Member: Jan BB
Location: Paris, France
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 7:52:04 AM

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How about staying sober no matter what?


Member: L-RAY
Location: somewere in Spain
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 9:00:04 AM

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Hi ((((Jan)))) when i first came to the fellowship i didnt want to be here but as time passed i decided that i wanted to be sober no matter what--- i was going through a divorce ,my business was in England and i was in scotland, i was now living with my elderly parents after 15 years out the house< my exs boyfriend had moved in and my clothes were still in the wardrobe! my lawyer ran off with his sec: the inland revenue were after me for taxes< my ex left all my stuff out side and it got wasted! i had to give my business up as i ran it from my house in England, i had to travel up and down to Herts to sort out everything! my father had parkinsons! other wise things could have been worse lol, but i stayed sober that was 16+ years ago "how time goes bye" regards L-RAY


Member: Pat H.
Location: Northern Va.
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 9:47:00 AM

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The only reason for me to pick up a drink again would be to commit suicide--that's what alcohol is to me--a lethal weapon.There couldn't be anything in my life to face that I could deal with better with a lethal weapon in my hand.So I stick with the winners and work the steps to keep myself spiritually fit to deal with life on life's terms. Good to be here.


Member: Kim V
Location: kvaughn@madison.main.nc.us
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 9:48:22 AM

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Kim V here alcoholic. Staying sober no matter what. Well I know for me after being sober almost 7 years I no longer think about drinking when things get bad. I know deep down that things will get far worse real fast if I even take that first drink. So no matter what happens a drink will only make it worse for this alcoholic. I have found also that no matter what happens if I talk about what is going on with me and reach out, and ask for help (which is hard for me) and keep doing the next right thing, that I will get over what ever obstacle is in the way even though it may be a very painful obstacle. The scary part for me is the few times my sick mind still does catch me off guard and I get thoughts of drinking is when things are going really well. This proves to me that my alcoholism is still there, still lurking in the shadows, just waiting for me to put my defenses down. How do I keep my defenses up. I go to meeting, I utilize my support system, I talk about my problems, I help other alcoholics, and I keep close to my higher power (keeping spiritualy fit) and I pray that it's enough and I thank God everyday for helping to keep my sober. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Shelagh B
Location: sanshe57@aol.com
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 11:23:22 AM

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hi Jan, staying sober no matter what this sounded like a tall order 7mths ago but as the days turn into weeks I can see the reality of just that staying sober no matter what or who is giving me a hard time and when this happens I set myself up for some me time to give thanks and pray for the ability and stregnth to let it go for the sake of my sobriety. So it is through my higher power that I learn to deal with the "no matter what" and just get on with being sober today with his and AAs help I can face anything though it wont always be easy I can do it, one day at a time. lol sheils


Member: Jeff
Location: Ne.
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 11:49:32 AM

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No matter what ? ......... remember in the begining we agreed to stop drinking with no reservations or lurking notions that some day we could drink like normal folk........when i read the topic for this week, this is what came to mind for me, as it is stated in the big book. I proved to myself over the years of drinking that i am not a normal drinker so why would i ever want to start again? Through working the 12 step`s my obcession to drink has been removed, my life has changed 100%. If someone told me how my life would be fourteen years later if i would only stop drinking i would not have believed them. Today there is nothing that happens in life that my higher power & i can not handle.


Member: Mike A
Location: El Cajon, CA
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 12:23:06 PM

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I can't put conditions on my sorbriety like I'll stay sober as long as my wife don't leave me or as long as I have a job or as long as there is no deaths in my family etc. First off I quit drinking for me, once I quit for my wife and she left anyway.My sobriety has to be my number one priority, with out it I'm useless to anyone or anything.Sobriety doesn't stop bad things from happening, but useing the tools I have learned here gets me through them sober.Alcohol is a symtom of my desease, I am mentally, physically, and spiritually sick and when I recover spiritually my mental and physical will follow suit.I am not all there yet but I never had it so good.I had to change the way I looked at everything and be more positive,open minded and get rid of the self centerness, no human power could do this, it had to come from a power greater than myself.One day at a Time. Be good to yourself, we all deserve the best.


Member: Danny "Doc" F.
Location: Blue Mound, (Near "Cowtown") Texas, USA
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 12:44:51 PM

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Danny "Doc" F. here! Just a drunk, that don't have to drink, today! - - - In the beginning if this Recovery adventure, I was told, "Don't drink, even if your ass falls off, and breaks into tiny little pieces!" They said, to "Pick up the pieces, put them into one of those styrofoam coffeecups, and bring the pieces to a meeting! We keep a tube of butt cement, here, at the group, just for glueing those broken asses back together!!" Well. I didn't drink, but, I did have my butt glued, a few times!!! Thank God, those people loved me, enough to keep on telling me, to "Keep coming back, no matter what!" This deal REALLY DOES work!!! - - - "Doc"


Member: Karen W.
Location: Dothan AL.
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 6:48:57 PM

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hey everyone i'm Karen & i'm an alcoholic. Staying sober no matter what. When i first started this in 93 i didn't get it. I understand what Pat H. from Northern Va said about commiting suicide. Because in March of 95 that is where my last drink took me to the doors of suicide & it is only by the Grace of God I'm even alive today. When I did get back in the rooms I was so scared i held on to my sponsor & alot of key people. I trusted in their hope & faith that this thing worked because at that time i had no hope. Well that was 8 years ago & there is no excuse to drink again. I've been through as much as anyone in this program & has stayed sober one day at a time. To drink for me is to die. I know i have another drunk in me. But i also know i don't have an other recovery in me. I 'm so greatful for God giving me a second chance. Oh Jeff from Ne the big book also talks about the obsession of Controling & Enjoying our drinking. That I can't understand how to control & enjoying drinking! lol


Member: Tom M.
Location: Homosassa, FL
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 7:44:43 PM

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Hi Everyone, My name is Tom M. and I am a recovering Alcoholic. To Jan B B and anyone "Staying sober no matter what", is a good topic. I wish you had added "Just for Today" I know when I first came to AA 30+ years ago, if someone had told me to stay sober no matter what and Hadn't added "Just for Today" I probably would have turned around and walked out the door. Many people who come to this site are getting their very first taste of AA. We want to encourage them to come back and hopefully attend a meeting somewhere in the community where they live. When I first came into the program I was told all I had to do was to not take a drink of any kind of alcohol just for one day. That ment no matter what, "just for today" I would stay sober. When I realized that all I was being asked to do was to do was this"NO MATTER WHAT" just for one day, I knew I could handle that. So yes Jan "NO MATTER WHAT" Today I am going to stay sober, Just For Today. Remember, " Yesterday is a canceled check." It has been spent and there is nothing we can do to change that. "Tomorrow is a promissory note." It is not here yet so there is nothing we can do about it either. "But TODAY is CASH Spend it wisely. Thanks fo the opportunity to share. Keep coming back, IT WORKS.


Member: sober for today
Location:
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 9:16:13 PM

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TODAY is cash...spend it wisely!!! But Im the last of the big time spenders. I'll have to stay sober for a while before I get to spending WISELY


Member: Monty M.
Location: Concord NC, USA
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 10:40:23 PM

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I'm an alcoholic and my name's Monty. One of the many blessings I have recieved from this program is choice. I chose not to drink today "no matter what" when I asked God to help me stay sober today. My sponsor tells me "if your butt falls off, pick it up and go to a meeting". Today i want to stay sober no matter what. If i drink it is because i want to drink more than I want to stay sober


Member: Robert J
Location: sunporch
Date: 3/30/2003
Time: 11:29:08 PM

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I guess for me "no matter what" sounds like I might have an option on whether I drink or not, I don't..going to meetings, working the steps,and gettin honest with myself have taken that option away (I know how arrogant this sounds)but I read in the BB that this obsession with alcohol could be removed, and I believe it.


