Member: Frank D
Location: Vancouver, WA
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 8:42:10 AM

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Hi all, being Frank I am a alcoholic. This week it might be nice to reflect on how we might realate to our AWESOME AA experances via every day reality. Not to for get our Traditions. I personally live AA as an every day reality, and yes to me I find it for the most part quite AWESOME when some one asks me how do I do it. Not only people asking because they see a better way to live then with all the pain that comes with drinking , but "normal" people that I incounter throught out my "one day at a time" real life. Thanks to all for being here & G. B. us all.


Member: Landscape Ray
Location: Scotland
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 9:39:03 AM

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Good topic ((((Frank)))) bringing the program into everyday living, like you i have had people asking how did you cope with that or how do you stay calm, they say i would have went mad or took a resentment, but Frank you and i know that we cant allow these feelings to get into our head and if they do its what we do with them and A.A. has given us the tool to combat this, there again everyday isnt the same and sometimes its hard to be "PERFECT" LOL,When Iwas drinking i used to peek through the curtains and see the next door neighbour out cutting the grass ,playing with his kids ect; i was envious but deep down i wanted to be him, to-day i am a good neighbour thanks to God and A.A. AND THE LOVE AND HELP FROM YOUS PEOPLE regards Ray


Member: Kelly M
Location: Snowed In Again, NH
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 11:51:19 AM

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Thanks Frank for the topic. AA IS ALWAYS giving me POSITIVE experiences on a daily basis. Last night my son and I were watching the Basketball game, something I can do now. I asked him how work was and he asked how my meetings went. Then he said, Wow Mom you almost have 5 months and will get another chip soon. Then he said, I'm so glad to have a mother who doesn't drink, I'm proud of you... Now that simple statement is a gift that AA gave me. Thanks for keeping me sober for another day! Kelly


Member: Shelagh B
Location: england
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 12:17:36 PM

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hi I,m shelagh an alcoholic, where to begin with AA in my everyday life; firstly AA has taught me to look at things differently like being disappointed with how things turn out if I don't have expectations then I can't be dissappointed. Also that if things happen there is a reason maybe it wasn't my time and god has other things in mind for me, maybe it will take a long time to accept these things but I am doing my best on a daily basis. My kids can see a difference in me as we now do things as a family and they don't mind how many times I raid the chocolate box so long as I stay sober. My higher power is all around me showing me different ways to go but the path I take is always down to me, I pray that I take the right one every day. AA has been good for me without it I would be wallowing in self pity. I thank all AA members near and far for keeping me sober one day at a time for the last 5.5 months luv to all sheils


Member: Robert T.
Location: Beaverton Or.
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 1:13:53 PM

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Robert, alcoholic, Hi everyone! It's good to be clean and sober today. Last night my daughter and son and son-in-law and grandson were doing our weekly dinner.Ww went to Chevy's Fresh MEX and they ask me why I couldn't have just one margarita and stop. I got to share with them what it is like to not have just one. They were not drinking but everyone around us were. It felt good to be on this side of insanity. I am glad to live in reality. Thanks to God and you people.


Member: Stacey K
Location: Seattle
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 1:36:54 PM

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I often feel grateful for being an alcoholic because I was introduced to AA and embraced the fact that this is a program for living a really useful and happy life. I never had one of those before, no blueprint. On occasion though I forget about the first step. I think what a nifty program, what fabulous ideas, yes I know how to live a useful life, I accept all people. But really the last eleven steps can't be worked without a perfect first step. I can do little things all day that make me feel good, even while sneaking a drink, but I'll never have that serenity, I'll always have some dark little secret, and it just get worse from there.


Member: Dr Martin Luther King, Jr.
Location:
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 2:43:42 PM

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"A nation that continues year after year to spend more money on military defense than on programs of social uplift is approaching spiritual death."


Member: Dave W.
Location: Sask. Canada
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 2:50:12 PM

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Hi, my names Dave. I'm an alcoholic. This is my first time to share on this site. I am so GRATEFUL for the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous, and for the original 100 men and women and for the inspiration that Bill and Bob have given us. It took me four trys to get it right. The greatfulness is that the doors to AA were always open when I came back again and again. Finally I got the messasge that the first step was to stop drinking and attend meetings and admit I was powerless over alcohol. As the big book talks about spirituality in the chapter to the Agnostic, I realized the difference between spirituality and religion. One night after my wife was in bed, I knelt down by the chesterfield and prayed to God to remove my desire to drink. The next morining my desire to drink was gone and has been ever since. We are such fortunate people to be members of AA to be able to make two trips through this world in one lifetime. Others are so unfortunate to make only one trip. My gratefulnes is for the fellowship of AA, my sponsor, and my higher power. Alcohol was only 10 - 15% of my problem. Living was the major problem. When I get up in the morning I have one simple prayer: Thank you for keeping me safe through the night. Today allow it that your will be done, not mine--which reminds me I must put one foot in front of the other, remembering that my ass is right behind me. Thanks for the chance to share.


