten this much better without drugs, just think how great my life would be without a permanent hangover". I am starting to see that AA was right all along. My problem is I have not been to a meeting in about two years and when I was in rehab I always had people to tell me where the meetings were. I have no idea where to go and look for one. I also don't know how to tell my mother that I am going back to AA? Can someone please help me, I am very scared?!


Member: Larry M.
Location: Virginia Beach
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 15:56:07

Comments

Grace:

Call information and just ask for Alcoholics Anonymous or check out http://anonpress.org/phone/pa.htm for links to the Intergroup in your area. They can give you info on AA meetings near you.

Suggest you talk to someone at the meeting, preferably a temporary sponsor if you can get one, about telling your mother.


Member: Craig D
Location: Portland,ORf
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 16:54:19

Comments

My name is Craig, I'm an Alcoholic. I am first grateful that I am sober today, because of my higher power and comming back to A.A. I was sober for over 5yrs. and went back to drinking for a few months of hell before my face was in the gutter again. Then I realized I was loosing my wife,and my whole family etc... I am grateful I have my wife that loves me and still have my family that loves me. When I drank I wasn't grateful for anything. I would just feel sorry for myself. This made me very selfish, angry, bitter at everything. It sure feels alot better to be grateful than to be selfish. Thanks for being there and I enjoy all your comments. Craig


Member: Linda O
Location: PTB, FL
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 19:16:42

Comments

Hi! I'm Linda and I'm an alcoholic.

Grace, hope you took Larry's advice and called about a meeting. I'm sure someone would be willing to come and get you to take you to the meeting if you're unable to drive. Unless your mother has been one of your "drinking buddies," I'm sure she will be thrilled to know her daughter has decided to get sober. No one wants to see someone they love go through the pain of addiction -- regardless of the substance. Post again and let us know how you're doing.

In love and service.


Member: Sharon
Location: Titusville, FL
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 20:03:50

Comments

Hi everyone my name is Sharon I very grateful recovering alcoholic. For me I'am very grateful for the good and bad in my life one more day sober is better than being still out their drinking. Jill M. in Conn. I too came from an alcoholic home. My mom has 25 years in the program my father died sober with 11 years in the program and is it is a family disease. But if it was for the program I would not be here and I would have lost my mother years ago, for that I'am truely gratiful to this wonderful program. For me A.A. is like coming home I finally belong. Jill find a meeting in your home town give it a try, Remember we love you!!! Your in my thoughts and prayers.


Member: Barbara B
Location: Monroeville, PA
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 22:11:18

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I'm greatful today because I have a life. A very full life. I have a God in my life that has given me the tools and the intuitiveness on how to handle those situations that arise in my life that are uncomfortable and don't always go my way. Prayer is one of those tools. Acceptance and willingness, honesty,patience, and the ability to choose a life principle in handling my affairs. These are a few of my favorite things. How to find meetings? Call the AA Central Office listed in the phone directory.


Member: Pete
Location: MA
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 22:20:13

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Pete - Alcoholic...My dad passed away three months before I got sober. Just recently my baby sister asked me to give her away at her wedding. She thinks that is what dad would have wanted. Years ago I probably wouldn't have been invited. Thank you all for this gift. Keep coming, it works.


Member: Rod M
Location: Sydney ,Australia
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 22:56:24

Comments

good day I'm Rod and alcoholic from Sydney Australia. At this moment I feel pretty grateful to be able to contact my fellow alcoholics around the world. I feel grateful every day for another day of sobriety


Member: Tom F.
Location: New Mexico
Date: 16 Oct 1998
Time: 23:42:49

Comments

My name is Tom. I'm an alcoholic. Saying that is my prayer.

Ingratitude was an important part of my drinking. Conversely, gratitude did not come easy.

Sometimes "the courage to accept the things I cannot change" means to me "the courage to accept the gifts I've been given which I'm trying to throw away."

This could only be understood by drunks like me who made resentment their career...

I'm in a new town, don't like the meeting I would have gone to tonight(forget that there are literally 500 meetings/week here), got myself purposefully late, didn't go, turned on my computer and cried reading this site. HP/AA had found me again.

What a miracle. Thanks.