Member: Phil
Location: Arlington VA
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 12:26:30 AM

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Thanks everyone for sharing. I'm Phil and I',m an alcoholic. I keep writing things and then deleting them. I just want everyone to know that I am greatful that AA is here during the good times as well as the bad times.


Member: AZbill
Location: Sierra Vista, Arizona
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 2:26:54 AM

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HI Bill here, alcoholic from Arizona. Staying sober no matter what eh? Many of you have heard this part of my story but for the ones who have not. Over my recovery, my mother died, I quit two jobs, got fired from one and was once terminal with only four to six months to live. That was in 1994 and I ain't dead yet.. Not only did I not drink, I never even thought of a drink. And I do have the option to drink. God loves me so much, He has given me the free will to choose to drink or not to drink. Today I choose not to drink. What an awesome freedom. az-bill@mindspring.com


Member: Erin W
Location:
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 8:52:26 AM

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Today I want to stay sober no matter what. My husband is in detox and going through the program.I bought the BB and I am doing the program at home. It's a lot of hard work but today I will stay sober no matter what. With Gods help and AA I will do it.


Member: Kathleen
Location: Floral City, Florida
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 8:52:44 AM

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Hello everyone. Kathleen here alcoholic. Staying sober no matter what. Like most of us I've been through some hard times sober also. I was 3 months sober in Feb of 83 when my brother disappeared at sea. He was six months sober. I didn't drink. We had tickets to an AA convention and my parents went with me. 300 alcoholics holding hands and saying the Lord's prayer and they offered a moment of silence for my brother. It IS possible to stay sober no matter what, however it is a "daily repreive contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition."... I forgot that one time. I stayed sober from November 21st of 82 until the end of March 97. What happened? Well lets see....After graduating nursing school at age 44 the love of my life died, I was diagnosed with MS and went on disablity, moved away from my home town and my home support system, didn't get into AA in my new town and after a couple years of no AA and lots of self pity I did what any good alcoholic would do. I got drunk. During the years I was sober and active in AA I KNEW withought a doubt that if I ever went back out I wouldn't make it back to AA because I was a very low bottom skid row drunk. Drank daily for 20 years. However my hp God, saw different and when I got drunk I ended up in the hospital, then back home and found a registered online AA group and they gave me the courage to get back to f2f meetings. And I'm still sober today, but just for today. Yes, we can stay sober no matter what...IF we do the suggestions that are suggested in the big book. For me,the program of AA is the 12 steps.... and as long as I try to apply the principles of the steps in my life I and we can stay sober no matter what... Thanks for being here for me and helping me to stay sober today... KAthleen


Member: Jim W
Location: Oh
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 9:42:11 AM

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Today is the first time I have ever sought help for my problem. My name is Jimbo and I need help. I decided over the weekend that I have a drinking problem and would look for help today. That's how I found this site. I want to stop drinking and I need some advice as to where to seek help. For today I am going to focus on not drinking today.


Member: Norm F.
Location: Columbia, SC
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 10:36:40 AM

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Norm here, alcoholic. Jim W., look up Alcoholics Anonymous in the phone book and call to see where the meetings are. Go to one today. You will not regret it. We have all been where you are and we are there for you. As far as staying sober no matter what; there are no more excuses for me to pick up a drink. I ask for God's help on a daily basis because there might come a day when there will be no mental defense. Thank you for another day of sobriety.


Member: Rick S
Location: Upper Michigan
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 11:44:22 AM

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Sober No Matter what to me has a real meaning as not only do I have a drinking problem as in alcoholic I also have cluster headaches which are terrible headaches and come in clusters over several days once I start a cycle of them. I never realized it till I found some diet info a few yrs ago that some foods and alcohol can trigger them. Isn't it funny how God works in mysterious ways? I have been sober now going on 3 years and have less cycles of headaches not to mention the being "sick and tired" part not to say I was blessed with these headaches but that I was blessed in finding the diet and info on alcohol and foods that limits these along with being bless in finding and working a program "that works for me and I am confortable with " . I do not stay sober because of my headaches I do it for me but it is a help knowing I guess I have a built in system similar to taking anabuse.No Matter what I will stay sober Today knowing that I am blessed with a great life Thanks for listening Rick S


Member: Lisa H.
Location: NE Texas
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 12:21:16 PM

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Hello all, I'm Lisa an alcoholic. By God's grace and because AA works I haven't had to drink today. I would also like to let Jimbo know that there is help, you are not alone. When the student is ready the teacher will appear. There are AA meetings in Ohio...find one. I was told to make 90 meetings in 90 days. Thank God I did and even more than 90 because that gave me a solid foundation on which to build a new and wonderful life, and because of that foundation I was able to accept life on lifes terms and pray for God's will through the hard times which did and I'm sure will continue to come. My Mom died when I was seven months sober and I hung on to AA and my sponsor and friends. Accepting God's will. I really want to thank Kathleen for sharing, it reminds me of what can happen if I quit going to meetings. I can only keep what I have by giving it away. One day at a time.


Member: Don T
Location: CT
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 2:10:36 PM

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Hi I'm Don and I'm an alcoholic ,and have been for almost 20 years, I've been in and out of rehabs,intensive programs, AA, and up until 2 years ago jail ,thats what really opened my eyes ,I've been sober now for almost 2 years and it's been no picinic . I admitt I can't do it alone but I havent been to one AA meeting that I liked and I've gone to alot .Right now I'm in a group odered by probation ,its not AA but its working for me today .I do belive in what AA stands for I just wish I could find a meeting where I did'nt feel like I was being judged for what I do or don't belive in. I just want to feel like I belong. P.S. today I'm staying sober no matter what .


Member: Cassey
Location: France
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 2:28:34 PM

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Hey Jimbo, you know I felt the same way last week when I was searching on the internet about AA and stumbled on this website, and thinking to myself am I an alcoholic??? Did you take the quiz? I was wondering if there is anyone really out there that feels like I do. Am I the only asshole in this world? Sometimes we feel soo down we don't feel we can turn to anyone. Well I think the hardest step is coming to terms with the most important person in your life, yourself! If you reach your hand out, you will find that there are many people that will support you. I don't know what a person on this website looks like, but I take their words of wisdom to heart like I have known them all my life. Taking the first step is always the hardest. Believe in yourself, find help, and don't drink no matter what! God Bless u all!


Member: Robert H.
Location: Ohio
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 4:39:31 PM

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Hi Jimbo. You're almost there. Like Norm and Lisa suggested, I'll suggest picking up the phone and calling Alcoholics Anonymous in your local area. They'll direct you to a meeting. When you get there, let them know you are new and follow there suggestions. That's all that I did and I'm still sober today - two years later. As for staying sober no matter what, this year has been pretty hard at times - my mom passed away and I'm still wondering if I'll get deployed overseas with the military - but I haven't had to pick up a drink to cope. I did, however, continue to go to meetings, talk to my sponsor, work on the steps, read the big-book, and talk to other alcoholics. So, I guess for me, staying sober no matter what has ment taking the actions even when it SEEMED like I didn't have time for them. Or even simpilar yet, as my sponsor would say, don't drink today and go to a meeting. Take the actions suggested Jimbo and you get a shot at staying sober or you can do what you've always done and get what you've always got. With that I'll pass, Robert H.