Member: Tony P.
Location: Connecticut
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 5:06:48 PM

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Hi, my name is Tony-I'm an alcoholic. God willing, I shall never forget that. It has come to my attention, lately, that I have been running a pretty crappy program. Not the one spelled out in the Big Book. My loving x-sponsor pointed this out to me in no uncertain terms, in front of everyone in my home group. How humiliating! But I'm getting over that. They wouldn't have done that if they didn't love me. I was fired. I'm talking to another good friend, who is acting as my sponsor now. He's kicking my ass, so to speak. I've become very complacent in the past couple of yrs. and my attitude has suffered for it. The basics is where we need to be, to rekindle my relation w/ God. If you're new, please try not to fall into the complacency trap, as I do on occasion. I'm only human. Stay in touch w/ your sponsor, and for your own sake, please follow ALL suggestions they give you. I hope W/ yours and God's help, I can be better at living THE PROGRAM in my everyday life, from now on, one day at a time. G/B you all. Tony:)


Member: DavidH
Location: Nashville TN
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 6:28:59 PM

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First off, I would like to remind Dr Martin Luther King Jr., and any new comer looking at his post, that AA has no oppinion on outside issues. There are plenty of messageboards for political discussions but this isnt one. On the topic of alcoholism and AA I must say God willing Tues, I will pick up a four year chip. I got married last May and have a happy and sane mariage. Im about to buy house for the first time. Thats quite a change from being 33 years old and living in a filthy, tiny college dorm room that my mother was paying for. Drinking over a 1/2 fifth of vodka a day and sorting pills by the handfulls. So many miracles have have happened sinse I started folowing the instruction 'Big' Book.


Member: MarcoO
Location: South Texas
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 9:59:45 PM

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Hi my name is Marco & I'm an alcoholic & drugatic. Thanks for this great topic Frank. This is my first time here. I hope I'm not violating anything saying I'm also a drugatic. I've quit alcohol & drugs for a year before (97-98) cold turkey with no help from anyone but my family. I went back to drinking beer & rationalized drinking by telling myself "Hey, It's better than smoking weed & sorting coke." I guess I'm saying that alcohol is my gateway drug. Just today I told my wife, "I just want to be like everyone else (normal people)that drinks with no problems. I know I can't drink though. Well sorry if I went way overboard on the subject. Thank you AA for being there. Please pray for me as I will do the same for you. Marco


Member: Kim V
Location: kvaughn@madison.main.nc.us
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 11:13:51 PM

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Kim V here alcoholic. I guess the best thing AA has giving me in my everyday life is gratitude. I just left a meeting where I was talking about how when I was actively drinking that I was filled with so much self pity (now a days my pity parties only last a few minutes). anyway nowaydays sometimes when I meet someone who is filled with self pity, and they are complaining, it is almost comical because I am thinking, boy I use to be just like that, and boy is it a sight to see. So today I am grateful for my soberity and that I no longer have the need to hang on to self pity. Thanks for being here.


Member: Dennis H.
Location: Austin TX
Date: 2/2/2003
Time: 11:32:49 PM

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Hi, I'm Dennis H. and I'm an alcoholic. Something AA has taught me that I use daily is that I am not in charge of running the show anymore and that I must live life one day at a time. No expectations, no resentments,no judging...just acceptance of what is laid in front of me right here, right now. Trust completely in your Higher Power, get to know It through prayer and meditation, and give away what you have learned to another in need. Do I do this perfectly? Naw, but I sure try to every day. Thats what it is all about to me. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Tom A
Location: Land of Lincoln
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 1:42:14 AM

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Somthing I've learned from my sponser is I don't have run the universe anymore.He told me to go sit in the balcony and watch'em whirl. I try to remember that and life is alot better.One day at atime. Tom


Member: Ron L.
Location: Winnipeg. Man. Can.
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 2:59:48 AM

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Gee Tom do we have the same sponcer? mine told me to "sit down and enjoy" sure beats having to run the show eh. My names Ron and Im an alcoholic, sitting here wondering when the last time some one made a comment about me being sober Ive been sober almost 30 years. The only thought that comes to mind is that having tryed to live this way of life for that long... People have formed an opinion about me that I can be trusted. that Im a nice guy. and as far as they know Ive always been that way. What they don't know is that Ive spent many nights in jail. lost a wife and five children. Lived only for the next drink. Coulden't be trusted. Living the A.A. program one day at a time for that long has given me so much. But it has also given me a way of life that I try to live by and people just expect me to do the right thing without giving any thought to any other way It would be a real supprise if I went back to boot legging, and pushing drugs MAKES ME LAUGH TO EVEN THINK ABOUT IT


Member: AnilG
Location: MtVernon,IL
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 9:08:49 AM

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I am an alcoholic to me my aa experiance has been mixed at times experiance was rewarding that I have stopped drinkig i have been sober for over 5 years seeing a new life.and future for myself. On the other hand I find it very time consuming boring takes away time from your family the very people that u want to spend time with since I have been sleep and drinking for so long. I am glad that there are other non-spritual ways to get treatment as effective as 12 steps. I think i plan to stick by 12 steps since it works for me. thanks to aa and alanon.