Member: Dora L.
Location: Bitburg, Germany
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 00:40:47

Comments

Hi Out There! I'm so grateful to have this opportunity to share in a way that I would never have thought possible. Living here in Germany has given me the the chance to meet sober people from all over the world in meetings from the UK to the former USSR. What a blessing! I have recently become Internet literate and found this site. I hope Peter will try to find meetings here in Germany. They are available both in German and English. I've been to both. I'm grateful today that I can wake up instead of coming to. I'm grateful today that I can walk into a meeting of AA anywhere in the world and be instantly at home with a group of drunks. I am grateful that I have enough brain cells left to figure out how to communicate and share what was so freely given to me. Thanks to all of you out there for this meeting and for the people who have shared. May our paths meet somewhere on our road to happy destiny. Love in the Fellowship!


Member: Norm P.
Location: Indiana
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 01:17:04

Comments

Have been on a gratitude roll in recent days but here are some of the continuing things over the years I'm grateful for: Didn't have to drink today or think about it. Still married in spite of myself. Got a God of my understanding so I don't have to manage the world anymore. Can grow through the pain that's still here but doesn't last forever. Can share experience,strength and hope. A dash of honesty,openmindness and willingness mixed with humility. Knowing a Power greater than myself will do for me what I can not do for myself. First 164 pages of the Big Book,"a design for living that really works in rough going." Teachers sent my way when this student is ready. Can help others("nothing will so much insure immunity from drinking as intensive work with other alcoholics"). The blessings of service work...who woulda thunk a daily drunk like me would ever be trusted with A.A.'s business?


Member: Diane P.
Location: Orange, NJ
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 01:22:29

Comments

Hi family,

My name is Diane and I'm a grateful recoverying Alcoholic.

GRATITUDE.... I am just so grateful to be alive today, that God has given be another chance at life. I remember when I wanted to die, the pain was so great. I also remember doing things that warranted me to be dead, all due to my drinking and drugging, but my God said "No." My Higher Power gives me the gift of life, so my gift to him is remaining sober, being the best person I can be, and helping others. "WHEN ANYONE, ANYWHERE REACHES OUT FOR HELP I WANT THE HAND OF AA ALWAYS TO BE THERE AND FOR THAT I AM RESPONSIBLE."

Gratitude is an "ACTION" word. I show my gratitude by showing up and getting active, remembering the paradox that in order for me to keep it I "MUST" give it away.

Thanks for being here, I'm so glad this is a "WE" program.


Member: Lori B
Location: Portland, Oregon USA
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 01:45:20

Comments

Hi, everyone. My name is Lori, and I am most definitely an alcoholic. Gratitude, in my humble opinion, is a never-ending topic. I've been sober for 12 years now, and for that I'm grateful. I'm also grateful for things that other people may not necessarily understand. For example, my son is almost 8 years old and is autistic. I was devastated a few years ago with the diagnosis...I remember throwing myself onto the ground and begging, absolutely pleading with God to kill me and make my son normal. Needless to say, God and I never did strike that deal! So what am I grateful for? I'm grateful that although my son does have a disability, at least he can talk, he can read & write, and he's not mentally retarded. Hmmm, let's see. I'm also grateful that when my husband walked out on me at the end of March, with no warning, that I didn't drink. I'm grateful that, although I have both Hepatitis B & C, my health is still fairly okay...I mean, I haven't turned yellow yet! I'm grateful that I knew my sponsor for 7 years before she died of throat cancer. What a gift to have been blessed with her friendship! I'm grateful that even though I have problems in my life, even though I feel sorry for myself sometimes, even though I feel like "it's just not fair", even when people just don't seem to realize that if they just did it MY way, it would all work out fine (not!)...despite all my human frailties and shortcomings, I can still celebrate that I am a sober, responsible, productive member of the human race. I was taught a long time ago that if you don't drink, you won't get drunk. And if you don't get drunk, your life will change. And whether it changes to good or to bad is entirely up to you. And lastly, there are those of us that state that we are grateful alcoholics. Well, for me, that isn't true. My name is Lori, and I am an alcoholic who is grateful to have the program of Alcoholics Anonymous to teach me how to get sober, one day at a time...happy, joyous & free. Have a great day, everyone...unless you've made other plans! 8-)


Member: kristine f
Location: salt lake city, utah
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 01:46:20

Comments

hello my name is kristine and i am an alcoholic, I am grateful to be in a meeting of alcoholics anonymous. Just reading line after line of gratitude makes the hectic week seem to melt away. I have been in AA over ten years and it still seems like I get the same "pink cloud" feeling when I find new AA members to chat with. The program is "simply" amazing. And now with the busy life we tend to create when we get sober I find it more and more difficult to keep up with my meetings. Thank god for online meetings. I can have that AA meeting whenever I want or need it. Thanks, to each and everyone of you for your comments. They have helped me get one more day. keep coming back it works, and with that I'll take another 24.