Member: Robert H.
Location: Ohio
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 4:46:10 PM

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Oops, almost forgot, I also did ALOT, of praying to my Higher Power. Now I'll pass.


Member: Shannon O
Location: Louisiana
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 6:32:37 PM

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Hi I'm Shannon and I'm an alcoholic. Staying sober no matter what. That is a great topic....I just got out of a relationship and feeling the pain is hard but I am glad today that I can feel. I don't have to drink to numb my pain, and for that I am truly grateful.


Member: Don F
Location: NORTHERN ILLINOIS
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 6:35:20 PM

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GREAT LEAD, THANKS Jan !! Thats how I want to live. With the help of HP, AA, and you people I can do it. THANKS AGAIN THE ESKIMO


Member: Norman C
Location: Reading, PA
Date: 3/31/2003
Time: 7:37:09 PM

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Hi, I'm Norm, another grateful alcoholic. When I came in, I wanted sobriety because everything was going bad. I learned that sobriety came first regardless. So I didn't pick up a drink. By now, the reasons I came to AA are mostly gone. For example, I can't lose my job because I'm retired. Now, I stay away from a drink because I like my life and don't want to lose it.


Member: Teri F.
Location: Marion, Ohio
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 7:06:11 AM

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For me, staying sober no matter what simply means learning to live life on life's terms. What the steps have given me is a design for living that works. Life happens, sober or not. When life happens, I don't have to drink about it anymore. That, my friends, is real freedom. Dr. Bob describes how to do this in very simple terms. "Trust God, clean house, and help others". The directions on how to do this are in the first 164 pages of the book 'Alcoholics Anonymous'. Very clear cut directions. It is a simple program that requires an admission of our problem, (step 1), faith (step 2) a decision (step 3), and ACTION (steps 4-9). Freedom comes from living in the solution (steps 10-12). Just not drinking and living in fear of drinking is not what sobriety is all about. If you are living that way, the good news is you don't have to! "We beg of you to be fearless and thorough from the very start." If you are done drinking please find someone who has worked the steps as written in the big book, and who is obviously living in the solution, and ask them to take you through the work. Don't let anyone tell you that you can't start your step work until you have been "sober" for______.(fill in the blank.) That is hogwash. A description of the person you are looking for is on page 18 of the Big Book. It is the italicized paragraph. No where in the Big Book does it say anything about waiting to recover. The book was written by people who had varying lengths of sobriety from a few days or weeks to 4 years! It's all about action and spiritual growth. Spiritual growth comes from living in the solution. TeriF04996@aol.com


Member: Steve S
Location: San Francisco
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 7:14:58 AM

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Great topic. In 1993 I was nine years sober and lost my girlfriend, and brother to cancer, and my father to old age in the same year. My sanity was questionable at times, but my sobriety never was. My struggle after many years, is using the tools that I learned in early sobriety, and not trying to fight through every crisis by myself. Sometimes I need challenges in my life to keep me coming back. Thanks-Steve


Member: Wombat Lenny
Location: Morisset Australia
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 7:17:45 AM

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This program acts as a shock absorber between me and reality. If Im active in the fellowship and the program, I have my shck absorber there and I dont need to drink. I have lost a baby a nd both parents since Ive been sober and there is not one thing that happens in my life that picking up a drink will help. Love you all Lenny Sssssssss


Member: jim
Location: w
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 8:03:51 AM

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Jimbo here, Alcoholic. First time I ever said that... I am gratefull to all of you for your advise from yesterday. I did not make a meeting but I am one day sober and told my wife last night that I have a drinking problem. It was the first step to recovery for me. I don't know a lot about the things you all speak of but I was encouraged just read that I am not alone in this. I am very scared of this whole thing because I have never asked help from anyone for any thing. I am concerned about who will find out because of my position in my community. I would be concidered high profile and worry about the press finding out. Any thoughts for me. Thanks to all of you for your support.


Member: Lani B.
Location: New Orleans
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 8:05:40 AM

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Hi, I'm Lani...I am an alcoholic...Like the topic...If it's bewteen staying Sober...no matter what...or taking back all the misery and suffering that active drinking imparts...well, we have to question our sanity on that one huh guys!! That is what Step2 is so beautifully positioned there for us...Admitting we are powerless...asking for sanity...and then turning it over...with practice, this is a road to Freedom for us alkies who "think" we have the answers!! HP ALWAYS provides a "way out" for us...if we are willing....just for today. I am so grateful for this Group..I am a newcomer here.. for Jimbo....one day at a time...you can do this thing...if you want it badly enough, and pray for the willingness..I send all of us my love and prayers..we are so so fortunate to have this Program...and one another!!


Member: AnilG
Location: MtVernon,IL
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 9:20:16 AM

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I am an alcoholic and an addict remaining sober no matter what is not enough for me it is the working through the steps the criminal thinking of me that needs to be addressed spirituality is the only cure for it.I could remain sober and not drink but hurting others and character defects needs constant reminder that of what i become,thanks toaa and alanon.


Member: ARNIE C.
Location:
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 9:27:42 AM

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HI MY NAME IS ARNIE AN ALCOHOLIC AND A DRUG ADDICT LIVED IN PHX. ARIZONA BEEN SOBER ONE DAY AT ATIME FOR 5 YEARS.STAYING SOBER FOR ME FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT RECENTLY CANNOT STAND ALONE NEED THE MEETINGS OF AA AND A SPONSOR TAKING THE 12 STEPS WITH ME.SO WITH THAT KEEP THE TWINKLE IN YOUR EYES AND THE STARS IN THE SKY.


Member: ARNIE C.
Location:
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 9:28:10 AM

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HI MY NAME IS ARNIE AN ALCOHOLIC AND A DRUG ADDICT LIVED IN PHX. ARIZONA BEEN SOBER ONE DAY AT ATIME FOR 5 YEARS.STAYING SOBER FOR ME FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT RECENTLY CANNOT STAND ALONE NEED THE MEETINGS OF AA AND A SPONSOR TAKING THE 12 STEPS WITH ME.SO WITH THAT KEEP THE TWINKLE IN YOUR EYES AND THE STARS IN THE SKY.


Member: mark w
Location: toronto
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 9:31:32 AM

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hi im mark from toronto. I just recenly have decided i have a drinking problem. Im in my early days of sobriety it has been a very tough few days but I look back and think that i dont want to ever go back to drinking. Is there anyone else who can share their experiences in early sobriety. thanks-mark


Member: MarkB
Location: Canberra
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 9:32:58 AM

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G'Day to all you miracles in action, I'm MarkB and Im 60 odd days sober. No matter what - the what for me is the slow death of me spiritually, mentally & physically. After my rock bottom and the suicide I could not go thru with because of the love of my sisters, I was rehabed and AA showed me that I can no longer look at life thru a bottle or thru drugs. AA has saved my life. I would love to thank you all as Im in Australia and I find that I can now do AA on the net when I feel like drinking as I did when I found this site.Living Sober is hard but its better than my slow death, No matter what! God Bless you all - Love MarkB


Member: Will F.
Location: SC
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 10:08:21 AM

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Jimbo, get to a meetting. Chances are people know you have a problem anyways. What you are dealing with is a hopeless state of mind and body that will kill you or worse, it will drag your life and everyone elses close to you down into hell, given enough time. Alcoholism is a progressive disease that spirals downward. Things will get worse, never better. Of course you may think you are the exception to the rule. Our disease tells us that but we of AA can readily attest to the fact that if you are alcoholic, you have two choices, one to go on to the bitter end or come join us in sobriety. Hope to hear more from you. I'll keep you in my prayers.