Member: mike b
Location: indiana
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 10:04:54 AM

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Im a losing battle.


Member: Stacey M
Location: PA
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 10:36:49 AM

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Dear Mike B, no your not, get your s!*# together and fight back, you'll be surprised at how strong you can be, this isn't the way your life was supposed to be,reach down and grab hold of the courage God gave you, and try again, we are here for you.


Member: joe s.
Location: Michigan Rezdog
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 11:20:42 AM

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what a great day to be alive and vertical! living one one at a time and doing what other recovering alcoholics do lights the way to my daily reprieve. looking forward to daddy-daughter night with my eight year old. it's a blessing i didn't think possible less than five years ago. thank God and all of you AA's! miigwetch!


Member: renee'
Location: florida
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 12:26:55 PM

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Hi. I am new to this site. I have been living in Florida 2 years now after making my move from San Francisco to treatment then to a halfway house where I lived for many months off and on. I am a chronic relapser. I have had 3, 4, 7 months at a time for the past 2 years but that is all I seem to be able to handle. However, my last relapse has had a very deep impact on me. It does not affect me because something terrible happened, no DUI or anything. It was just me in a bar. I drank a few drinks, had water in between, and was home and in bed by midnight only to wake up feeling fine, no hangover. This scares me. The fact that nothing bad happened and I was seemingly able to drink like a "normal person" sends shivers up my spine. Then it occured to me. This disease I have is very cunning. This disease wants me dead. This disease has figured out how to get me! It has appeared to me in the worst possible form. The form of *hope* that I may not be an alcoholic and the *hope* that I can continue to drink "normally". I am not saying that I will never drink again. I am not saying that I will go to meetings everyday of my life and get a sponser and will work the steps. For me, for today, I am surrendering to my disease. I am letting my disease know that I have chosen to accept it. I am handing over this body and this mind to my higher power. I am taking my first step toward life. Tonight I will go to a meeting. Tonight I will pray to my higher power and say the Third Step prayer. Tonight I will go to sleep. Tomorrow.... who knows. Thanks for letting me share,


Member: Craig L (Dogmanor@yahoo.com)
Location: Aloha, Oregon
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 1:30:31 PM

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I'm a real alcoholic (page 21). Sunday a week ago, I shared some personal information with someone else in the program, who I thought was intelligent, well read and becoming a good friend in recovery. The next day he called to tell me he couldn't stand to be around me. I was stunned. Above all else AA has taught me that honesty is a requirement. Needless to say my serenity was jostled, I spent too much time in my head, but thanks to AA and ultimately God I did not even consider drinking. AA has taught me those uncomfortable times are really periods of growth if I continue to trust in God and do not drink. I wanted to spend some time alone, but I stayed in touch with my sponsor and literally cleaned house, even the closets LOL. I met my obligations to provide rides on Saturday, even when I felt like continuing to hide out. Thanks to the principles of AA, I woke up today back in communion with God and Joyful and my faith is stronger than before, knowing God did not abandon me.


Member: Siobhan C.
Location: Washington
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 1:31:09 PM

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Hello, all. My name is Siobhan, alcoholic. The greatest benefit to bringing AA into my everyday life has been the effect on my anger. I am usually, still, quick to anger and full of resentment about everything, from my weight to my inability to control everything in my life. I have had to learn to let go of these feelings, justified or not, because I cannot afford the damage these emotions will cause in my recovery. AA has taught me how to focus on the things I can control, like my attitude, and allowed me to find peace, if I'm willing to accept it, in the choices I do make. I'm still sober, today, and blessed for being a part of AA. Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Rich P
Location: Colorado
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 1:58:04 PM

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((Mike B)) in Indiana, yes you are losing the battle over alcohol. I too fought it with everything I had, for 25 years, and finally gave up. I lost the battle, I picked up the phone and found a meeting, I went, and I surrendered...not all at once, it took me a while. The paradox is that by the surrendering...I won. I didn't think I was powerless or insane, but a few months sober sure changed that thinking. I couldn't believe the insane things I had done. I was a bit curious why I was still alive when others had fallen. The fellowship here taught me that "WE" share a common problem with alcohol, a problem that has a spiritual solution. By giving my will and my life to God, I gained the first freedom I had ever known. Now I try to live these principles in all my affairs. I try to align my will with God's will on a daily basis. Aligning the will often has very little to do with alcohol and quite a bit to do with life. The good things are starting to come, the insane behavior sometimes returns, but now I have simple tools to deal with it. Thanks to everyone for being there. Peace


Member: Ollie
Location: UK
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 2:25:14 PM

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One day at a time. I don't care about yesterday, tomorrow's still to come. What is important is that we do not pick up a drink today. Through these simple programmes I've converted my EVERYDAY bad experiences to EVERYDAY BRILLIANT experiences. Seriously, AA is a life changer.