Member: Mary G
Location: Gilroy, CA   USA
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 02:45:38

Comments

My name is Mary and I am an alcoholic...I'm grateful to have aquiet moment to myself in order for me to go online and hear recovery, the steps working in other peoples' lives, and so many other reasons to be grateful...Thank you for sharing your lives with me. hugs, Mary G


Member: Norm P.
Location: Indiana
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 11:15:56

Comments

My apologies for the second post-will make it brief.Lori B.from Portland-I,too,have an autistic son(now 30 and living in a group home). Spent 12 years raising him myself and know what a lonely,frustrating time it was so I'm posting my e-mail address here if you want to talk: nutfactory@hotmail.com


Member: David M
Location: Los Angeles
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 11:55:42

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David, Alcoholic; I am grateful today that I can get up and breath for another day. With gratitude, there is no room for anger. With gratitude, there is no room for resentment, With gratitude, there is no room for the next drink. I have a choice today, who lives in my head. If it is my higher power whon I choose to call God, I am grateful. If it is me then I am in deep shit. You see I have a bachelor apartment in my head, only room for one. God or me, I choose God and gratitude over me and my non-grateful, self-centered, fearful, insane, self... I have evicted myself. Gratitude Reigns. Thank for letting me share.


Member: Marge M
Location: Conneticut
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 13:21:02

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Member: Marge M
Location: Conneticut
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 13:43:17

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Hi, I've been looking for all of you. first meeting 1978 periods of not drinking, slips, rehab 1979, sober 1 yr. slip, rehab again, 3 yrs.sober, slip, rehab 1982,14 yr's sober,slip,rehab,4pt.restraints,1 1/2 yr'ssober,drank,I keep going to AA & try again. so in this battle for 20 years.I was very envolved. Different now, all those people I sponsored in 14 yr's got new sponsors but they say they still respect me. I go to a meeting every day and Thank God not drinking. I go where I am not known so I won't be hurt by well meaning but incensitive people anyone out there who finds it so hard to come back? I'm an old timer with relapses & lucky to be alive. God keeps saving me so far so I can try again. God bless you all.


Member: Kate N
Location: Chicago
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 15:15:42

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Kate N. Alcoholic, In referance to Pat and the misory you are going through. Why did you quit drinking? It sounds like you are misserable and that nothing good ever came of it. In that case why are you not still out there?Kate


Member: Sandy K
Location: New Jersey
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 19:18:29

Comments

Hi, I'm Sandy and I'm an alcoholic. Jill M. from Connecticut, I would like to share this with you. I didn't know if I was an alcoholic My friend was in the program and she told me the best way to find out was to go to meetings and try to keep my mind open and listen to see if I cold identify with feelings the speaker and other alcoholics had. I was in so much fear and pain. She asked that I do this for 90 days. I told her that was impossible. She said ok. Could I do it for one day. I said ok. She asked me to just do it for one day - each day. Don't drink for only that one day and go to a meeting. I did one meeting a day and that kept me from having a drink - one day at a time. TKoday I have 7 years sobriety and they have been the best years of my life. I am so gratful that I can pass this on to you. Love to all


Member: Beverly E
Location: Phx. AZ
Date: 17 Oct 1998
Time: 19:19:42

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This is my first sober cyber meeting. My name is Beverly and I am an alcoholic, among other things. I'm sitting in a computer class at Phx. College learning about the internet, so like any real alcoholic my thoughts strayed off to doing other things. I am very grateful that today when my mind takes over thinking, my program takes over my actions. Thus here I am doing an on line meeting. This is really cool and I hope to sit and chat here again soon. Class is over and I'm off to UNITY DAY at South Mountain Park. Thanks for listening.


Member: sharon b
Location: new mexico
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 00:02:29

Comments

hi, I'm Sharon and I'm an alcohlic. My dry dateis Jan 6th, 1996. I am grateful that Doctor Bob and Bill W. crossed paths back in 1935. What a miracle. I see miracles at my home group on a daily basis. If I work the steps, stay in touch with my sponsor and have a conscience contact with God on a daily basis, I never have to drink again. For that I am grateful.blackouts suck.