Member: Janice C
Location: Arequipa Peru
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 11:10:43 AM

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I'm Janice and I'm an Alcohlic. First time to this group and like what I see.Staying sober no matter what.Well I came into the program Oct. 1st 1985 after many differant attempts of staying sober.I did what I was told and just kept talking no matter how sick and angry I was.It worked and then we moved over seas,I live in Arequipa Peru.All spanish including AA.I was a little worried about myself but found everything I had learened and by trusting God I was doing ok.I have met a few English speaking people in AA here and have learned to talk AA To others with out them even knowing I'm doing so.I never want to forget where I come from.You do what you have to do.I very scareded if I went back out I would end up dead or maybe worse kill someone else.Did a lot driving while drunk and thankfully did not kill anyone.Thanks Janice


Member: RICHAD B
Location:
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 12:13:34 PM

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HI EVERYONE I'M RICHARD A DRUNK FROM KANSAS, STAYING SOBER NO MATER WHAT GOOD TOPIC, YOU GOT TO PUT YOU FIRST NO MATTER WHAT ELSE HAPPENS EARLY ON IN SOBERITY I LOST MY FIRIST SPONSOR HE LEFT BE ALOT OF WISDOM HE HAD 14 YRS, THEN LOST MY NEXT ONE WITH 29YRS, AND THEN LOST MY NEXT ONE WITH 19 YRS LAST WEEK AND ALL OF THEM LEFT WITH SOMETHING AND A LOT OF WISDOM AND A ALOT OF LOVE THAT NOTHING COULD BUY!!! THEY LAST ONE WAS JUST LIKE MY MOM I CALLED HER EVER MORNING AROUND 7 AM AND BEFORE HER DEATH I TALK TO HER AND SHE BLEW ME A KISS AND SHE SAID I LOVE YOU AND NOW THEY'RE ALL HAVE A MEETING IN THE SKY . FOR ALL YOU NEW DRUNK GO TO MEETING AN GET A SPONSOR NO MATTER HOW MANY YOU HAVE TO GET GET MANY IN FACT !!! THANKS FOR LETTING ME SHARING I'VE WILL HAVE 16 YRS SOON AND I WAS COURT ORDER THANK AGAIN LOVE ALL OF YA RICHARD


Member: RICHAD B
Location: KANSAS
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 12:13:54 PM

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HI EVERYONE I'M RICHARD A DRUNK FROM KANSAS, STAYING SOBER NO MATER WHAT GOOD TOPIC, YOU GOT TO PUT YOU FIRST NO MATTER WHAT ELSE HAPPENS EARLY ON IN SOBERITY I LOST MY FIRIST SPONSOR HE LEFT BE ALOT OF WISDOM HE HAD 14 YRS, THEN LOST MY NEXT ONE WITH 29YRS, AND THEN LOST MY NEXT ONE WITH 19 YRS LAST WEEK AND ALL OF THEM LEFT WITH SOMETHING AND A LOT OF WISDOM AND A ALOT OF LOVE THAT NOTHING COULD BUY!!! THEY LAST ONE WAS JUST LIKE MY MOM I CALLED HER EVER MORNING AROUND 7 AM AND BEFORE HER DEATH I TALK TO HER AND SHE BLEW ME A KISS AND SHE SAID I LOVE YOU AND NOW THEY'RE ALL HAVE A MEETING IN THE SKY . FOR ALL YOU NEW DRUNK GO TO MEETING AN GET A SPONSOR NO MATTER HOW MANY YOU HAVE TO GET GET MANY IN FACT !!! THANKS FOR LETTING ME SHARING I'VE WILL HAVE 16 YRS SOON AND I WAS COURT ORDER THANK AGAIN LOVE ALL OF YA RICHARD


Member: Shari G.
Location: Akron, OH
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 2:00:31 PM

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I'm Shari, a grateful, recovering alcoholic and addict. I'm in early sobriety and can't thank AA enough for giving me the tools to stay sober no matter what. I go to a meeting everyday, read my Big Book, pray, meditate, make gratitude lists, inventory, work the steps, and am building a great support system. I just found this site and want to say thanks for being here!!! You are all helping me to save my life everyday. God bless you.


Member: Rich P
Location: Colorado
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 2:41:32 PM

Comments

Staying sober "just for today" was my goal from the beginning (18 months ago) but "no matter what" was not part of the goal. Until very recently I romanticized my FINAL drink. Even with 6 months sobriety, I had this vision of a pint of ale, on the patio of an English pub overlooking the docks. I knew I was an alcoholic and I knew that drinking only brought pain - physical, emotional and spiritual pain...but the vision of that final drink remained. I prayed for willingness to let go of the crazy thought that I could one day drink like a normal person. Today the fantasy of drinking normally is fading, not gone but fading. I am with you today, I will not drink no matter what!


Member: jack c
Location: orlando fl
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 4:07:07 PM

Comments

i am new at aa . i still have a diser to drink any sugestions


Member: Jim W
Location: Oh.
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 4:09:14 PM

Comments

Norm F, Lisa H, Cassy, Robert H, Will F, and Lani B, Jimbo Alcoholic Here. I want to thank all of you for your encouragement and advice these past few days. It is apperent that you are a caring bunch of folks. I know little about all of this but I'm starting to understand that you have all been where I am. This is only my second day since I addmitted to myself that I have a problem. At least out loud anyway. I am going to see a councelor about my problem before I jump on board. Does this make sence??? I am still concerned about going to a meeting because of who might see me there. I know this sounds vain but it's not because of that. I truely have a need for discretion because of my position. You have all helped me by letting me see your commitment to youselves. Thanks to all of you for letting me read your stories.


Member: SuzyQ
Location: NJ
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 5:21:40 PM

Comments

Jim and Mark. When I went to my first meeting, I realized that anyone who would be there, is an alcoholic too. Kind of leveled the playing field. It's called Alcoholics Anonymous for a reason, there are closed meetings where only members of A.A. attend. Getting in touch with local A.A. is Anonymous too. They can mail you literature, includeing a meeting list that shows where closed meetings are. I went to a councelor early on, she sent me to A.A. I went because I had enough. I wanted my life to be different, because it sucked the way that it was. Everyone who was at my first meeting knew exactly what I was going through and knew exactly how I could get better because they had done it too. We are not expets, we just know how to drink till it's driving us insane and killing us. We also know how to get out. There is a solution. Seek and ye shall find. If you want it bad enough, here it is. SuzyQ


Member: Kathy S.
Location: KY
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 6:42:32 PM

Comments

Hi everyone. I'm Kathy and I'm an alcoholic. Good topic. I'd like to suggest to Jimbo that he get a copy of the Big Book and read it if he doesn't already have one. I know it was a real eye opener for me. I read it before I got the courage to attend my first meeting. I too was afraid of being seen there. Imagine my surprise when I got there and was welcomed by several people I was already aquainted with and who had higher positions than mine. Today I laugh when I think about my fear at the time because I was absolutely sure that I would have to convince those people that I belonged there! That was almost six years ago and today I have friends in higher places than I did before. I know people from all walks of life. They are always there for me, just as I am there for them when I'm needed. It frightens me today to think of life without meetings. I got in a rut about a year ago and slacked off and finally stopped going to meetings. I also stopped calling my sponsor because I knew what she would say and I didn't want to hear it. I got so miserable that one evening when I didn't think I could stand it any more the thought came to mind " I know what to do about this, I'm going to the bar". I thank God that He immediately filled me with the worst fear I think I have ever felt. I went to a meeting, called my sponsor and have not been stupid enough to do that again. Talk about a learning experience! I really believe "Meeting makers Make It".