Member: Kerry
Location: by the sea in Boston
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 4:26:46 PM

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Member: Kerry
Location: by the sea in Boston
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 4:29:45 PM

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I'm in a really tough place right now and really feel like piccking up a drink. I'm only a 9 days out of detox and I'm struggeling any suggestions? Kerry


Member: Landscape Ray
Location: Scotland
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 6:06:49 PM

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((((Kerry)))) dont lift a drink lift the phone and get in touch with A.A. try and get to meets buddy and be safe prayer on its way from bonnie Scotland regards Ray


Member: Leland
Location: Santa Barbara
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 6:18:58 PM

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Leland, alcholic. Ah come on, gratitude again. Hey, I'm granted two victories per day that are almost guaranteed. The first is in the morning when I open my eyes. I know that I'm not supposed to be here. Really, after all the years of black outs and putting myself in bad situations, I shouldn't be a breathing free man. Secondly, if I do what has been suggested by that AA book and what some of the people with time say; then I can go to bed at night with another day free from boozing. All the other stuff: my wife, my new car, my job, my my my etc are extras that really are a blessing in some way. Again, because of my fundamental nature as an alcoholic know that I should be locked up or deceased. Ok damnit I'm grateful.


Member: Marv L.
Location: Laurel,Ms
Date: 2/3/2003
Time: 7:43:03 PM

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Hi,Marv L,alcoholic.Good topic,Frank.The life-changing steps and fellowship of AA have made my life one long series of awesome happenings..And at the same time,it sure helps with the day-to-day stuff that life still hurls at us,huh?? Hey,Mike B,Ya didnt say much,but feeling like a losing battle aint too bad a start to sobriety!!! DO GET IN TOUCH WITH near-by AA,I remember when I had to sober up about half the night in order to get a phone-call made to ask "em for help!! that was 21 years ago,and so far I havent found it necessary to fight an unbeatable foe alone! Sober I can hack it--even if I trust folks like Craig told about who turned out not to be trustworthy, and Kerry,PLEASE reach out,buddy,AA is a "we" program--hey getcha a sheet of paper and a pencil,and write a list of ALL the things you have to be grateful for ! Doing this saved many of us--call a friend,and tell em JUST how you feel,and that you might take a drink as soon as ya finish your gratitude list,LOL, betcha the feeling of picking up a drink CAN pass!! Lastly,Leland,I too have fleeting "I"m sober dammit" feelings,but WOW,being alive,seeing the promiseses on Pg.83,84 come true,and knowing I am never alone add up to an AWESOME life.One day at a time!!


Member: Gary N
Location: Waterbury CT USA
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 9:15:11 AM

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Hi Gary alcoholic and addict here, today I have a peace of mind. That's one of the great gifts I have gotten since I stopped drinking. and the rest was form all the work I applied in the steps I took. I now actually hear what people say. For 15 or so years I isolated myself in my own little world and tried to drown the pain and resentments and guilt. Today I can smile and I can't remember the late time I did that with out acting. I'm so grateful for the power great then me and for all how make the suggestions that I hear and apply to my live today. Thanks for being here today and for all whom didn't drink today for you helped me more then you know. and If you want a drink to today think things thought to the end. Than pick-up the phone and share with someone what you just thought. It could save the day and possible you life. And I'm not only talking about you physical being look at all the small little things family, friends that need you as much as or more you need them. think think think, and keep sharing. love you all. Gary


Member: Pam D
Location: Anaheim, CA
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 10:44:56 AM

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AWESOME - meaning full of awe... somedays I really am in awe... that I have stayed sober, a day at a time, for more than 18 years, through all that daily living has had in store for me. That has included many awe inspiring things: the birth of my daughter, witnessing some incredible acts of kindness and other changes in folks who used to kill people for looking at them funny, watching as I have grown and grown up in this program, and getting through a graduate degree. It has also included some really rough stuff - the sudden death of my sponsor, walking through severe depression sober, and surviving getting shot at. These horrors also brought me to experience awe at the cruelty that humanity can still exhibit. But, most of all, I am in awe that some power greater than me has seen me as worthy of another day's breath, on a regular basis, even when I don't see it myself. I saw a quote the other day that seemed fitting: "This is courage... To bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." Euripedes For those that struggle - if you don't drink, no matter what happens, then you won't get drunk. My experience has been that all trials and tribulations DO pass, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, but there are miracles that happen every day in the lives of those who work the program on all levels of their lives.


Member: Tom M
Location: Homosassa, FL
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 11:42:08 AM

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My name is Tom M and I am an alcholic. I too am amased that I have been sober for over 12 years. If anyone had told me I could stay not only sober that long, but have a good life doing it, I would have wondered what dream world they were living in. But its true. But it was done just for one day. 12 years later I still remind myself when ever I think about taking a drink that just for today I choose not to take that first drink.I find if I think about helping someone who is still suffering in that alcholic world I get through the day without taking that first but I am reminded how it could be if I did take that first drink. Thanks for the oppertunity. Tom M.


