Hi, everyone. My name is Judy and I'm an alcoholic. Please check the "coffee pot" for my suggestion on starting the week's topic on Friday.
This week's topic is "Do you still ask for help, and do you still follow direction in the Program?" A funny example from my life was a couple of winter's ago in NJ. The weather was really foul, icey, etc leaving work, and in the parking lot I said, "God, shall I take route 80 or route 46 home to PA? A clear voice said "Take route 46" and my instant response was NAH! I don't need to do that! Then I realized what I was saying, apologized profusely to my Higher Power and took 46. The radio annouinced that the State Police were asking all snow-mobiles and 4 wheel drives to help take people off Route 80 because they were stuck and trapped -- but there wasn't ONE car on 46 and I had a slow, safe trip home.
How come my first response wasn't "Thank you?" Because I'm stil an ego-centric, independent know-it-all! It is still difficult for me to call someone in the Program, lay out a problem and then LISTEN. (Oh yes, and then be willing to FOLLOW a recommendation!)
Anybody out there like me?
Testing -- Please check the coffee pot for a suggestion
Hi all what an open topic, letting go and letting God and then following directions especially God's directions is a big order for this alcoholic. I do not like to be told what to do it ruffels my feathers but when it comes to the well bieng of myself and my alcoholism I had better listen and do for I will truly falter and end up in the pain and misery bin. I dont like it there so I must alter my attitudes and behaviors according to power this program. I like Judy have trusted my Higher Power to guide me and I try to follow to the best of my abilities like a straw in the wind my direction for living and what I do next. So far it has worked with me if I pray for direction and God has not let me down or ley me falter yet. When the house gets empty I go to pray at the gap and the phone calls start and the house fills up. Many people ak me where my family comes from and I can readily say that God sends them. I am so grateful. With love joanie o
In thinking about our day we may face indecision. We may not be able to determine which course to take. Here we ask God for inspiration, an intuitive thought or decision. We relax and take it easy. We don't struggle. We are surprised how the right answers come after we have tried this for a while. What used to be a hunch or the occasional inspira- tion graduallu becomes a working part of the mind. Being still inexperienced and having just made conscience contact with God, it is not probable that we are going to be inspired at all times. We might pay for this presumption in all sorts absurd actions and ideas. (Thank God for sponsers) Neverless, we find that our thinking will, as time passes, be more and more
ON THE PLANE OF INSPIRATION!
We come to rely on it...
Now ladys and gentlemen, THAT is something to get excited about... I am forever grateful that as the drink went away the void could be filled with something. And that something is nothing less than inspiration. (Faith)
Free directions from above! Wow! All I need do is listen to my conscience! Conscience Contact! How about that! Listen carefully and run it by your sponser. Then proceed with great enthusiasm...
We have what most normal people only ever hoped and dreamed for. I am very, very, very Grateful. Love :) Perry H.
I've been checking the meeting all week,and drawing a blank on what to share about. I guess my HP does'nt talk directly to me very often.
I just got off the phone with my errant pigeon he called me again about 3 weeks ago, back again he thinks he finally got it, I told him go to a meeting a day and call me and he did for two weeks the longest stretch since I've known him. Last week he sounded better than he ever has. Then no calls till tonight his starter broke on his car and he did'nt go to any meetings, and now he feels like killing himself again. He just doesnt believe AA will help him.
He believes he powerless,and his life is unmanageable, but doesnt have the Faith, That something more powerful than him can restore him to sanity. I told him it's step 2,he's not getting. I was there for 12 years, the misery of alcoholic life with or without a drink being more bearable than that blind leap of Faith that is needed to GET this program I got it,from where I know not. I'll pray tonight that Jim gets it too, Maybe his HP will talk directly to him.