Member: laura k
Location: nyc
Date: 4/1/2003
Time: 7:49:25 PM

Comments

Hi my name is Laura and I am an alcoholic. It is my first time at this meeting. "Stay sober no matter what" is a mantra I have had now for just under 18 years. The thing is, I ahave not spent all of those God given sober days perfectly--or anything remotely resembling that...Yes, it is "progress, not perfection that keeps my recovery in check. When I first got sober, I did not even concern myself with day counting, really. I just kept it in the day. As an above poster said, I just kept the focus on staying sober no matter what for TODAY. The days take care of themselves. And I trust in my higher power that in staying sober I can learn to accept and celebrate my life on life's terms--imperfect, but perfectly Acceptable. A gift to be alive. I need to share that I have not always remembered this. the last year I have made few meetings and while I have not drank, I have "acted out" in ways that aren't so great. I started smoking cigarettes again and shopping a lot. I know this behavior is crazy, as it is euphoria making and yet unfulfilling...plus it is expensive to my health and my wallet. It feels good to be going to a meeting or at least a cyber one everyday again (my personal commitment to my higher power right now). It makes me remember that I only have a daily reprieve, and that putting down alcohol was the best thing that happened to me. i am powerless today over crazy making behavior, so here i am, another anonymous reaching out because i believe have no choice--and i am grateful for that. i simply can't drink and my tendency to seek escapism hasn't left yet (ie smoking and shopping) . who knows if it ever will. that is up to god. in the meantime, i just show up, surrender, accept, and don't drink no matter what. lk


Member: Stewart C
Location: Melbourne Australia
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 4:35:54 AM

Comments

I was at a meeting a while ago and a man got up to share and said two words when asked to share and it was pure genius. He stood at the front of the room and said- "This Works" Then sat down,never a truer word spoken


Member: Wombat Lenny
Location: Morisset Australia
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 5:10:51 AM

Comments

I was told, even if my ass drops off, dont drink, it wont help.


Member: Maggie
Location: IL
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 8:37:01 AM

Comments

Hi, Maggie here. Alcoholic. ((Don)) It seems to me the only person judging you is you. Be good to yourself. We alcoholics sometimes forget to remind ourselves that we are all working for the same things. Our past is just that.....PAST. We create our own misery, its in our very nature. WE ARE ALL THE SAME. Remember, we all have garbage, work the fourth step and get rid of it. Forgive yourself and go on. Have a wonderful day. Don't drink. LOL. Maggie


Member: Rivner
Location: Santa Fe, NM
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 9:02:43 AM

Comments

Howdy. Rivner -alcoholic. No matter what. I reckon that for mee it always comes down to those times when one of those contrary feelings floats up; one of those dissapointments, fears, anxieties, etc. that follow some piece of living life on life's terms. As an alcoholic I've a voice in me that immediately think about anaesthesia for that. Today I accept that being fully human means being willing to experience and work through all the feelings: loss and grief can be big triggers, not to mention the ever present potential of resentment. For today, "no matter what" means "no matter these".


Member: Kelly M
Location: NH
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 9:44:13 AM

Comments

Hi, Kelly a grateful alcoholic. ((Jimbo)) I felt the same shame about being found out by going to a meeting. I did not seek help until I lost the very thing I was trying to hide, my alcoholism. I lost my job and then landed in the newspaper and everyone in a 50 mile radius knew I was a drunk! Talk about being inducted into the hall of shame! There is a saying I like: "Why are we more concerned about saving face then we are saving our ass"? Think about it. King alcohol makes the Grimm Reaper look like a nice guy. The Grimm Reaper just takes your life, alcohol slowly and painfully takes everything good from your life one thing at a time. Your Job, home, family, health, wealth, self respect etc. till you wish you were dead. He will hand you the bottle with one hand and with the other take something precious from you. I personally have experienced this and when I think about staying sober no matter what I REMEMBER drinking no matter what. It makes me sick to my stomach. This is my deterrent. Long term continuous sobriety involves staying active in AA and working the steps and helping another alcoholic. Thanks for letting me share. Kelly


Member: Craig L (Dogmanor@yahoo.com)
Location: Aloha, OR
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 10:45:34 AM

Comments

Craig here another REAL alcoholic (page 21). Alcohol took away every ounce of energy I had to do anything, but get more liquor. When I came back to AA I was absolutely defeated. Alcohol stripped away my self esteem, dignity and hope. I was ready to do whatever I needed to not drink anymore. The steps have brought me that new freedom. My ego still wants to tell me I screwed up here or there, but if I do not take a drink, I had a damn good day.


Member: Stuart
Location:
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 12:47:33 PM

Comments

My name is Stuart and I am an alcoholic I can remember being asked by a member of this wonderful fellowship if I could think of a situation in my life which would be improved if I had a drink I couldn't then and I still can't today, since I put down the drink I have been through a divorce from the woman I vowed I would end my days with, the suicide of my Father and various run ins with some of the a**holes who inhabit this world I have not found it necessary to pick up a drink HOWEVER it has been very necessary for me to attend meetings,be in regular contact with my sponsor and pray on an even more regular basis (even when I didn't want to) As an earlier contributor related This thing works it really does God bless you all


Member: MarkB
Location: Australia
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 1:39:43 PM

Comments

I was just re reading what I wrote last night. Well "No matter what: certainly puts an extreme urgency on it, Hey. Reminds me of the saying IF I WANT MY SOBRIETY TO LAST, I MUST PUT MY SOBRIETY FIRST! and remember WE CANT CHANGE THE WIND - BUT WE CAN ADJUST THE SAILS. with GOD and AA, WE CAN, GOD BLESS


Member: Melanie
Location: Akron, Ohio, USA
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 2:01:46 PM

Comments

Hi, I'm Melanie, an alcoholic. Sure it's scary to attend your first AA meeting. But not as scary as the alternative. We read in the papers and see photos of celebrities taking sobriety tests, lists of who got DUIs this weekend, who has been arrested,...etc...you get the picture. I can't ever remember seeing an article about "Look who's in AA this week!" We are anonymous at the level of press, radio and film. The press seems to respect that. I never remember fighting off reporters with cameras and microphones to enter the meeting. I never even knew where the meetings were until I joined. I too was afraid to see someone I knew at a meeting. When I did, she said, "Hi! Welcome! I come here too!" So new people, come on in to a meeting! We'd love to have you! And as long as you're not the president, we won't tell! (sorry G.W., you can come too!) Love and Blessings to all!


Member: Robert H.
Location: Ohio
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 4:14:25 PM

Comments

Robert H. again, still an alcoholic. Wow, there's been alotta great posts since I was here last. ((JIMBO)) I know you're scared about going to a meeting but if you walk through that fear, you will find the answers you are seeking. One of the original founders of A.A., who was a doctor, was worried about the same thing. Had he not walked through that fear, he would've surely died in disgrace instead of going on to live a wonderful life, which has helped millions. Don't let your pride keep you from the happiness you deserve. It'll be little conciliation to your wife, who you seem to care a lot about, that you saved face for a short period before you put her and yourself through hell. You, like me, like all the people here, suffer from a fatal and progressive disease. If you’re lucky it’ll kill you. Most likely you’ll end up in jail, the nut-house, or like I was, just drinking and waiting to die because you’re too scared to commit suicide. It’s hard in the beginning because this disease tells us we’re different. “It won’t be like that for me.” How many times have you told yourself, “never again” or “I gotta stop this”? How many times did you end up back to where you were before or worse then you were before? If you’re working hard not to drink, you’re probably one of us. I don’t know too many people who aren’t alcoholics that have to work not to drink – they just don’t when they don’t want to, no work involved. And if you’re one of us, it WILL get worse and it WILL get ugly and all the things that we’re saying that haven’t happened to you yet will. Please go to a meeting. Please ask for help. Please do what is suggested.