Member: Jennie I
Location: Richmond, Va
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 12:26:28 PM

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Hello, I"m Jennie & and I'm a drunk. I'm grateful that I am sober today. Every experience in AA is a good experience because I can grow from it. Even though I don't always like every person, place or thing in my life, I know that I can gain some kind of experience, strentgh or hope from them. (It might take a while for me accept the results or appreciate them) Kerry, keep coming back, we've all been there!


Member: Kathleen
Location: Floral City, Florida
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 12:49:00 PM

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Hello all, Kathleen here, alcoholic. Good topic. Gratitude. Such an awesome gift this program has given me. When I first came through the doors of AA I was hopeless, guilt ridden, full of remorse and did not belive that there was ever going to be any happiness for me. I hated myself. Thanks to my sponser that I met when she brought a meeting into detox, and to the program of AA, (the 12 steps) and to all of you folks, my life is totally awesome today. Is it always awesome? Sometimes I don't feel like it. However, going through life sober and walking through tough times, the other side of difficulties comes more knowledge and more peace than I ever imagined. The promises DO come true. When I first heard of promises I didn't think much of them because the word promise didn't mean anything to me. A promise was something that was meant to be broken. But walking through the steps and trying to live by the principles of this program the promises have come true. All of them at one time or another has come true and I'm very grateful for you and the program. If yer new please don't give up "5 minutes before the miracle happens."...Miracles do happen.... THanks for being here for me. rambler@atlantic.net


Member: Tracy
Location: England
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 1:52:49 PM

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Hi Tracy alcoholic here, What has AA done for me well... 20 days sober and got some self pity today yuk!! but being part of AA has led me to this site and just sitting here reading the posts ((kim V)) and ((craig's)) sent a message to me Thanks Friend's tracy.v@ntlworld.com


Member: Linda P
Location: Wisconsin
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 2:11:15 PM

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Hi, I'm Linda P, an alcoholic. Gratitude. I too, when I first came to AA I felt hopeless, guilt ridden, full of remorse and did not belive that there was ever going to be any happiness for me. Sometimes I do wonder if I ever will be happy again. I'm grateful for many things. My house, my husband, my children, my job. I have to concentrate on the positives in my life now and now any negatives. thanks for sharing and for letting me share. Linda


Member: barrie b
Location: yellowknife nwt canada
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 4:50:21 PM

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hi my name is barrie b. and im an alcoholic. also just an old drunk sober today by the grace of god and the programme of AA. being browsing this site for the last month and really like what iv been reading. real AA. so its time to share. nice to read ron l from winnipeg and if its the same fellow from here i used to know it makes for a small world. been sober a number of years and the gifts are so numerous it would be an all nighter to tell you about all the things im gratfull for. just that its been good to wake up and know exactly whos bed im in and where i was the nite before. to know the truck isnt totalled and is parked in its normal place. to be pain free both physically and mentally has been a blessing. to have a god of my understanding has been comforting in the last few years as i travel about and the feeling of not been alone has provided me with a serenity that i never had when i drank. thank you all for my sobriety and wish you all another 24


Member: AZbill
Location: Sierra Vista, Arizona
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 5:31:52 PM

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Gosh Frank D. I could write a book on awesome experiences of reality. Bill here. Alcoholic from Arizona. The right people coming into my life at the right time? I call these experiences "God Shots" I have had countless God Shots. Countless. They started when I was not even a week sober. Man asked me if I really had quit drinking? That "12 Step" got him and me into AA. He was my first sponsor. We are both sober today. Spiritual growth. I sleep safe at night. Wake up refreshed. Economic security. Less than a month a former boss from over a year back heard I had quit drinking once again. He hired me back. Freedom. I have the free will to drink or not to drink today as I choose. Intellectual growth. Just past my first year I entered college. Graduated an A student with a B+ average :). Took two board exams. Passed them both. Went into my field of study. Published. Self seeking slipping away. I was on the 12 Step call list in Metro Denver. Made hundreds of calls with a 100% success rate. I never took a drink. :). My whole attitude and outlook on life. I was terminal in my 13th year. Doc's said the only thing that saved my butt was my attitude and sense of humor. For that alone I thank you Frank and many like you. Handling baffling situations. I quit two jobs, fired from one, one company closed. I found the best job of my life just 12 miles from the point I started. God doing for me.. The family I lost drinking is back in my life today and I even gained a Hubby in Law. I am welcome in their homes. All of them. I am running out of space and have not even scratched the surface. Bill az-bill@mindspring.com


Member: Dan G
Location: California
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 5:33:21 PM

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Thank you Dennis H for sharing. I needed to hear that. God Bless Everyone.