Member: sharon b
Location: new mexico
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 00:03:10

Comments

hi, I'm Sharon and I'm an alcohlic. My dry dateis Jan 6th, 1996. I am grateful that Doctor Bob and Bill W. crossed paths back in 1935. What a miracle. I see miracles at my home group on a daily basis. If I work the steps, stay in touch with my sponsor and have a conscience contact with God on a daily basis, I never have to drink again. For that I am grateful.blackouts suck.


Member: sharon b
Location: new mexico
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 00:04:00

Comments

hi, I'm Sharon and I'm an alcohlic. My dry dateis Jan 6th, 1996. I am grateful that Doctor Bob and Bill W. crossed paths back in 1935. What a miracle. I see miracles at my home group on a daily basis. If I work the steps, stay in touch with my sponsor and have a conscience contact with God on a daily basis, I never have to drink again. For that I am grateful.blackouts suck.


Member: sharon b
Location: new mexico
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 00:04:46

Comments

hi, I'm Sharon and I'm an alcohlic. My dry dateis Jan 6th, 1996. I am grateful that Doctor Bob and Bill W. crossed paths back in 1935. What a miracle. I see miracles at my home group on a daily basis. If I work the steps, stay in touch with my sponsor and have a conscience contact with God on a daily basis, I never have to drink again. For that I am grateful.blackouts suck.


Member: sharon b
Location: new mexico
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 00:05:37

Comments

hi, I'm Sharon and I'm an alcohlic. My dry dateis Jan 6th, 1996. I am grateful that Doctor Bob and Bill W. crossed paths back in 1935. What a miracle. I see miracles at my home group on a daily basis. If I work the steps, stay in touch with my sponsor and have a conscience contact with God on a daily basis, I never have to drink again. For that I am grateful.blackouts suck.


Member: tammy c
Location: alaska
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 01:29:00

Comments

Hi I'm Tammy and I'm an alcoholic. Been sober about 21/2 years. Just got this computer and thought I would see what AA was like on line. it's good to be cober one more day. if someone would like to chat with someone from Alaska (Fairbanks)E-mail me tchauvin@alaska.net


Member: dj
Location: norfolk
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 01:55:43

Comments

<<<MIRACLES>>> IN AA, lets hear about gods love of drunks like us, god bless


Member: Kim H.
Location: Santa Rosa, CA
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 03:05:34

Comments

What a perfect topic for me in my poor-me pot lately. My husband loves me-he's faithful, loving, etc. My two beautiful daughters are healthy. I have a job. An apartment in a nice neighboorhood. Kid in a good school. Friends. Sobriety. (Now why wasn't that at the top of the list?) My parents are getting re-married next year after being divorced for 22 years. That was all I ever wished for when I was a kid. Now I know there is a God--that and I have over 8 years of sobriety that I have taken for granted. Life should be precious-I felt like that everyday for the longest time. Now, I'm stressed that we can't have all the things we want. I'm stressed over the physical pain my husband and I both have to live with. But do I get into the solution? Nope--just been bitching. I suppose I know what I must do. That "I" word again. INVENTORY. I never did like those. To this day I drag my feet writing those things. But, whenever I publicly commit to one, I do it so I'll see ya'll in a week or so with my 5th step! ;]


Member: Rivner
Location: High Desert, Santa Fe , NM
Date: 18 Oct 1998
Time: 09:53:26

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Howdy! Name is Rivner, stubborn, arrogant, low-bottom drunk & recovering from all the aforementioned.

MIRACLES - MILAGROS! Que Bueno. The biggin' for me is that I'm alive and bangin' away on this keyboard. The littlins are all the times things go smoothly while working (building contractor). Often, after the homeowner might pass on a compliment, I have to say: "Thanks, but it wasn't me. God put this together. I've never been able to do it all by myself".

If I can keep that up in front where I can see it regular like, I got a shot at a sober day with the gratitude kicker built in. At the end of the day the milagro and the gratitude are obvious. If I run around with a blue flame shootin' out of my butt all day, then by sundown I'm crabbing about how it was all a struggle and flat-out missing any peace/serenity.

It's really any big effort to start my day with some deliberate conversation w/ HP. If I don't, it's due to my own self-will tryin' to run the show. Someone told me once that if I began each day dedicating my work to God, I wouldn't have to worry much if anyone else liked it, it I was getting paid enough, if the crew was happy, etc. It would all take care of itself. All I had to do was relax and do the best I could for the day. That's another one I need to stick out in front of me - kind of like the carrot in front of the jackass, isn't it?

God's Speed, Rivner del llano.