Member: Diane B
Location: Oklahoma
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 4:57:28 PM

Comments

Hi I'm Diane I have a drinking problem I am sober now 8 days. I've stopped many times before but with a husband that drinks it made it hard. Now I've decided to stop just for me, I am new here and don't attend no meetings was looking for a Alanon meeting cause my Son is a drug addict and he is now in rehab. Then I came across this site and have read all. sounds like I need to find a meeting I pray daily and thank my God for his help


Member: BRAD M
Location: DETROIT
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 5:01:01 PM

Comments

KEEP IT UP DIANE


Member: Diane B
Location: Oklahoma
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 7:18:33 PM

Comments

thanks Brad M, I'm feeling good now I am taking one day at a time I use to think that since I only drank late at night that it was not a problem but then found I would have black outs and not remember something I had said or done. I also don't like me when I am drinking which is a big plus to stop drinking so I just wanted to say hello please remember I am not into the way you guys talk since I've not attended no meetings, I do own the DVD Clean and sober which I love to watch any suggestions would be appreciated


Member: Cath
Location: australia
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 9:02:02 PM

Comments

I'm Cath. I am an alcoholic and I have tried a few times over the years to stop drinking but it seems like each time I try to stop it's harder than it was the last time. I desperately want to stop. I can see how drinking is destroying me but I suddenly realised that I can't imagine my life without alcohol because it's always been a problem in my life. I can relate to Jimbo's comments. I need to help myself and I need to get support to do it.


Member: siobhan
Location: washington
Date: 4/2/2003
Time: 9:19:13 PM

Comments

hi, all. siobhan here, alcoholic. staying sober, no matter what. well, my father (also a recovering alcoholic) once told me that the most important thing in his life had to be staying sober. if he couldn't be sober, he couldn't be a good husband, father, manager, etc. since then, i have heard that same idea echoed in aa mtgs and counseling groups. i hold that philosophy close because if i choose to drink, i am in effect choosing NOT to be a good wife, sister, daughter, friend, mother, etc. if i drink, i will put alcohol over everything important in my life, like i used to do. so for me, it is a 'simple' choice: drinking or everything good in my life. i can't do both. Lord knows i have tried, and failed miserable. just my 2 cents' worth. God bless and stay sober.


Member: Karen W.
Location: Dothan Al
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 12:15:41 AM

Comments

((Jimbo)) - Welcome you are not alone. But don't do this alone. You do need to take everyones suggtions. My job is one of those that would not look to kindly on me going to AA. When i first got my job i was 2 1/2 years sober i asked my sponsor if i should tell them. She said pray and leave it in God's hand. Well the door didn't open until last year and everything is cool. I'm 8 years sober today. But i never stopped going to meeting and today when they need to find me i'm probably in a meeting and they know it, boy that is just a great feeling. Jimbo get to a meeting and leave the rest in God's hands. Karen


Member: tam
Location: nz
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 12:45:35 AM

Comments

I just found this site, its great your sharing is wisdom from the heart, which teaches me, I havent got the problem anymore, I did many years ago, I go to Alanon to try and get a handle on what I should do for my alcoholic son who is drunk right now, in the garage, and last night he has been home here with his family for l6months now and it just gets worse, but he wont get help, Hes due to leave this weekend, and go and board with someone, which I thought Id never say Im pleased, I cant take this anymore, Hes sick really so sad, I really enjoy your recovery stories, it can happen I just have to let life take its toll and pray. thanks for sharing, if anyone would like to email me I would like that jjtukok@hotmail.com


Member: Cami B
Location: Basin, Wyo.
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 1:56:44 AM

Comments

Hello, my name is Cami and I am an alcoholic, For me, being willing to go to any lengths, wanting to be sober MORE than I wanted to be drunk or high had to become my forst priority. As long as drinking is a solution, that is exactly what we as alcoholics will do, beacuse I believe that is our nature. Coming to understand that no matter what the problems I have faced, there is always a solution, without turning to the bottle. Sometimes it comes in a meeting with the wisdom of another, sometimes it comes during meditation after prayer, but the answers do come if I am patient and listen, keeping myself open to see and hear them. Also learning that I cannot do this on my own, I not only need my H.P.'s help, but human beings as well. I was always one who kept trying to do things on my own, and have had to learn the hard way throughout my years in the program, that I by myself solve nothing. Sometimes when everything seems to be going wrong all at once and often that is how it goes, "when it rains it pours" and I am feeling overwhelmed, for the longest time I would tell myself this is too much and I can't handle it and gues what I did'nt handle them well at all. Today, I tell myself that no matter what the problems maybe there is always a solution and that I can and will get through them, with the help of my God, the principles of the program and other members I am close to.One of the many things I have come to believe in and try to impress upon those I sponsor is that problems are temporary and the solution always comes Staying with and working through the pain, getting on the other side, has continued to add to my program, giving more to add to my experonce, strength and hope when it comes to helping and being able to relate to others. I was taught early on to always thank my God for the good that will come from whatever situation I may be faced with. At first this made no sense to me especially when everything was goimg wrong, what possible good could or would come, time after time through my experiences I have seen how the very worst and most painful of times have turned out to be my more rewarding and precious opportubities of learning and trusting, not only in my God, but myself and the program of AA. Thanks for letting me share, Cami B


Member: kathy k.
Location: Northeast
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 5:09:31 AM

Comments

Techs - cannot transfer to Techs - cannot transfer to Early Sobriety meeting from list at end of this site.


Member: Shauna W
Location: Murchison, West Australia
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 5:24:41 AM

Comments

Hi, I'm Shauna and a grateful alcoholic. I was priveliged to meet my now husband in sobriety. He has never seen me drink alcohol and very early in our relationship I discussed with him that my sobriety was THE MOST important thing in my life, more so than my children and him as without my sobriety, I would have nothing. He managed liquor stores at that time(my dream partner!!! God certainly does have a sense of humour) and I eventually decided that I did not want alcohol in my life at all. I thought that would be the end of our relationship, which would have upset me greatly, but my sobriety was paramount. A few days later, he contacted me and had given up drinking himself and begun to attend Al-Anon. That was l3 years ago and no matter what has happened to me in sobriety, MY SOBRIETY always comes first for me. I have always said to anyone I sponsor and with complete confidence that if they can find a reason that I think is good enough to have a drink, to ring me and I will have one with them. NOTHING is good enough to take a drink, so even though people have rung me with excuses, NONE will EVER be good enough for that drink. I thank God daily for showing me this fellowship and a simple program for giving me a wonderful life without alcohol. Today, it was 39C and we sat on a billabong for lunch, watching the birds and just soaking up God's world. It truly is wonderful if I look. God bless, Shauna


Member: Bob Henderson
Location: South Bend IN>
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 9:05:49 AM

Comments

Good morning everyone! Bob here ,alcoholic.First I want to thank God and AA for my sobriety today . and taking a drink today isn't my problem today.Through the Grace of God ,AA meetings ,a sponsor and me going to meetings meetings and mor meetings I havn't had to take a drink in a few 24 hrs,oneday at a time.Jimbo thank you my friend for being here for me and all the rest of you .Jimbo ,MEETINGS<MEETINGS AND MORE MEETINGS!Put your recovery first and everything else will fall into place .thank you everyone again for my sobriety today Bob