Member: Jackie L.
Location: Pa.
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 7:05:08 PM

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MIKE B.- Welcome!! Just don't drink today, my friend. I remember feeling like World War Three was taking place inside me; GOTTA DRINK___GOTTA NOT- but so POWERFUL!!So exhausting!! It didn't stay that way. Peace and joy came one day, just not drinking for one day..lots of meetings .Please keep posting. It helps to keep me me sober KERRY- A loosing battle? That must mean that you're one of us !!!!!!! How cool!! Please keep coming back and sharing. We become living miracles one day at a time and YOU reminded me of that. Thanks for helping to keep me sober today!Meetings, meetings, meetings.. TRACY_ENGLAND...You ,too, keeping me sober today and I love you for it. I am so grateful for the life I have today. i don't mean the outside stuff. I mean things like the quiet , joyful , deep , peace that's growing in this once hopelessly unhappy soul of mine. It seems that NO MATTER WHAT'S going on , as long as I'm working this simple program, like Craig shared ,it just keeps getting better in this old heart of mine. Used to be that NO MATTER WHAT was going on it just kept getting worse. I am profoundly grateful Grateful beyond words.


Member: Lisa K
Location: Michigan
Date: 2/4/2003
Time: 11:04:44 PM

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Hello Everyone! Lisa here,I'm an alcoholic,66 days sober and feeling pretty good! GRATEFUL? yes I am,very much so that this fellowship is a WE program,thanks to my higher power and all of you I have a second chance at life. I could not do it alone,as hard as I've tried. ACCEPTANCE is the key to our disease and One Day at A time is all we got. I am powerless of not only alcohol but people, places and things.I say the sereniity prayer a million times a day and it helps me to remember my higher power is in control and HE dont make no mistakes. I have a serenity Ive never known since I found this fellowship. I dont have to ever be alone. (Kerry) Keep coming back! This program really works if you want what we have you have to be willing to go to any lengths. I will say my worst day sober is still better than my best day drunk! It works if ya work it!meetings,meetings, meetings!!! thanks for letting me share letting me share!


Member: Dudley D.
Location: DAYTONA BCH,FL
Date: 2/5/2003
Time: 12:47:25 AM

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Im an alcoholic named Dudley, hi everyone. this is my first meeting on line so please bear with me. First of all I would like to thank Frank for the topic its right up my alley for whats been going on with me for about the past 2 years. Im a truck driver and I havent had the opportunity to do the meetings like I would like to be doing. So consequently my head has been in a very bad way here lately. Ive been so full of anger and its been affecting my personal life as well as my proffesional life. The amazing thing is I havent had the desire to drink or use yet, but I knew that if I were to continue on the same path that I was on it would be just a matter of time. But thanks to the tools that I have gotten from A.A. I knew exactly what to do and that was to get back to meetings once again. Thanks to everyone for being there, and once again thanks for the topic.


Member: Josh S
Location: stoddarts@shaw.ca
Date: 2/5/2003
Time: 4:50:19 AM

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Hi i'm josh and i'm a grateful member of AA. I would just like to talk breifly about the state of AA. I've been doing alot of research lately, comparing AA today with what AA used to be. I'm talking about the AA that had that 75% success rate. Today we would be lucky if could brag a 5% success rate. now i know they are just statistics, but their are some major differences. today's AA i just a watered down version of what it used to be like. I won't go into detail in case of offending somebody but if you have any questions don't hesitate to e-mail me. If nobody's said they love you today let me be the first.


Member: anonymous alcoholic (dos 12/12/90)
Location: 2689 Ridgecrest Drive
Date: 2/5/2003
Time: 8:08:03 AM

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Thanks Frank. Your topic reminds me of something someone shared at a meeting over 10 years ago. The alcoholic's name was Jerry and he was talking to his brother several miles away. The brother asked Jerry if he was still going to those silly AA meetings and Jery said yes. The brother then asked Jerry that since he no longer drinks, what does Jerry do to unwind? (I thot Jerry's reply was GREAT!) Jerry told his brother that by going to his 'silly' meetings, he doesn't let himself get 'wound up' in the first place! Thanks for bringing back that memory Frank - I think I'll ask my Higher Power to help me not to get wound up today :-)


Member: Frank D onemagic@qwest.net
Location: Vancouver. WA
Date: 2/5/2003
Time: 9:18:50 AM

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Hi all, sorry about sharing x2 but I need to do this. Why because Josh S's e-mail seems to be bog-ass. Any way , stat. man, just wondering how many members then ,to now? Stating facts works for me, with in the right context. Is the format for this metting a week long "TOPIC DISCUSSION?" Hey Josh I'm not trying to start something, just letting go of something, now I can let God! Oh ya, over 13 years ago a good AA friend whom I still see from time to time, told me"God allows U turns" Have a nice rest of the day.......


Member: Richard B
Location: kansas
Date: 2/5/2003
Time: 10:02:39 AM

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Hi all!!! Richard an old drunk that became a ALOCHOLIC bye going to meetings and doing things i did'nt want to be told to do bye them old timers THANK GOD FOR THEM OLD TIMERS you see i want to be come an old timer!!! one told me not too die and go to meeting to become one which was good advice another told me to HUG SOMEONE AND MAKE THEM FEEL GOOD, JUST DON'T DRINK TODAY BUT TELL YOURSELF YOU'LL DRINK TOMMOROW . LOVE ALL OF YA Richard


Member: DennisK
Location: PA
Date: 2/5/2003
Time: 8:05:42 PM

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Hi, Dennis here, alcoholic. This my 2nd week on this site. What this AA site does for me is make me happy and grateful. I'm happy to hear all the success stories, and grateful for all the good tips I get from you all. To Mike B, you're in a tough battle, but remember that's better than the alternative. Hang in there, buddy, keep the faith, and keep in touch. To Stacey M in PA, who had good words of encouragement for Mike B, thanks for the encouragement you gave me last week. That's one of the things I love about this site. To Renee in FLorida, hang in there. Easy does it and you can do another 24. To Craig L, good job man! Keep the faith. And to Kerry by the sea in Boston, how about taking a walk by that beautiful sea, take some deep breaths of fresh sea air, talk to your God a bit, and be thankful you're out of detox. Things could be a lot worse. You're tough enough to get out of that tough place. Thanks for letting me share. Thanks to you all for being here. Another 24 to you all!


Member: Lori B
Location: Birmingham, AL
Date: 2/5/2003
Time: 10:43:23 PM

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Hey, everyone, I'm Lori and I'm an alcoholic, with 93-ish days in the program. This is the first time I've been on this site...my sponser told me about it last night. I'm still feeling times of being "dry drunk" but I am just now starting to learn how to work the steps over issues, especially since my hubby lost his job and I had to leave my kiddies to go back to work......still didn't drink, though. I am grateful for one thing that happened, and reminded me I don't always even see the advantages of my sobriety. My hubby and I were interviewing in another town, and the firms lead and second guy, and their wives took us to dinner. AFterward, my husband told me how glad he was I wasn't drinking...that I would have gotten lound and boisterous, not paying attention to others and interrupting them. Even more, I was really funny and interesting because I was IN the moment. That wouldn't happen if I had been drinking, even if I didn't get drunk. I had been deluded into thinking the alcohol was helping me, but it was keeping me from being as personable as God made me. I am grateful for that!!


Member: Pete H.
Location: AZ
Date: 2/6/2003
Time: 11:14:19 AM

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Member: Deanna L
Location: Romance, AR
Date: 2/6/2003
Time: 11:16:42 AM

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Hi, I am Deanna, I am very grateful to have this program which gives me one-day at a time. Through the grace of God and AA, and a wonderful sponsor I have been sober three months. Withoug a thirty day treatment program I would have never found the rooms of AA. I am very grateful for the fellowship of other AA members. I am stuck at home today and was missing a meeting do to snow and my 5 year old is out of school. This is my first time at an on-line meeting, and this is a very good topic. I want to express my gratitude to each and everyone for being here.


Member: Pete H.
Location: AZ
Date: 2/6/2003
Time: 11:22:16 AM

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HI- My name is Pete and I'm an alcoholic.....just wanted to say to Josh S. that AA works in my life 100% of the time. I gave up looking at stats a long time ago, and now spend my time carrying the message into jails and prisons, for that's what AA asks of me. It's in the 12th step that I have found my recovery, and ty Frank for the topic. I hope this will give someone who still suffers a glimmer of hope. When I got busy, I got better. GB those still in pain. There is an easier softer way....AA is my answer to my disease. Stay with us....You will LIVE again!! In sobriety I remain yours,Pete


Member: SNAKE RIVER JON
Location: AZ
Date: 2/6/2003
Time: 11:53:24 AM

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DOUBLE DIGET ,TRIPPLE DECADE I THANK A.A. FOR GOD AND I THANK GOD FOR ALCOHOLICS ANOMYNOUS


Member: aaron h
Location: newtown, nd
Date: 2/6/2003
Time: 7:12:43 PM

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hello everyone great to read your experience. page whatever of the big book tells us to put to use the experience we here from other A.A. members both new and old to avoid the hideous four horse men Lonliness , despair, frustration, and bewilderment after the first drink gets us not the last one. More like hideous defects of character that the insanity of the first drink brings on. before sober we could not live In today It was always tomorrow or yesterday , today we have the serenity, thanks to all of you my day will have a little more grattitude in It, stay spiritually active all you lives. outta here


Member: Le Ann Q.
Location: N. FL
Date: 2/6/2003
Time: 9:11:45 PM

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Hi, Le Ann, Alcoholic. I'd just liek to say that I'm grateful to AA and my HP for today, being alive and being sober. I'm especially grateful for not having extremes in my life to day. The roller coaster effect is gone and I'm on a peaceful river, paddling thru my life. Not to many "what if" questions arise and when they do I just remember "This too shall pass". It's something my sponsor says about everything! Thanks for letting me share.


Member: Jeff T.
Location: Ne.
Date: 2/6/2003
Time: 10:57:46 PM

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Jeff, alcoholic. Hi all, the other day a guy at work asked me after hearing a story about a DWI car wreck, he said what makes some people drink that much? how come some people are alcoholic & some are not? why would anyone want to drink that much ? Well my first thought was he obveously is not a alcoholic, or he would be able to answer his own questions like these. This was a tuff question to answer. I told him my story, and why i think i drank so much & did the things that i did to get a point in my life where there was no place else to turn but to AA. And i also told him how i was not willing to admit that i was an alcoholic at first, but how the people of AA taught me a way to live sober. I`m not sure he understood all that i told him but this was the best i could do to explain how it worked for me. This really made me think, just how do we get the non-alcoholic to see that we are some how different from normal drinkers? How do we 12 step a non-alcoholic? I gave him the only thing i had to give, my story.