Member: Hamish
Location: Sydney, Australia
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 9:26:10 AM

Comments

Hi all, Hamish, Grateful Alcoholic Yes, STATING SOBER NO MATTER WHAT. I know deep down alcoholism is progressive and to drink is to die for me. Drinking will never solve or improve a situation.To drink will mean alcohol (ie. alcohol the great remover) will take away all the good things in my life that I love & am very grateful for.I thank GOD my Higher Power every night for keeping me sober today. One day at a time, don't pick up the first drink and keep coming back! Love to you all:)


Member: Diane B
Location: Oklahoma
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 11:37:34 AM

Comments

Day 9 sober I tried to click on the link below for early Sobriety and it goes to page can not be found? So I'm still here ready Thanks Diane


Member: Sarah
Location: NW USA
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 2:26:10 PM

Comments

Hi, my name is Sarah and I am a recovering alcoholic. Alcoholic Anonymous was started by a stock broker and a doctor ... they were considered high profile and worried about the press. Anonymous is part of the name of A.A.name. It is a principle(in both the steps and traditions)that deals with not just the press but also deals with 'spiritual anonymity of the A.A. members'. A counselor can give you some help in finding some 'closed meetings' if that is your choice. I have been in both open and closed meetings where a stock broker, a doctor, an illiterate, a skid row alcoholic, a housewife, a student,and too many profiles to mention have shared their Experience, Strength and Hope. I would like to Thank one and all for sharing your Experience, Strength and Hope, it helps me to stay sober today.


Member: Susan A.
Location: Vernon, Connecticut
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 2:33:04 PM

Comments

Hi All, I'm Susan and I'm an Alcoholic. This is a good topic. (Glad you're still here, Diane. Everyone here was new once, or struggling with staying sober. Keep comig back here, and also please try to get to a meeting and find someone to talk to about staying sober. You really can do it). 'Staying sober no matter what'...Siobhan and Shauna said the same things I was told - without sobriety, I won't have anything. It's scary learning to live without booze; even good things can be hard to handle. I was told I can do ANYTHING for 24 hours, and that -whatever- is going on WILL CHANGE, so JUST DON'T DRINK, and GO TO MEETINGS. A drink WON'T make anything better, and to remember, it's "IF" not "WHEN" when it comes to getting sober again. Bring your ass and the rest will follow. If you don't drink one day at a time, you've got a chance for everthing to get better. Let us love you until you can love yourself. Thanks, all.


Member: Jim W
Location: OH
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 2:35:32 PM

Comments

Jimbo here, Alcohalic, Thanks to all of you!!! I just went to my first meeting. All my fears were stupid... Eveyone was very helpful and understanding. I have been sober for four days and I feel great to have lifted the burden of carying this all by myself. I have a temporary sponser and a big book and all of my new friends here. I'm going to make it!!! Love you all. Jimbo


Member: Jimbo
Location: OH
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 2:54:09 PM

Comments

Jimbo here, I didn't mean thanks to all of you I'm an alcoholic. I meant thanks to you for you help.


Member: Diane B
Location: Oklahoma
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 3:22:04 PM

Comments

Thank you Susan and yes I am thinking I need to find AA a join soon cause I am out in the weeds here and very lonely so I know that might just help me. I find myself thinking I have licked it then I get those thoughts to drink in my head and the so called good reason I always come up with to either calm down or if I am feeling sick I think oh just a few drinks just tonight won't hurt then that is back to drinking everynight and I know it so I want to STOP DRINKING ALL THE TIME. I know I have a problem cause I can't just drink one or two I drink till I go to bed or pass out


Member: smiley
Location: wa
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 3:42:40 PM

Comments

hello, they call me smiley i didnt want to admit that i was a drunk at first. I would go to my treatment classes and would just sit there and look at everyone else and listen to their stories. Then i would think that thats not me i dont drink like that. but as time went on i reallized that i am like them. i drink to get drunk. but ive been sober since mar 10 of 2003 until last weekend. i felt such quilt that i let down not only myself but my family and group. the crazy thing was i didnt even want to drink. but when the drinks came i would just suck them down quickly enough so i couldnt taste them. im trying again i wont give up yet thanks


Member: Jim W
Location: OH
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 4:41:20 PM

Comments

Jimbo here. (Diane)I just went to my first meeting and it was easy. You need to go. They were all very helpful and kind. most of all they all were happy. The kind of life I want and know you do too. GO!!!! it's alright!!! Jimbo


Member: link
Location: clicker
Date: 4/3/2003
Time: 8:58:36 PM

Comments

The links at the top of the page always work, try them.


Member: T-Bone
Location: S. Fl
Date: 4/4/2003
Time: 5:40:23 AM

Comments

Way to go Jimbo, I'll bet the unfounded fears you may have had about going to that first meeting where nothing like the fears you had after a bout with the booze. It sounds like you have a very good chance of having the life God planned for you. Believe me it is going to be a great ride. Keep coming back.


Member: Robert H.
Location: Ohio
Date: 4/4/2003
Time: 11:40:03 AM

Comments

Robert H. again, still alcoholic. ((JIMBO)) Check you out! One momenent we're pleading with you to get to a meeting and the next you're carrying the message to another sick and suffering alcoholic. Ain't it great. Keep carrying that message, keep going to meetings, and start working the steps and you WILL be alright. I truely am glad you decided to go. You've made my day a little...no, alot brighter. Remember, don't drink, even if your ass is fallin' off, and if you're having trouble with that, get to a meeting or call someone. Keep comin' back. Love ya, man.


Member: Jim W
Location: OH
Date: 4/4/2003
Time: 1:58:29 PM

Comments

Robert H, T-Bone, and everyone, Jimbo Here, I just made my second meeting and I am feeling good. I sence that I can do this with all of your help. I got a sponser a big book and a fresh start. I just got off the phone with my sponser and he was delighted to hear from me that I made it through last night without a drink. I'm staying sober "today" even if my ass falls off!!! You are all an insperation to me. I love ya, Jimbo


Member: MartyG
Location: Cowtown
Date: 4/4/2003
Time: 10:47:25 PM

Comments

hi, Marty a recovering alcoholic. Jim or anyone else in Ohio: (800) 870-3795 (614) 253-8501 Central Office Cols. www.aacentralohio.org Love one another. meg


Member: Diane B
Location: Oklahoma
Date: 4/4/2003
Time: 11:29:25 PM

Comments

10 days today sober and thanks Jimbo I'll really find a place on Monday I hope! Glad you found a good one staying sober and counting


Member: RANDY M
Location: KILLEEN TX
Date: 4/4/2003
Time: 11:40:47 PM

Comments

HI MY NAMES RANDY AND IM AN ALCOHOLIC I DONT REMEMBER MUCH OF MY FIRST AA MEETING BUT THE PEOPLE WHERE LAUGHING I THOUGHT THEY WERE NUTS NOW I AM ONE OF THE LOUDEST IN THE MEETING WHEN SOMEONE GETS ME GOING FOR THE NEW COMER JUST KEEP COMING BACK AND YOU TO WILL BE LAUGHING A LOT HAS CHANGED IN MY LIFE IF YOU WORK THE STEPS YOU TO WILL HAVE A NEW VEIW AND OUT LOOK ON LIFE THE MORE I MISS MEETINGS THE MORE I MISS MY DRINKING I SEEN THAT IN AN AA ROOM IN AUSTINTEXAS KEEP COMING BACK IM RANDY AND STILL AN ALCOHOLIC.