Member: Mark F.
Location: Pa.
Date: 2/7/2003
Time: 12:27:24 PM

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Mark F. one drink away from a drunk. Ive read alot of good stuff on this site recently. as for aa working in my everyday life, I think the program has allowed me to think before i act or speak. This is a huge change from the way i used to be.That fraction of a second that allows me to examine my own thoughts and motives is something completely new for me. In my active ism, I would have spoken or acted without regard to anyone or anything else. Also I have become genuinly concerned with the well being of my fellow man. I feel sorry for the many people not in this wonderful program, because they havent got a network of caring fellow sufferers to rely on for advice, and understanding.As for twelve stepping a non alcoholic, I dont think it can be done on a personal level. possibly through the pamphlets or public information forums. I don`t think that a non alcoholic can fathom the extent of this disease without direct involvement with a suffering alcoholic,or an intimate relationship I dont think its possible. thanks for allowing me to share


Member: Marvin B.
Location: KY
Date: 2/7/2003
Time: 5:59:51 PM

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My name is Marvin, and I am an alcoholic. As far as applying AA in everyday life, I appreciate Mark F.'s comment about thinking before I act. That's a biggie! I recommend reading the Daily Reflection for January 20, which, in turn, references the BB p. 87: "As we go through the day we pause, when agitated or doubtful, and ask for the right thought or action." Also, I like something I heard once that goes something like: Between stimulus and response, there is a space. And in that space, I can choose my response. And in my response lies my growth and my freedom.... I also learned, in many cases, I can control the duration of that space. I can take as long as I need to avoid saying or doing something I'll regret later on. Thanks for all your comments, and have a good day.


Member: recovering statistician
Location:
Date: 2/8/2003
Time: 8:16:18 AM

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AA's success rate? Who knows! But, in 1935 there was one group and 2 members. In 2003 there are over 80,000 groups with a total of 2,000,000 members. If AA DOESN'T work, then there are a lot of stupid people needlessly going to meetings :-)


Member: Hugh
Location: Alberta Canada
Date: 2/8/2003
Time: 11:45:48 AM

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Hi Im Hugh and a recovering alcoholic I have tried to stay sober many times before this time has had such an impact on my life and its been through the contact of many AA members and many meetings and the Big Book that I have had a one year birthday and am working on my 17month of sobriety by letting go and letting God all one day at a time. thankyou for my sobriety. I really dont care about stats but our groups in our areas see a greater success than 5% but it does tell us that some of us are sicker than others. All I can say is that your sober today and so am I by the grace of God see ya


Member: Chris H.
Location: Fla.
Date: 2/8/2003
Time: 4:59:29 PM

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I'm Chris _I'm an alcoholic/addict/bulimic...there are soooo many things in life that this program has given me...As others have said I am LEARNING to be greatful...It is a discipline and change of thinking for me...Before I got into A.A., I always thought about the worst things that were happening to me and the worst things that could happen to me, and how I was going to get out of whatever bad thing was happening to me at the time...Now , I am trying to think of all of the good things that are happening to me and to think positively about the future and to live in the moment...That all takes time, but I am also learning to be patient with God's timing and not wish for things I don't have yet( a hard one) ---and to be greatful for where I am. I also am trying to learn to live "life on Life's terms", another hard one for me.."Progress not perfection" is one of the other great benefits of this program for me...When I learn to live this way , it makes life worth living and allows me to enjoy the great gifts God has given me. Before, I was always hoping for something I didn't have or for some "pie in the sky" unrealistic ,idealistic life I would never have. Now, Through this program and my Higher Power I am learning to live a valuable life ...that I can contribute to rather than take from.


Member: Sharon Frey
Location: Milwaukie, Oregon (burb of Portland)
Date: 2/9/2003
Time: 6:21:15 AM

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Sharon a grateful alcoholic. Today, AA is a way of life.. sure wasn't 25 yrs. ago. I couldn't have made it this far without my God and AA where I found my God. Today, I can act upon instead of reacting. AA taught me that.. what an eye-opener.. I am grateful each day that I awake and am breathing.. shouldn't be,I should be dead, but obviously my HP has other plans for me. Today it's HIS will, not mine, yes, it is harder somedays than others but with HIS help, I can make it. Gratitude is my middle name.. Each day I stay sober is easier than the last in some way. To the newcomers, I welcome you, and if a day gets too long, cut it off and go on 4 min. at a time.. Any one can do or not do something for 4 min. AA will teach you how to stop and re-start your days.. Hang in there, don't drink between meeting, and if you can't get to a meeting, like I am housebound, the net sure helps, 24x7. Love and prayers, Sharon \slfrey@yahoo.com