Member: RANDY M
Location: KILLEEN TX
Date: 4/4/2003
Time: 11:41:15 PM

Comments

HI MY NAMES RANDY AND IM AN ALCOHOLIC I DONT REMEMBER MUCH OF MY FIRST AA MEETING BUT THE PEOPLE WHERE LAUGHING I THOUGHT THEY WERE NUTS NOW I AM ONE OF THE LOUDEST IN THE MEETING WHEN SOMEONE GETS ME GOING FOR THE NEW COMER JUST KEEP COMING BACK AND YOU TO WILL BE LAUGHING A LOT HAS CHANGED IN MY LIFE IF YOU WORK THE STEPS YOU TO WILL HAVE A NEW VEIW AND OUT LOOK ON LIFE THE MORE I MISS MEETINGS THE MORE I MISS MY DRINKING I SEEN THAT IN AN AA ROOM IN AUSTINTEXAS KEEP COMING BACK IM RANDY AND STILL AN ALCOHOLIC.


Member: Adelea I.
Location: Dresden, Germany
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 4:19:04 AM

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Adelea-alcoholic. it is morning where I am (europe) and i decided to read this before my day started and I am glad I did. good luck to both Jimbo and Diane. give AA a chance and you will have all of your wildest dreams come true. not only do I get to live a normal-everyday life, but i have been sober through my father dying, graduating from college, getting married, and moving over seas. all of these things have taught me valuable lessons, but most of all I did not have to drink through them. I know for me, the GOOD can be just as precarious as the BAD. this week I started an enlgish speaking AA meeting in my city in the former east germany. I am the only member so far, but I know God has inspired this for a reason, whether it be for myself or somebady else. so please say a prayer for this meeting. and also, know that I am praying for you too.


Member: Diane B
Location: Oklahoma
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 1:07:35 PM

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hi Adelea good luck with your meetings I still need to find one for me this is day 11 sober and today is good. My Son just called he is in rehab for a drug problem and he is on day 20 which is what made me want to stop drinking he told me I was a alcoholic so I hung up on him but did think hard about what he said. I pray when he is out he can continue to stay of drugs and get a job. We have been patient with him for 2 and a half years and now he could be facing Jail if he don't stay clean my hardest will be when he comes home cause he upsets me when he messes up and then I see that as a excuse to drink. I thank God for my 11 days and want to stay sober no matter what


Member: Mike H
Location: Jackson, MI
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 1:43:05 PM

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Hi everyone! I'm Mike an Alcoholic. I just returning back from a 2 yr. relaspe. It has not been fun or pretty. I am in the process of healing severely sore feet, as well as many infections. I guess I needed this relaspe to show me that it will only get worse. Staying sober no matter what never clicked with me. I guess that is where I made my mistake. God, AA, and a good housecleaning will certainly get me back on track. Thanks to all for the support. One day at a time. Mike.


Member: robin
Location: east coast
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 3:39:28 PM

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"no matter what" really strikes home to me....i have more problems right now then i care to share, but i do know that they all will be compounded if i start to drink again...i'll have 4 months on monday...thank God for that, because without Him it certainly wouldn't be possible...


Member: Don B
Location: NH
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 5:19:59 PM

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HI EVERYONE\ I was told 20 years ago if you dont want to drink no matter what. JUST DONT DRINK NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. With GODS help that works everytime.


Member: Colleen C
Location: Michigan
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 6:37:07 PM

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Hi all ~ Colleen here. Seems like everyone else has a much better grip on the alchoholism than myself. Still cant seem to stay sober. I dont have any sobriety time under my belt. The desire is there, has been there, for many a year, but the ability and strength to quit is still not here. I suppose I am still in a form of denial..... Wanting to be able to drink like normal people do. I am angry that I cant. Why do I have to be the one who is the *alchoholic*. I have control issues and this bothers me. I want to control this, but I AM powerless. I just hope that I can finally take care of this problem before the downward spiral has taken me to the point of no return. I am a very reclusive person and I believe that worsens the problem. I am able to hid it so well. I finally came out and told my friends and family about the drinking problem, hoping that would force myself to change. All that did was cause me to dissapear more from any support that I may have. Now I hide my drinking even more carefully than before. I lost my car so it is difficult to get to meetings(yet I can still get that bottle). I was even set to go to rehab,that very day my ex-husband was hit by a car and almost lost his leg. We have a 5 year old son, and now I have to take on full responsibility, so if I went to rehab, he would have no one to take care of him. I CANT go to rehab. Or all will be lost, but if I dont quit drinking I will lose all, just more slowly. On the surface I appear to be so responsible, so many people admire me. Its comical, cuz I am so swallowed up by my addiction. Some cracks are starting to show tho. It seems that the thing that I am able to do best is hide my alchoholism. I fail at everything else but I can sure be an accomplished drunk. Sad but true....I desire success and money and happiness, but hangovers, blackouts and staring at the bottom of an empty bottle of booze fill my life. Life is passing away and all I am is passed out. I am the person that people go to when they are sad and need advice. I am very intuitive to others needs. I just cant apply that depth and wisdom to my own life. I know how to quit drinking, I know what my problem is, I do know the answers and solutions. Yet cant do it myself. I can tell you what you genuinely need to do to better your life. I love to help others. So why cant I help myself? I dont want my son to be going to Children of Alchoholics meetings in 10 years.He is getting old enough that it is starting to affect him. I just dont want him to life his life like I have lived mine. I would never wish this hell on anyone.


Member: Rivner
Location: Santa Fe, NM
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 7:39:36 PM

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Howdy folks. Rivner - alcoholic. COLLEEN. I spent the first 25 yrs. of my adult life in human service, for most of the same reasons you talked about (a propensity for a certain "intuitiveness" about others and a fairly steady stream of folks winding up under my nose - most fairly self-inquisitive). I heard an ol' boy in the program say once that he had hid from himself in the service of others. "Give me someone bleeding on the street - PLEASE!" I think that was my life for many years. Maybe I helped some folks along the wayt, but the point became my need to immerse myself in the "fixing" of others to avoid dealing with the fullness of me. I made a deal with my Creator that I'd never take another human service job unless He stuck it under my nose. That was some 12 yrs. ago. Today I'm a building contractor. God hasn't sent me a human service job yet. I'd reckon He knows what He's doin'. Why do we have this disease? No mistakes in God's world (pg. 449 in 3rd. edition of Big Book - pg. 417 in the 4th edition). I need to accept that there's something about human grrowth and potential that I need to be learning. Being good with others is not enough. I need to continue learning how to be good with myself (accept the comfort of my own company without wandering into that mind of mine which is like a bad neighborhood where I shouldn't be alone). I can usually add up someone else in a red-hot second. It's taken a life time to find that kind of objectivity about me. ELUSIVE. You are, presently, exactly where you are supposed to be. The only way out - is THROUGH. Keep your head humble and plow along. You'll be just fine. Your God is taking care of a lot of stuff for you. Trust that it is so. If you care to: <rivner87@aol.com> Riv. God's Speed!


Member: Jaliyl N
Location: Newark, NJ
Date: 4/5/2003
Time: 8:23:56 PM

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I am an alcoholic named Jaliyl. I have been drinking since I was 5 years old. My life had become the very meaning of the word unmanageable. I lost many jobs, friends, loved ones, my pride, dignity, and sense of self worth. My wife didnt like me. My children didnt like me. I didnt even like me. I was feeling beat down and hopeless. Then I found a treatment facility. I went there for 30 days. When I came home, I was tempted to drink again. but I knew that 1 was to many and 1000 was never enough. That is why I attend meetings everyday and why I am trying this online meeting. I thank God for letting me find a life of sobriety.